Clocks are something I have come to loath over the passed year, the fact that they represent the changes of the world the movement of life, everybody going through it while I remain still, unmoving, unchanging; forever remaining the same. I watch people go through there lives happy and careless, I could be happy and careless but I don't know how. They say that having eternal life is the best thing a person can attain, well I'm a vampire, and so far eternity's not all it's cracked up to be. I mean, I'm going to be here forever I should enjoy life…shouldn't I?
I hate having to make up stories about every little thing to keep people from figuring me out, it's infuriating! I go through the motions everyday while humans unbeknownst to what I am; do the same without any fear. I think that people should be afraid of me and my abilities, I am a killing machine! It's so easy for me to draw people in, one word and they swoon to my every whim, even the strongest man wouldn't be a match for me. It sometimes scares me how strong I am, I'm actually stronger then most female vampire's or so I was told by the one who made me, I don't know if it's true I don't hang out with any other vampire's to test it out, I hate what I am if I had my choice I'd fall off the face of the planet in a heart beat…If I had one.
My Mother has started to grow suspicious of my "Attitude" as she's so gracefully put it. This past year has been really hard living with her; everything's an argument especially dinner. I can't eat human food and if I do eat it the odd time to please her, it tastes like charcoal, I have found however that I can eat a rare steak; which is good because when I was human I loved steak now I just love it with a pulse. But now things have gotten worse, she has now refused to buy anymore steak and will only put vegetables on my plate, her view on this is "I've eaten enough protein to last me six or seven years" I beg to differ, but I can't just go and tell her "Hey Mom I'm a vampire." She'd have a heart attack and then attempt to have my head examined. Now that I've found my self between a rock and a hard place I have decided to go live with my father Charlie in Fork's, a little town where there's almost no sun which works for me, Phoenix does not cater to those who glitter, the sun shines a lot here which means I have to cover up and sweat my ass off to hide the fact that I'm as shiny as a diamond. Yes vampire's glitter, one of our many quirks.
My Mother doesn't understand why I'm moving out to Fork's but that's alright the less she knows the better I don't want to be responsible for anyone getting hurt because of what I am. Now that I have my own car I'll be able to get to Fork's sooner then later.
Driving is one of the few times I can actually enjoy myself, It's silent I can let my thought's go and just relax, with a little bit of music it's just about perfect for me and Fork's is about six hours away which give's me a lot of time to think.
Wow Fork's really is cloudy I'm actually a little excited! I can wear a t-shirt without worrying, the town looks the same as it did when I last lived here, back when I was human, Charlie hasn't seen me in a while so my sudden change in appearance wont affect him as much as it affected my Mother. Oh boy when she saw me a week after my run in with my maker she almost hit the ceiling, the first thing she said was "Who gave you permission to have plastic surgery" I was actually really offended I mean did I look that bad before? I of course told my Mom that she was completely wrong and after awhile she just believed me, she has never been able to believe my sudden love of sports though I still can't believe it. I mean I have all this energy I just don't know what to do with myself, so I play sports and I'm of course amazing at them it's funny to think that a year ago I couldn't walk down the sidewalk without getting into some form of a psychical altercation.
I drove down a few streets and came to our house, it still looks the same I don't know why but it surprises me, I wonder where Charlie is?
"Bella?"
Well that answered my question.
"Hey Charlie" I looked at him and smiled he still looked the same a little older but still the same old Charlie.
"So" Charlie began, talking was always a bit hard for him he was like me quiet and liked to keep things short and too the point.
"So, Charlie I see the house is still standing" He smiled at this relived that this wouldn't be as awkward as It could have been, funny it didn't feel awkward at all just different but a good different.
"Yeah Bell's I've managed to keep it in one piece, why don't I uh help you with some of your stuff"
He grabbed a bag and started towards the house, then he stopped and turned around looking at me like he was seeing me for the first time, I knew what was coming before he even said anything.
"You look different Bell's. You….you grew up on me, I always thought that when I saw you again things would just kinda fall back into the way they used to be but you've changed" He smiled "But it's a good change, you're a lovely young woman now"
Wow now that is surprising, Charlie almost never talks about issues or thing's like this, he gets a little uncomfortable and sort of just let's things slide until something needs to be said, maybe he's changed too, he's still human though his scent is proof of that. Not that it's a problem for me, I've grown quite used to being around people, sometimes the urge get's strong but I'm pretty good at taming it; I've never had human blood the first time I tasted blood was three weeks after I had been turned I didn't want to eat, I didn't want to kill anyone but then I was so hungry so I decided that if I had to drink blood I would hunt animals, so far I've done very well animal blood proves to be quite satisfying.
"Bella" Charlie called to me from the door, he was looking at me funny again.
"Yeah Charlie"
"What's wrong with your eyes?"
Oh I forgot all about my eyes, they used to be brown but now they've changed. When I was first turned they were red but now there a very bright very intense green; I actually love my eyes I think there awesome most people can't believe that I don't wear contacts.
