SO I'm a little shit and I wrote this instead of working on my fics. Uh.. whoops. But here's some RoseMary cause I'm having a lot of Homestuck feels. Probably gonna post random Rose and Kanaya things in here.


It's dark, so very dark and you just know it's worse than Kanaya could have ever predicted. Once upon a time she warned you that she couldn't see your future, that the void swallowed you whole but you jumped anyway. It was like even then, with your anger and spitfire and the need to do what you knew needed to be done, you just knew she would catch you. There was no way of knowing she would actually light your path but, damn, if that isn't what she did.

For the longest time you were lost in that darkness. No one noticed you drowning. It seemed like everything was okay after you stepped back into the light. Your skin wasn't tinged in the night, you stopped speaking only in tongues, and there were no longer bouts of rage where spells would shoot out of your mouth like hell fire, burning even those closest to you. She took it the worst. Always there to hold you, whispering softly into your ear until you came back down.

Then a different sort of drowning hit. The dark slowly leeched out from your skin and you seemed a little happier, smiled a little more, yet still you were drowning in your own type of despair. Drinking soothed the wounds no time seemed to want to heal, it quieted those roaring monsters voicing themselves constantly. It numbed the pain, dug out the splinters of a broken heart just long enough for you to breathe. Nothing lasted though. Not when you could see the soft pain in her eyes each time she cleaned up your mess and pressed a kiss to your alcohol tainted lips. Each time she stood up for you, hid you away to keep how bad things were getting from your friends and her shoulders slumped a little more under the weight. That hurt the most and for some reason it seemed like the best idea to just keep drowning.

Of course she brought you back though. Walking into your view yet again only this time in a blaze of anger. Her fire burned bright but it was a star, showing you just how dark your life had truly become. Kanaya was always your sun but now, now you can see just how much she was keeping her light hidden so you wouldn't run away. Now she needs you, needs the seer in you for the universe but mostly she needs you to be strong. That wonderful being has been so strong for you, for all of you so far, and now she needs you to stand up. Be the rose she fell for not the thorns she's been allowing to sting her skin for so long.

In those few moments you have alone you steal her away. Your head is pounding, vision swimming and your stomach wants to come out your throat with how hard your heart is thumping. Her eyes have softened now that you're alone and all you can see is a loving concern set deep in them, still covered by a light glimmer of her anger. You can see through it, see past that shimmer and you know she's more pissed that some of you might die because nothing was said earlier. Years of sitting around and everyone seemed to fuck it up in some way. Yet she stuck by you and now, now you're going to stick by her just as much.

"Kanaya." Your voice is soft, a whisper, but it sounds more like you than anything you've said in months. She notices, you see it in the way her eyes sparkle in a whole new way and the gentle tug from the corner of her lips. "If we die, I'm going to haunt you in a dream bubble." That sparkle dims slightly, confusion taking its place. Confusion was something you knew deeply in Kanaya and the way she tilts her head ever so slightly, not quite frowning but her lips turned down a bit.

"Rose? I don't understand." Her voice seems almost hurt, a pain settled deep in the thought of anyone dying. Especially you. Deep in your heart, there's a tug in the knowledge that your death could destroy her just as hers would destroy you. "What do you-"

Cutting her off with a kiss is the easiest way to explain. Maybe you're still a little drunk and maybe anything you say is going to confuse her deeply but this? You've always been best at showing her how you feel in a kiss. The gentle pressure of her fangs against your bottom lip sends a shiver through you and her arms immediately slide around your waist. Like always, she's there to catch you.

"Even if we die, even if I go back into that void, you won't lose me." Blinking down at you, Kanaya seems to be having trouble controlling her emotions. You're not usually so open about these things and when you are, you're usually way past intoxicated. "I just want you to know that I love you, Kanaya Maryam." Now Kanaya really was crying, skin positively glowing as a soft green tints her cheeks with a blush.

"I am entirely flushed for you as well, Rose Lalonde." The way she whispers it to you, pressing in so her lips brush your own melts something around your heart. You no longer want to drown. This could have been lost, hell you could still lose her, and that's not an option you could ever endure. Losing Kanaya would be the end of her and no amount of drowning, no amount of darkness would allow her to forget.

Giving her another kiss, your hands grip at her skirt, bunching the material at her hips as you pull her in as close as you can. "I want you to promise me that you'll stick close. If you lose sight of me, I need you to find me, Kanaya." There's a determination in your eyes you know she hasn't encountered in a while and it seems to make her a bit nervous, if not excited. "I won't lose you. I won't make a new world if I can't have you in it with me."

Once again she softens, her entire expression melting into something so enamored it feels like something is squeezing her heart in her chest. "My dear Rose, you sound entirely unlike yourself." The breathy quality to her voice sparks something in you, something you know you haven't felt in a long while. She knows this is really you, knows that this means there's hope.

"Now, now, Kanaya. You know this is exactly who I am."