::Takes a deep breath and then yells happily.:: DEPRESSING SONGFIC!!! …..Ok, so maybe I shouldn't be happy over that. But it is one. And it is a yaoi, I guess you could say of Yami/Bakura. It'll start it Bakura's PoV and then cross over to Yami's for the rest of the fic.

Disclaimer: Yu-Gi-Oh is not mine, nor will it most likely EVER (though I wish) be mine. Neither is the song Can't Stop Loving You by Phil Collins. Great song, and it's new too.

/Yugi to Yami/
//Yami to Yugi//
{Ryou to Bakura}
[Bakura to Ryou]
(PoV)

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Lyrics Here
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"I'd do anything, just to hold you in my arms, try to make you laugh, somehow I can't put you in the past." -I'd Do Anything: Simple Plan

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(Bakura)

I can't do this anymore. I can't STAY here anymore. Funny, I never thought I'd be the one running, me being so dominant. Or acting it. Maybe both.

Let's put it this way, me, Bakura, the spirit of the ring who's suppose to have no heart and never care for anyone. Is in love. And hell, I have been for a while now but never will anyone ever see me EXPRESS it. If I ever did, what would become of me would be a pancake ran over by a car on the road. The one driving that car, would be the ancient Pharaoh….Yami.

YES! I admit it to myself, I love the guy! If I ever told him, I'd be dead.

But that's not the problem I have come to face. My problem is that I can't look at him without doing something stupid. Not stupid, like that purple dinosaur on the TV I've seen when flipping through the channels, stupid as in I stare at him for five minutes straight silently. Wait, no, my record is ten minutes, and then he blew up in my face saying 'Thief, will you quit freaking staring at me?!' I went into my soul room after that mark, hiding the hurt and ashamed look and then hitting my head on the wall.

That's why I can't stay. I can't keep DOING this to myself. It'll hurt, I know it will, how can I live without seeing his face? Sure I always make fun of him, I have to though! If I don't then…..he'll know…..and I'll….I'll be hurt mentally by his cruel words of rejection….

….I can't do that.

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Currently I'm in the house, pacing and trying to figure how to tell Ryou what I'm doing. Wait, why am I worried so much over what HE thinks? "RYOU! GET THE HELL DOWN HERE!!!" I yell, shaking the house with my voice. What? If I'm not loud he'll never come down.

I hear a thud, symbolizing that he has literally fallen down the stairs, and now decides to show himself in the living room that I have paced a hole into. Oh wait….that's just old paint…

"Uh…..w-what is it…Yami..?"

"Took you long enough…"

"I…well…I fell off my bed.."

I raise a brow to him. Clumsy baka. "I heard you fall down the stairs, you fell off the bed too…?" He nods sheepishly to me and I sigh. Nutcase. And people say I'M bad. "Never mind then….kuso….well, I really just thought I'd tell you I'm leaving town…"

"WHAT?!" I blankly stare at him. That was an interesting reaction. "By yourself I take it?" I nod to his question and he starts to laugh. "Yami, no offense but I don't think you'll survive long by yourself!"

"Well, no offense to you, MY LIGHT, but a spirit like me can do JUST FINE by myself! And I don't need you to be going all 'motherly' on me about my decision!"

"Can you at least tell me why you're leaving…?"

I pause, his laughter died down and I just look at him a moment. Like freaking hell. "No."

"….Are you at least going to say goodbye to the others…?"

"Why *should* I?" I can see it now, if I went to Yami and said something like 'goodbye, I'll miss you' it'd just be….horrifying. He'd be going into this whole speech saying I was running from my problems or whatever, but at the LEAST he'd laugh straight in my face and say 'good riddance'! Yeah. That'd be Yami. No, no I can't say goodbye.. To anyone. I just can't. "No, I'm not going to, Ryou."

"……………….."

