Rated: K+
This is my take of Rose's thoughts during the suicide scene. What if no one had heard her screaming, and Jack had not nearly been arrested?
Btw, this is dedicated to angelinthesky-123 cos she rocks
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I thought I knew my life.
I thought I had accepted the hand I had been dealt
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I even thought I was happy with it. At least, I told myself I was.
In any case, what else was there?
The streets, and the trade that a girl like myself could not help being sucked into sooner or later, or the workhouse and an early grave.
I went through the motions of living without giving it much thought and then…and then I found myself, with a burst of clarity so poignant, so bittersweet, I could almost taste it, sitting under bright lights in a crowded dining room, listening to the constant hum of voices of a thousand people I called my friends and who knew nothing about me.
I opened my eyes on a life I had not yet realised was mine, mine with all its inevitable undertones of misery and disappointment, and saw for the first time that I had no way out.
You do not feel the chains at first…. but that does not mean they are not there.
And you do not know you are trapped.
But that doesn't mean theres a way out.
