disclaimer: Oh, Kingdom Hearts of legend, where are my video game rights? xD
warning: the usual, language, implied sex and stuff.
He's never going to notice you.
You know this by now, but you still can't help but hope that someday his thoughts won't be Kairikairikairi but Rikurikuriku.
So then one day you find a way to make him stop and see you for what you really are, and look he does---but for all the wrong reasons and the cost for you and him is your friends and home and any chance you had with him.
And you leave him because maybe he'll forgive you over time—and absence makes the heart grow fonder, right? And it seems to work at the beginning and for once his thoughts actually are Rikurikuriku but then after a little they switch back to Kairikairikairi and you're left in the dust again.
So you go away to help him again but he finally finds you—but you know that he doesn't really care, because his thoughts are always, always Kairikairikairi and never Riku and you can't really tell if it's because he trusts you to take care of yourself or if Kairi means more to him but either way you're a little offended, you can't always be the pro-antagonist or the anta-protagonist and sometimes, maybe you'd like to be taken care of for once, too.
But nobody's going to believe you when you say that, infallible Riku saying that maybe he'd like to rest a little too, so you don't and keep it to yourself—bite your tongue and never say you're tired of the darkness and fighting and loneliness.
And so you go off with him and some other to fight him because otherwise you won't be able to go home, and you do beat him, twice, but then later you can't go home but then you decide that maybe it's okay with you because this way his thoughts might go from Kairi to you and if a life in the shadows is what you have to pay for it then that's alright with you, right?
But it doesn't work out the way you want it to (it never does--) and some how, somehow, you go back to your islands along with him and once again his thoughts are on Kairi again.
But this time it's different.
It's going to be different this time, you tell yourself, because this time you're going to make him notice you and you're never going to let his thoughts go back to Kairikairikairi ever again.
And so when he finally notices you're gone and he finally notices your note with only a time and place printed on it in your neat handwriting, and when he finally finds you, you slip off the edge of that cliff just as he gets there and for all his is he only manages to brush your hand as you slip away and the only thing you say to him is something that's going to keep him up at night from now on, you can tell.
. . . m a d e y o u l o o k.!«
this was all over the place, unfortunately. xD;; written while listening to Taking Back Sunday and Billy Talent II. the only thing I'm really proud of is the summary, unfortunately.
haven't written shit in forever. xD by written, I mean posted on the intarnets? xD yeah. spent too much time playing Pokemon. (I have a mudkip named "soi herd u" for god's sake...)
but yeah. more stuff to come. definitely.
totally inspired by the stuff from the KH photoshoot at Anime North. want pictures/videos? xD
this was actually typed up in point five arial to stop others from reading. xD I'm at the front of the class right now.
wow. I heard from Jenn/Zexion/Jennion that we're technically not even supposed to be writing/drawing KH shit because Disney owns the rights. goddamn disney. DX
-namikun
