Title: for thoughts unheard
Day/Theme: 13. Noise has one advantage: it drowns out words.
Character/Pairing: SasuSaku
Rating: K
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto.
Note: This was written for day 13 of the 31 Days LJ comm.
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It is, strangely enough, a dim basement that we spend most of our time in. His. The sofa we sit on is leather, something I was disgusted by at first but have slowly grown accustomed to. There's so much more to pay attention to, after all.
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"It's going to rain tomorrow."
"Yeah, I saw. I'm so happy, too. I love the rain."
[grins and a shake of my head to move my pink hair away from my eyes]
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Like the larger-than-life images on one of the biggest TVs I've ever seen, and the wall-to-wall shelf of DVDs illuminated by the bright pot lights embedded in the stucco ceiling.
Like the soft humming of the air conditioner.
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"Are you cold?"
"No. You know I love the cold, Sasuke. What about you?"
[an exasperated stare and a warmer feeling]
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Like my heartbeat, startlingly clear in the loudest noise of all―the silence wrapped around the both of us like a quilt. It tickles our ears and pushes down on our shoulders, making me feel lethargic.
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[murmurs from the anchorwoman, syllables lost in daydreams]
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But there's music softly playing from behind a closed door in the background now, and the electronic melodies of the synthpop are soothing.
It is through the rhythmic beats that we glance at each other again.
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[he won't say it, I won't form the words―]
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It would be easier, I suppose, if he was better at talking and I was better at the silences.
It's never awkward, not between the two of us. No matter what, uncomfortable silences didn't exist for Sasuke and me.
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"Sakura, when are you going to come over again?"
"Mm...I dunno. When are you free?"
"It doesn't matter. When do you want to come over?"
[subtle emphasis on 'want', and just like that, i have a choice and an opening]
"Sasuke, you know I love―"
[coming over? being with you? you?]
"―being out of my house. I'll come over the soonest it's okay with you. It's...fun talking with you."
[subtle lift of the corner of his mouth]
"We can talk about anything."
"And I love that so much."
[that's right, sakura, just drop that word every chance you get. we all know it's from not being able to say it to―]
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Of course, our conversations are better still. There are no arguments, no harsh words. Our beliefs and thoughts mesh together when they don't overlap completely, and it fits.
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[i want to say it so bad, but the words won't come out. he's looking at me sometimes, and looking determinedly down at the fading patterns on his hoodie at others]
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For all the perfect moments and feelings, there are still some subjects we never touch upon, despite claims of unlimited topics. [We've tried for hints, but they leave me confused and hurt.]
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"Sasuke..."
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But now, the words are screaming to come out, and I give in.
They escape in muted whispers, too quiet to be heard, I hope [or fear?].
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"I like you."
[and i apologize to understatements for abuse and to my heart for making a farce of it]
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The music is still quietly playing
and the woman is still mocking tragedies
and the air conditioner is still going
and my heart is
still
beating.
I know Sasuke hears these things [except for my heart] and nothing else. If noise was ever good for something, it was for drowning out words.
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[we part and meet again...]
