Disclaimer: I own nothing from supernatural, just the oc characters. I'm making no money from this.

I used to think that I would have a happy- ever- after, that I would fall in love, and that the person I loved would love me in return. I found that person, but I guess love wasnt enough for him.

I know I'm not the first to suffer heartbreak. Millions before me have, and millions after me will, and the time for dying of a broken heart is long time gone.

That didnt stop me from becoming lost inside, I felt like I had no meaning. I found no reason to hold on. Falling into dispare wondering if he would catch me. If only he knew, would it have made a difference?

I gave up my dreams, for without him I had none, so why keep up the facad that I could live without him?

I know I must be strong. I have to be strong. I know I'll get over him, no I must get over him.

What if you love someone so much that you'd rather live with a shattered heart, or a heart that he breaks everytime you see him, then live without your love for him?

What if you love someone so deeply that he becomes a part of you, not just your heart, but also your soul? How can you bear to tear out part of your soul?

what if you dont want to get over him, because losing your love for him would leave you incompleat? That to do so would mean losing a part of you forever, a part of which the losing cannot be born, because you can no longer imagine life without it.

What if your love for that person transends everything, even your own pain, but particulary your own pain, so that you would choose to live without it would be unbearable?

I've had my own dreams of love, long before I had my first crush, my first infatuation, before I cried over a boy. It's just... I didnt imagine... I never thought... it never crossed my mind... that someday he would just walk out of my life without a single word.