Well hey there guys! This is my first ever POTC fanfic, and also my first ever songfic, the song is Torn Between Two lovers by Mary Macgregor as you may of guessed from the title! I hope you like it please review :D
So the idea came to me when I was listening to this song and I thought it was the perfect song to explain the situation!
DISCLAIMER: as much as it pains me to say I don't own Captain Jack Sparrow or anything to do with POTC nor do I own the music or lyrics used in this story.
There are times when a woman has to say what's on her mind
Even though she knows how much it's gonna hurt
I sat alone in my cabin contemplating my next action. The steady rock of The Black Pearl was now a soothing, background motion rather than the nauseating movement that had ticked me off the first months I was sailing the ocean. When I finally got my courage up, I went to the door and yelled out.
"Gibbs! Have you seen Will?" He looked up and smiled at me, a warm, kind smile that immediately reminded me of my childhood; a pang in the middle of my stomach made itself present, the way that it always does whenever I think about my late mother and father.
"He's up there talking to Jack," He replied, pointing to a place above me that I could not see. Great, I thought as I walked up the stairs towards the two men. They turned in my direction as I approached and Will's face broke into a smile that went from ear-to-ear. It broke my heart knowing what I was about to do. I didn't look in Jack's direction once, though I could feel his scrutinizing gaze into my back. Yes, I wanted to say, I'm about to tell him.
"Will? Could I talk to you for a second... in our cabin?" I added on a small smile for his sake but he saw through it straight away. His face crumpled into confusion as he studied my face trying to decipher the meaning for my depression. I felt Jack's mood perk up immediately, though I wasn't looking at him and Will's eyes averted to his face for a spilt second. He looked even more confused.
Walking towards the cabin, I felt Will's arms snake around my waist, obviously meant as a comfort gesture but it just upset me more. Finally, we reached our cabin.
"Will..." His eyes shot to my face in worry.
Before I say another word let me tell you, I love you
Let me hold you close and say these words as gently as I can
"I love you, you know that right?" He numbly nodded, for some reason becoming mute. I walked up and wound my arms around his waist, hugging him tightly to me. "I don't know how to say this to you... it's not going to come out right."
"Come on Honey, it can't be that bad, anything you say, we'll work through it." I took a deep breath.
There's been another man that I've needed and I've loved
But that doesn't mean I love you less
"Well... remember when you went with the crew to Tortuga to stock up on supplies, but I stayed on the boat because I didn't feel well? Do you remember Jack stayed with me? Well, that night, me and Jack made love. And please don't be mad! Please forgive me. I still love you!" I begged, a clear film of tears forming over my eyes blurring the image of the man I thought I loved. I made a desperate grab for his shirt and held onto it as if it were a life preserver. He roughly grabbed my upper arms and shoved me away.
"What! We were to be married Elizabeth! First, you try and kill him. Now, you're saying you love him!" I gasped,
And he knows he can't possess me and he knows he never will
There's just this empty place inside of me that only he can fill
"No! No! I don't love him, at least not in the way I love you. It's just I needed him, I can't explain it. With you, I've got safety and a future. With him, it was unexpected and wild and it should've never have happened! I was just confused, I forgot how much I loved you! I thought- I thought I wanted him but all I wanted was something different! We're really comfortable!" He wasn't listening to anything I was trying to say, I knew it would end up like this. "I love you Will!"
"I love you too! But for the second time I find myself asking 'how can I trust you?' And for some reason it has been about Jack both times!" I fell to the floor at his feet, uncontrolable sobs racking my body.
Torn between two lovers, feelin' like a fool
Lovin' both of you is breakin' all the rules
Torn between two lovers, feelin' like a fool
Lovin' you both is breakin' all the rules
He started to walk away, with the most disgusted look on his face I'd ever seen, he was washing his hands of me.
"Will!" I screamed to stop him from leaving, I had to explain, had to tell him why I loved him.
You mustn't think you've failed me
Just because there's someone else
"What Elizabeth! I don't know what I can do to keep you mine! Obviously I don't please you enough or you wouldn't have gone with Jack. You two are perfect for each other. Pirates." Every word was like a gunshot going right through my heart. I screamed, hysterical trying to make him see reason.
"No, no, no! Will, I love you! I can change. You didn't do anything, it was just a slip in my composure. I didn't mean to, I'm sorry! If I didn't love you, would I have told you?" Will laughed without humour.
"I know you Elizabeth, you were just scared Jack would've told me before you got the chance!" I stopped crying and looked up at him, he was right. He waited, seemingly wanting me to tell him he was wrong. I just stared at him until he understood.
"I never want to see you again!"
You were the first real love I ever had
And all the things I ever said
I swear they still are true
For no one else can have the part of me I gave to you
"I've loved you since I was 11 years old!" I screamed at him, trying to make him stay. "I will always love you!" He stared at me, as if trying to figure out something even I didn't know. I got up off the ground and stared him down, showing him I wasn't lying.
"Yes but Elizabeth, you've been in love with Jack since you were 19. You've never been in love with me." His voice was so sad, so full on finality I actually stopped with think for a moment. Once again, he was right.
I couldn't really blame you if you turned and walked away
But with everything I feel inside, I'm asking you to stay
"I'm sorry." I whispered, knowing it meant nothing now. "I know you hate me. I still love you though! I still need you in my life." I begged, trying any line in the book.
"I can't Elizabeth, please do not ask me to spend the rest of my living life stuck on a boat with the woman I love and the man she loves. I couldn't handle it. I have to leave."
"Will..." I whispered my defenses crumbling. He walked away without a goodbye and I fell to my knees. I heard a faint splash of a boat hitting the water and imagined my best friend sailing away, I was never going to see him again. After about 5 minutes the door opened. I looked up hopefully, wishing it was Will. Jack's concerned face only bought me tiny comfort and he knew that, still he walked forwards, for once not cracking any jokes and gathered me in his strong arms.
I smelled in his unique smell- a mixture of sea salt and rum - and I knew I was where I was meant to be but a part of me wished it was Will instead of Jack.
"It's okay Lizzie, it's going to be okay. I'm here" The tears didn't want to stop.
Feelin' like a fool
Lovin' both of you is breakin' all the rules
I hope you like! :D Review please?