"Oh they changed color, the doctor already looked into it, he says it has something to do with a protein in my body that changed them, and I do like the color"
He looked confused, as I knew he would be but then he smiled and shook his head, one of the things I loved about Charlie was he could be more relaxed when receiving information, My Mother however took everything ever told to her and blew it into an outrageous issue.
"Well if you're happy I guess its ok as long as it doesn't hurt or anything; does it hurt?"
He voiced his concern and I almost laughed, he could be such a, a Dad sometimes.
"Don't worry Charlie, it doesn't hurt believe me I'm five by five"
"Five by five?"
Of course Charlie was also a Dad in the sense that he does not understand slang in the least.
"Yeah, means I'm a ok"
"Alright then why don't we finally get into the house"
I trotted in behind him listening to him as he rambled on about the house and how not much of it has changed, I only half listened as I looked around. The house had not changed much at all, still the same look, same feel it felt oddly nice like I was finally at home in a way maybe Fork's would prove to be a better place the Phoenix.
It's weird not being able to sleep, I can sort of get into a sleep like state but not actually physically sleep. I get a lot done since I never get tired I still wish sometimes I could just shut my brain off maybe one day I'll figure it out for now I'll just lie here and wait until the morning of my first day of school.
I got up out of my bed and watched the sunrise, it was at least two and a half hours before I had to be up to get ready for school but I get bored easily. I do need to eat before school so I guess I'll go out and take care of that.
Adrenalin is a great thing I love it! Running as fast as I can feels amazing thought I feel a little out of sorts here I feel like something's up but I can't put my finger on it wait a minute maybe it's my nose I should be concentrating on. There's a scent in the air I know what it is before I breathe it in a second I'm. Seems I'm not the only one without a heart beat after all. I don't know why but I'm not that nervous there's something about the scent that puts me at ease actually I feel really, really calm. I hear a figure moving about and instantly know I'm not alone, I close my eye's and see him walking towards me he's about a mile away. I'm so fast I could be gone by the time he gets here but there's something about him that makes me want to stay and see what he wants.
I hold my gaze to the left of the forest I've been running around in for the last twenty minutes and watch him walk into the clearing holding his gaze with me he speaks.
"Hello"
What an introduction I almost expected there to be music in the background.
"Hello"
If he can pull it off then so can I, and eye for an eye now were even.
"I haven't seen you around before"
He walks a little toward me I keep my guard up; still I'll talk to him.
"No I wouldn't think you would have been able to, I just moved here to live with my father"
His eyes widened in surprise.
"There are more of you?"
Ah that's what he's getting at.
"No my father is human"
He looked even more puzzled, just staring at me then he gasped I knew why before he even opened his mouth.
"I've never seen one of our kind with eye's like yours, how is that possible?"
I smirked knowing all the questions he was going to ask me, I needed some more information from him however I didn't even know his name.
"What is your name?"
"My name is Jasper, I live here with my family I am but one of our little clan"
Ah so I was right I thought I could smell more then one scent on him and he had a special ability on him, a very unique one I've only encountered once before.
"You have a unique ability to manipulate emotions Jasper"
He smiled.
"Yes, I use it when I need to; you have an ability to read people's minds?"
He seems to be a nice guy his scent emulates that of one who does not feed off humans this gave me a sense of relief, there were others like me.
"Not really I can see things that people do; it's kind of like watching a person's life through a television screen. I can see what there doing right now, what they did last night and what they might do tomorrow. Though the future is not always certain because people tend to change there minds as fast as they change music."
He nodded knowingly, thinking about something I couldn't quite pick up he was singing in his head, ah to keep me form being able to see.
"Don't worry Jasper I don't intend on hurting anyone here I moved here from Phoenix to just start my life in a better way away from my mother and the constant sun blazing down, you know how that is for us"
He chuckled a little.
"Yes there are some days where we do have to hide out; even here the sun makes his appearance"
I smiled relaxing more around him.
"I'm still wondering about your eye's why are they so green?"
Another thing about my ability was I could change my eye color according to my mood and since green was my favorite color I always kept them green.
"It's part of my ability I can change my eye color based on the way I feel, it's also because since I was turned I've only ever fed off of animals I've never had human blood"
He looked stunned; I could tell that even though he now fed off of animals he had fed off humans before.
"I know it's hard to believe, but I just never liked the thought of killing another person it just repulses me"
He nodded.
"Well I have enjoyed meeting you and our talk but if I don't hurry I'll be late for school"
"Ah yes school, your at Fork's high as well"
"Yes along with the rest of my family other then my Mother and Father of course I'll introduce you to them when I see you there"
"I look forward to it Jasper it was nice meeting you"
"Yes same to you, by the way what's your name?"
I turned around and whispered back to him only so her would hear.
"Bella"
With that I turned around and sped out of the forest, back to the house and my bedroom window. I know had a lot to think about maybe being a vampire wasn't so bad after all.
Alright so, I don't know where this came from but it's been written so, should I continue obviously by now you know that I've changed a few things. Bella's a vampire, she has special abilities her eyes are GREEN!! (My Fav color) So yeah review and tell me what you think, should I write more?