I start for the stairs, heck, I'm in need of a suitcase at the least. I only turn around when I'm on the third stair up because my little light makes some incoherent sound and is watching me at the bottom of them. "What?"

"I…. I'll miss you… and I promised my friends I'd be over at the Game Shop by now…so I have to leave.."

"I'll be gone when you get home. Leaving by train."

"A-alright…goodbye…Yami.."

I watch him turn and slowly leave the house, that went easier than expected. But I guess it really doesn't matter much because we still have the ring, thus our mental link to one another. So really, I'm not leaving him. That doesn't mean I'll leave the link open. My train leaves in an hour or so though and I have to get packing. Sayonara, Domino.

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(Yami)

The last of Yugi's friends have shown up at last. Ryou. And he's LATE. But here I am in my soul room, listening to the group laughing over this, that, and whatnot, ignoring my aibou's many requests of me coming out to join them. Hn. For some reason I just feel so….blued, and moody. Heh, well, pass the time by listening to my light and on goings of his friends.

" 'ey Ryou, what took ya' so long?"

"Sorry….my yami was talking…"

I perk a bit by the turn of the conversation that was started by Joey, Yugi feels my sudden awareness and I think takes it differently than how I feel. "Did he do anything to you…?"

"Huh? Oh, no! Gods, he hasn't been like that for over a year now, Yugi! He just said that….he was leaving town by train today….soon I think…"

"Ya-hoot! That ol' spirit is finally leavin'!" I have two words for Joey as I hear his current mood. Dumb ass. But back to Ryou's words….leaving?! How could he- why would he- oh Ra what the hell is he thinking?!

//Aibou, I'm going for a walk…//

/Um….alright Yami…/

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So you're leavingIn the morningOn the early train
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As I aimlessly wander into the streets, a war in my mind is going on. Stay out here, or go to Bakura's.

And the war was damn short. Because I find myself standing outside his home, my hand poised to ring the bell. No harm could come from it, right? Hn…right..

I push the bell and hear a few curses inside and thunks here and there before the door is finally flung open, showing the discouraged soul-stealer.

"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU W- Ya- Pharaoh…" He gives me an awkward stare and whatever anger he had, he seems to lose in a state of surprise. How very interesting.

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Well I could say everything's alrightAnd I could pretend and say good bye
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I step forward, causing him to literally fall back into the house. Why is he so unbalanced all of a sudden? Oh well. "What in Ra's name are you doing by leaving town?!" Oops, I didn't mean to come here like a scolding teacher….

He looks at me, as if nervous, but heck I can't understand why.

"W-why should you even care?! I'm gone in thirty minutes, away from this cursed town and it's people! You don't have to go worrying if I'm sick because I'll be AWAY from your damn puzzle! Go and put on your 'happy face', I know you will when you know my train will be o-out of town!" I see him reach out and grab his suitcase that he seemed to of recently carry down the stairs and he starts for the door.

My sudden reaction was grabbing his free arm and stop him as he gets outside. The look on his face is frightening, like nothing I've ever seen before. He looks hurt.

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Got your ticketGot your suitcaseGot your leaving smile
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Something snaps within me and I smirk as he breaks his wrist free and continues to walk away from the house. My voice is what follows with him as he is on his leave. How I wish I would have taken back my next words… "You're right, thief! There should be a party when you leave, hell, I'll be the host of it! Can't wait until I'm sure you're out of town!!"

What the hell is wrong with me?! I don't want him to leave! Why did I say those words?! DAMMIT!

I turn and step in the house, feeling my face swell as I know he's not coming back. Not ever. He'll leave this town and I'll never see him again.

"Why…" Why am I so STUPID?!

The wall is my reassurance, as I hit my head several times against it to either try and black myself out, or defocus my mind from the other spirit.

Neither of my wishes worked.

Just a small bruise on the head.

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I could say that's the way it goesAnd I could pretend and you won't knowThat I was lying
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(Bakura)

I knew it. I knew he wanted me gone….and that's just why I did have to leave. Why stay in a place that you love, but aren't even wanted by who you love? Why did I ever think there was a chance for me to be happy?

