"Fuck"

I whisper to myself in our too small bathroom.

"Is it time yet…I don't care if it's not time yet I'm coming in"

I'm in too much of a state of shock or denial or something to stop him or I didn't want to stop him I needed him here to know this. I didn't even have to say anything he or show him the test. He just saw my face and knew.

He didn't say anything either he just stood me up and held me, I let some tears fell, and he just held me. After a while he pulled away and kissed me gently on my forehead. He saw my tears and held me again but he wasn't silent this time.

"Were going to do it differently this time Amy, were going to do it together"

"You promise" I say feebly back to him

"Of course, I love you and John and there is no way I'm going anywhere."

I know he is telling the truth, I know he won't leave and know he's different know and I trust him and I love him.

"I guess were going to parents again" I say with a small teary smile.

"I guess so" he gently laughs backs.

And he hugs me hard again and gently kisses me and it feels right and good.

Just then we hear John waking. I look up and smile and Ricky and we both go to his room. He is already standing up on his bed.

"Mommy! Daddy!" he yells when we enter.

Ricky picks him up and spins him around and flies him to the change table and takes the first diaper and John just giggles with pure joy. I sat on the bed and just watched. Ricky is so good with John and John just adores his daddy and I love that I could have never imagined that this would happen but I'm beyond happy that it did.

After the changing is done my boys we move to the kitchen and I get John his cereal and juice and we have our coffee. In the idle of breakfast I give a look to Ricky and he gets it right away.

"Hey John" I say at my little man

"Yeah Mommy "He says back in his little voice

"You're going to be a big brother, mommy's has a baby in her tummy what do you think of that?"

He just smiles and laughs he's only two but I take it as he is happy about it he'll understand in s couple months.

After breakfast Ricky give me a kiss and a smile and goes downstairs to work. I get John out of his highchair and tell him to go get ready for bath time and he runs to his room. I go into the bathroom and start filling the tub.