This is my first time for a Vampire Knight fanfiction and I might make the main characters a little OOC (out of character) but I'm doing it so it'll fit with my plot. I DO NOT own the Vampire Knight characters infinity, only my OC. And feel free to criticize it can be helpful to my writing. And you pronounce my OC like this, Lil-la NOT Lie-la. It's like saying lily but with an "a" at the end.


Prologue

A windy night in winter, a door broken off a home, barely hanging by its hinges. The were shadows lurking at every corner inside. Blood splattered in the empty house, everywhere. A was girl running from the shadowy house, blood covering her sides and shoulders.

"Run, Lila! Don't look back, just keep running!" Cried a woman's voice from within. The trees surrounded the girl's every step, seeming to close in on her. The woman's voice was getting softer and softer, the cold wind taking place of her mother's cries. Tripping, she fell and went unconscious. She last remembered her cold face was freezing in agony as she plunged into the prickly snow.

-Lila's POV

I open my eyes and see that I'm in a room on a bed. The shock of surprise made me burst up from the firm bed. Pain immediately rips through my body, forcing me to lie back down. I sigh and put the back of my hand to my eyes. I hear the door open and close. A man's voice spoke,

"Oh, so you're awake now." I hear the man walk to the left side of the bed, setting down a cup of tea on the table. The tea's aroma was soothing.

"When I found you outside near the forest you were unconscious and bleeding." I took my hand off my eyes and stared at him, probably looking dumbfounded or lost in thought. The man had a jacket on himself and has wheat color-like hair with round glasses.

He blinks, smiling, "Pardon me, I forgot to introduce myself. My name is Kaien Cross. What's yours?" He asked rather cheerfully and fan girlish-like. I continue to stare at him but felt like facing toward the window and turned around to face the blizzard outside. It's snowing really hard out there.

"Lila." I quietly answer.

Cross starts jumping around saying things like,

"Lila is so adorable! It's so cute how she murmurs her name! Aah, she's such a cutie!"

He kept up an upbeat dance around the bed until a distant knock echoed to the room we occupied. Cross stooped energetically moving around and headed toward the door, a serious expression took over the gleeful self he showed no more than three seconds ago. Before leaving, Cross turns to me,

"It will only be a moment, please wait here." He said and disappeared behind the closed door.

I waited for minutes until Cross came back with a girl my age. His hand behind her back, his mouth a straight line, "Lila, this girl is….hmmm you know what? I'm going to call you Yuki. Yuki do you like your name?" He asked the girl. I observe closer at her jacket, realizing there's some blood splattered on it. The long-haired girl nodded, Cross smiled broadly. "From now on you two will be my cute little daughters; the two of you really do look adorable!" He exclaimed. The two of us stare at him expressionless, not speaking a word. This was a strange place, but not quite unpleasant. At least, I won't be by myself.

Yuki and I were in the living room, the both of us didn't speak much, we had an unspoken agreement to get along. I was looking at a picture book while Yuki was sitting quietly by the window.

I stare at the pictures in the book, slowly turning from page to page, scanning the words and observing the matching illustration. Not too long after, Yuki jumped off the chair and ran toward the door, opened it, and continued to run in the hallway. I looked at the opened door, curious and confused why Yuki suddenly left. I close the book I had and put it away on the shelf beside me and walked to the doorway into the hallway where Yuki disappeared to.

In the hallway, I hear Cross chuckling as there was a softer chatter farther ahead, probably outside of the house. With an expression slightly altered by curiosity, I walked behind Cross and peeked out the entrance to see Yuki with a taller young man with dark brown hair and red-violet eyes. I stare curiously at the man who was smiling down at Yuki. I was about to ask who the man was when Yuki blurted,

"Kaname-sama!"

He chuckled and leaned down, "Sama? Well, I guess you're too young to know what "sama" is." He said, mostly to himself. Yuki smiled brightly, "It's because you were the one who saved me that day, Kaname-sama." Yuki cheered, hugging the man lovingly.

I felt a strange aura coming from the Kaname. Maybe he's a vampire? Cross doesn't have that aura, and neither does Yuki.