I thought I heard him say something else, softly, but I thought there was something else there. Maybe I'm going crazy, which wouldn't be a surprise. Hell, with Malik and Mariku as my 'friends' it wouldn't be a surprise at all.

My body starts shaking as I try to keep up my walk to the train station. Fifteen minutes. And I really don't know if I can do this….I really don't think I can….How can I leave? How can I seriously believe I can DO this?!

But it's already set up.

I have to.

It's so damn hard though…

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Cause I can't stop loving youNo I can't stop loving youNo I won't stop loving youWhy should I~*~

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(Yami)

I finally made up my mind. I went back home to Yugi and his friends, grabbed Ryou and pulled the boy outside. He looked to me awkwardly, but heck of course I don't allow him to speak. "Ryou. We can't let your yami leave. I KNOW you don't want him to go and you should know, that I don't want him to leave either. I can't…..I *need* him here. Please, you have to help me get to him, Ryou…"

"I…..ok…I'll help, we can go by cab….there's actually a place in the center of town where we can get one. If we run, we can get there and then meet my yami at the station because he's walking."

I nod and thank him, feeling that twang of hope that people get when they're watching some sports game and in that last few seconds….

Never mind. I'm not actually into sports. Right now, all that's in my mind is following quickly behind Ryou, my mind being set.

He wouldn't get away. Hell, I won't let him! How dare he do this to me.

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We took a taxi to the stationNot a word was saidI saw you walk across the roadFor maybe the last time, I don't know
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Ryou and I did catch up to him, well, no….we didn't. HE was entering the station (trembling I might add) and we were pulling up in the cab a little bit from the entrance. Being polite, I was going to stay and wait for Ryou to pay, but the hikari shoves me out the car door and tells me to just go.

He had a point to that motion.

I get to my feet and run infront of the car and towards the entrance, the doors being rotating ones and with my mind in a rush, it took me some time to actually get through them.

Why is this so DIFFICULT?! Gods, I finally get inside and where the hell do I go? By Ra there are three trains coming in! Which is Bakura's? And why do I have to be so…..short? But he has to be here somewhere…..he has silver hair! How can I miss him this easily?!



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Feeling humbleHeard the rumbleOn the railway track
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"Shit…" I finally spot him, moving towards the newly arrived train and the people between us are something I don't think I can get through. "Damn obstacles…" The whistle blows loudly through the station, as a sign of its arrival to the platform. Platform thirteen. An unlucky number that just happens to be mine today.

I should have stopped him from leaving the house…. I should have….. Dammit there's so much I could have done! And yet….I was stupid. I was so caught up in, I don't know….enough crap to keep my mind away from the truth. I know I love him, how could I not? He's never seen it, of course, and by the words I said to him earlier he'll never know.

My body starts to turn away, but I force myself to look back, a burst of energy through my veins as he's boarding into one of the passenger cars. "BAKURA!!!!!!!!!!!"

The people around me stare, and I just gasp for air in hope that he heard, but the form I know as him doesn't come back. Doesn't turn. Doesn't smile. Hell, I don't even see him anymore.

And I failed myself, I failed to keep him here and near me…

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And when I hear the whistle blowI walk away and you won't knowThat I'll be crying
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I make it into the bathroom, thus a stall and sit up on the seat. Huddled on it is more likely, but that doesn't stop the fact that I'm in tears now. "He's really gone…this just isn't some joke…..Bakura's….really gone…" I feel my shoulders jerk roughly as the tears make their way stronger from the wells of my eyes. It's not fair! What the hell did I do to deserve this?! Why can't I just be allowed happiness?!

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Cause I can't stop loving youNo, I can't stop loving youNo I won't stop loving youWhy should I~*~

I here a soft whisper, but over my light whimpers I've currently formed, I can't recognize it until the voice gets louder.

