~She fooled all of her friends into thinking she's so strong~
Lily Randal was a liar, all right, she'd never lied outright to her friends but she'd hasn't been telling them the whole truth either.
~But she still sleeps with the light on~
She doesn't tell the truth because she's scared, scared of what life may become. Scared that the darkness in her heart will consume her entire life.
~And she acts like it's all right on as she smiles again~
She couldn't tell her friends, she couldn't bring herself to let them see past the fake smile and cheerful conversation. It was easier for them to believe her facade and in a way it was easier to keep it up rather than take the wall she'd been protecting herself with down.
~And her mother lies there sick with cancer~
Every night after RFR she picker her mother up from chemo treatments or doctors appointments, that was Lily's new job, not teaching young kids to play the guitar like she had told the guys. Her mother had gotten sick, God how long ago had that been? Oh, right, her mother had gotten sick the summer after RFR had nearly ended because of something that had been her fault. Kissing Travis. Lily hadn't been talking to her friends when her mom got sick and she didn't bother telling them when they started speaking again.
~And her friends don't understand her~
Lily knew she would never tell them because Travis, Ray and Robbie wouldn't understand any of her reasoning. They would never be able to understand how she had let the life that once belonged to her slips so far out of her reach. She didn't understand her life anymore, so how could she expect anyone else to understand it?
~She's a question without answers who feels like falling apart~
Everyone morning Lily had to force herself out of bed, she didn't sleep well and she got herself out of bed for the soul purpose that the Lily Randal everyone knew never missed school. The Lily Randal everyone knew was the picture of put together, she knew who she was and never questioned that. But the real Lily Randal was none of these things she appeared to be and some days Lily just wanted to curl up under her blankets and block the entire world out so she wouldn't have to deal with the repercussions of losing it. Some days she just wanted to fall apart, but she couldn't do that. Lily Randal didn't fall apart.
~She knows she's so much more than worthless~
Lily knows that in something she has a worth, that someone needs her. But she doesn't see that yet. Deep down she knows she's worth something, if only she could find it.
~She needs to find a purpose~
At home she feels unnecessary, she picks her mother up at the appointments her father took her to, but when she got her mother home all responsibility was taken on by her father. When she was home Lily had no point and her RFR duties were slowly slipping away, they didn't need her at RFR anymore. The various days she'd missed and the excellent shows that had resulted were proof of that.
~She wonders what she did to deserve this~
Lily wonders why shed been put on this earth if she is only going to be miserable. Was it something she'd done in her earlier years of life? She'd been unhappy since she'd kissed Travis, was that it? Was what she'd done so bad that she couldn't be forgiven for it? Was she being punished for something that had happened two years ago?
Lily Randal was a liar, all right, she'd never lied outright to her friends but she'd hasn't been telling them the whole truth either.
~But she still sleeps with the light on~
She doesn't tell the truth because she's scared, scared of what life may become. Scared that the darkness in her heart will consume her entire life.
~And she acts like it's all right on as she smiles again~
She couldn't tell her friends, she couldn't bring herself to let them see past the fake smile and cheerful conversation. It was easier for them to believe her facade and in a way it was easier to keep it up rather than take the wall she'd been protecting herself with down.
~And her mother lies there sick with cancer~
Every night after RFR she picker her mother up from chemo treatments or doctors appointments, that was Lily's new job, not teaching young kids to play the guitar like she had told the guys. Her mother had gotten sick, God how long ago had that been? Oh, right, her mother had gotten sick the summer after RFR had nearly ended because of something that had been her fault. Kissing Travis. Lily hadn't been talking to her friends when her mom got sick and she didn't bother telling them when they started speaking again.
~And her friends don't understand her~
Lily knew she would never tell them because Travis, Ray and Robbie wouldn't understand any of her reasoning. They would never be able to understand how she had let the life that once belonged to her slips so far out of her reach. She didn't understand her life anymore, so how could she expect anyone else to understand it?
~She's a question without answers who feels like falling apart~
Everyone morning Lily had to force herself out of bed, she didn't sleep well and she got herself out of bed for the soul purpose that the Lily Randal everyone knew never missed school. The Lily Randal everyone knew was the picture of put together, she knew who she was and never questioned that. But the real Lily Randal was none of these things she appeared to be and some days Lily just wanted to curl up under her blankets and block the entire world out so she wouldn't have to deal with the repercussions of losing it. Some days she just wanted to fall apart, but she couldn't do that. Lily Randal didn't fall apart.
~She knows she's so much more than worthless~
Lily knows that in something she has a worth, that someone needs her. But she doesn't see that yet. Deep down she knows she's worth something, if only she could find it.
~She needs to find a purpose~
At home she feels unnecessary, she picks her mother up at the appointments her father took her to, but when she got her mother home all responsibility was taken on by her father. When she was home Lily had no point and her RFR duties were slowly slipping away, they didn't need her at RFR anymore. The various days she'd missed and the excellent shows that had resulted were proof of that.
~She wonders what she did to deserve this~
Lily wonders why shed been put on this earth if she is only going to be miserable. Was it something she'd done in her earlier years of life? She'd been unhappy since she'd kissed Travis, was that it? Was what she'd done so bad that she couldn't be forgiven for it? Was she being punished for something that had happened two years ago?
