Jo was confused. She couldn't make up her mind whether to go slap John or kiss him again. Since they had first met when Jo was John's pupil, John had held her under a spell; no matter how many times he cheated or lied Jo always found herself letting him back into her life, much to her despair. Here she was, about to get married to Marc, a wonderful surgeon with wonderful children but she found herself being drawn back to John. Everything about him entranced her but she knew, deep in her heart, no matter what he was promising, she couldn't stay.

"I'm sorry John I have to leave. I'm getting married tomorrow and I just can't do this." Jo half wanted him to stop her leaving, to wrap her up in his strong comforting masculine arms and just hold her but John made no response to her little speech, so the only thing Jo could do was leave. Walking to the front door Jo reached for the door handle. She felt John hold on to her other hand and familiar tingles went shooting down her spine. Turning round she gazed into his clear blue eyes and saw how much he loved her. As John looked deep into Jo's hazel eyes he saw just how much she wanted to be with him. All it took was look into each other's eyes and a lingering kiss to progress the whole situation.

Later on that afternoon Jo emerged from John's room smelling distinctly of John's exquisite aftershave. John walked over to her and kissed her on the forehead.

"God you look gorgeous!" said John appreciatively. Jo said nothing. John started to potter around the kitchen "Do you want some tea, darling?"

"Errm… of course" she said slipping into one of the kitchen chairs in a daze like state. It was then the self-loathing penny dropped, she realised what had actually happened, "Wait a minute! I am not your darling! I am a lying, cheating, adulteress who should be getting married tomorrow, married to someone who is not the man I have just slept with!" John was slightly taken aback by the small rant that had just issued from his lovers lips.

"Of course you aren't a 'lying, cheating, adulteress'! You are a clever…" Jo cut him up mid-sentence,

"What was that if it wasn't cheating? Huh? I lied to Marc when I came here…"

"Maybe it was just the realisation that you and I should be together, that I'm the one that you love." This was all just a little too much for Jo.

"You pompous git! Why does everything have to be about you? I love Marc and this was just some stupid mistake. That's all that our relationship has turned out to be, a stupid mistake. We have gone through so much shit for a stupid mistake!" Jo then stormed out of the kitchen and straight out of the door. Bumping into the doorman on her way out Jo ran to her car and got in but instead of driving off in a mad fury she hung her head and cried. She cried and cried until it felt like there was nothing left inside her and it was only then that she turned the key in the ignition and set off.

Pulling into her drive she was grateful that Marc wasn't home yet, the kids were all out and she was alone in the house. Jo hurried upstairs to the bathroom as soon as she walked through the door. Leaving her clothes at the edge of the bath Jo turned the shower on and started the process of washing away John from her mind. As she stepped out of the scalding hot shower, fresh and pink the front door opened and she heard Marc call up the stairs.

"Jo darling where are you?" Jo shuddered guiltily as she remembered how she had answered when John had called her darling only an hour ago. Shaking the thought from her head she replied to her fiancé,

"I just got out of the shower, I'll be down in a second." As she quickly dressed she started to feel a bit paranoid, did Marc know that John called her darling, did he know that she had been out, did he know what she had done when she went out?