"Yami…?"

"R-Ryou…?"

"Are you alright….?"

I pause, maybe to think over a lie but know it can't be formed. Mentally or whatever. I just want to speak the truth right now, too bad I couldn't do that earlier when it counted the most. "No…"

"Can you open this door…?"

I stand weakly and open the stall, stepping out to look at Ryou who is staring back with….pity. Great. I don't think I've ever been PITIED by anyone, not in this century or the past Millennia. I must look pretty bad then. I move past him slowly, sinking into a corner of the room and he follows me to stand over as if protecting me from any who may or may not enter. "Can I help in anyway…?"

"Tell him to come back," my voice literally sobbed.

"I can't do that. He closed our link off, I'm sorry…Yami.."

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(Even try)I'll always be here by your side (why why why)I never wanted to say goodbye (why even try)I'm always here if your change, change your mind
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"Why'd he leave, Ryou…?"

"I don't know….he refused to tell me…"

"You know…"

"What..?"

I stare at the floor, pained by my own thoughts, hating myself still for what felt like I crime I've committed. "The last thing I said to him, is that I'll be happy when I know he's gone." The tears return as I try keeping my voice stable of talking, ignoring the fact that some man just came in and stared a moment before leaving again. At least he was polite enough to keep his mouth sealed shut. "But I never meant those words…I don't know why I even said them…" My head rolls back to press against the corner, trying to put the thought of him being gone from my mind, but I failed, the memories of the last hour just keep returning.

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So you're leavingIn the morningOn the early trainWell I could say everything's alrightAnd I could pretend and say good byeThe guy would be lying~*~

"There has to be….I don't know, something you can do…."

"I love him….and he doesn't even know it…" I start rambling off blindly, not even listening to Ryou. The man that came in before, entered again as if his courage was restored and he took a stall, quickly closing the door to pass on his business. That really doesn't stop me from talking, to myself more so than Ryou. "Why did I never tell him….now there's nothing I can do to get to him…..thirteen. Thirteen, Ryou, that was the platform number. An unlucky number in this century, am I right?"

"Hai….Yami.."

"Figures…5,000 and some old and just now starting to be superstitious."

"The train left from platform thirteen?"

I raise my gaze to the man that had entered and gave a nod I know that he saw. Oh, now I get the uniform he's wearing. I think he works here. Maybe he can help..

"I believe that train left for Silver Shores, about a two hour ride, out towards the water. Great beaches too. The next train goes there at six in the morning, if that helps any."

I mumble a thank you as he leaves and close my eyes to lean my head back in its previous placing. Silver Shores… Doesn't sound like a big place. Perhaps I can find Bakura. By the way Ryou is staring at me, I think he already knows my inner mind plan.

"So you're going, ne?"

"Yeah. I have to go after him."

"Well.." He reaches a hand out and I take it, getting helped off the floor that really needs to be washed. "I'm going with you then."

"But Ryou-"

"He IS my yami, remember that. And you were right, I didn't want him to leave, but there was no true way of stopping him."

"Fine, you can come. Even if I'm going just to tell him how I feel….it's what I need to do. A fate of mine, so to speak. I feel oddly we were meant for each other…though I bet he's oblivious and will turn me out of his house, or wherever he'll be staying. Risk taking always came with being Pharaoh though." I smile, a genuine one. Being determined will be an everlasting trait for me.

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Because I can't stop loving youNo I can't stop loving youNo I won't stop loving youWhy should IWhy should IWhy should ITell me whyWhy should IEven try
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Hahaha, yes that is the end. Wouldn't I be just SO evil to do that? Well, half way through the typing of this I started hitting my head and minor spazzing because it's a rare occurrence that I can write a one-shot fic. So no, this is NOT over. And so much for my depressing songfic, I mean I guess it sort of it….I really wanted it to be…I tried…..but then I failed u_____u

No fair.

Ja for now…