And neither do demons.

Aside from the odd aura emitting from Kaname, I felt a little jealous of Yuki since she has someone whom she dearly cared about, like family. I know that I have a foster father now, but even a five year old could see that Yuki had a stronger bond with Kaname. My mother and father had been stolen away. My only friend had gone training with his father somewhere far away before the attack on my house. I haven't been able to contact anyone I knew since I escaped the massacre a week ago.

Cross slaps his palms flat to his cheeks with his mouth open like an o, "That's right, it's winter! Why don't you two come inside for a while?" Cross asked, stepping back and letting Yuki and Kaname in.

I looked at them.

They were smiling.

Yuki was already smiling. After what I've been through it will take a while for me to even fake one. That night we shared in becoming daughters to Cross was a night I nearly lost my life. It's still frightening to just think about it. Walking back to the living room, I find that Yuki and Kaname were there, also. Not wanting to ruin their moment together, I walked over to the bookshelf and took out my current favorite book, Sing The Song Of Sary, to silently read on the other side of the room.

The book was about a songstress who lost her sister to a marriage with a prince. The songstress's name was Sary, the second most beautiful girl in the kingdom of Caelica, a kingdom named after the first queen who ruled single handedly in their history. The first most beautiful girl, Sary's younger sister, Malisse. And yet, at the end of the story it ends with "And they lived happily, ever after".

'How could they say "happily ever after?"' I often asked myself. It was my favorite book, but I never did find the ending to be happy as the book claimed it to be. Sure, Malisse gets married to a prince of every girls' dreams, but she left Sary behind. I always thought of how sad Sary must have felt. And a happy ending is not even possible in the real world, not for everyone. Could a happy ending be happy if someone was hurt for it?

I took a glance at Yuki and Kaname smiling together, laughing with each other.'I hope your love for each other is real,' I look back at the picture book and closed it. "So it won't have to end up as a sad ending like this story."

I tucked the book away to its spot on the self and walked to the bedroom Yuki and I shared. Two halls and a right from the living room. Closing the door, I leaped on my bed and cried. It didn't feel right to bother Yuki and Kaname or even Kaien Cross. I just feel so alone, trapped. I wanted to go talk with Yuki and Kaname, like a normal person. But my gut told me to stop, that the void would still be empty in my heart. I felt like I was an outsider when I thought to approach them. Someone who did not really belong in this household. I clutched my pillow, crying quietly.

I have never felt so difficult with myself.

I remember a me who was brave and happy and strong before, with my parents and my best friend. What was his name? My tears slowed, a blank drew into my head, it pained me. I forgot my best friend's name.

"What was it? Darn, how could I forget? What was iiit?"

I never knew that such a day, one week ago, could have robbed the fun and happiness I had. Trying to remember, my tears returned in streams. I had parents, an older brother, and older sister, but the memory was quickly replaced by their twisted corpses and pools of blood. We were one of the most well-known demon hunters. We were proud a family. Because demons and demon hunters were not as numerous as vampire hunters, we had to fight in many places of the world to keep demons from taking over the human race. My family came from a long line of powerful demon hunters, we had our own crafts and weapons to kill or seal demons, which were stronger than the regular anti-demon seals and weapons. However, our weapons do not have the same lethal effect when used against vampires, just as vampire weapons cannot kill demons, demon weapons cannot kill vampires. Oddly though, it was said that demons were usually the "left overs" of mad vampires who have completely lost their sanity and transformed in both strength and, in a way, species. They were as powerful as purebloods, most times even stronger.

So, we trained harder than vampire hunters at a young age. I'm still a novice but I will find a way train myself harder. So that I can kill the pureblood vampire that destroyed my family. It's harder without my family to teach me but I should be able to do research and find some place to train. My tears stopped. Most of my sadness was used up, then turned into motivation.

Just then I heard knocking at the door, slowly opening the door Cross came into my room with a worried look on his face.

"I couldn't find you anywhere in the house. Why are you all alone, Lila?" Cross asked, coming and kneeling down next to my bed. I faced the other way, curling up into a ball, silently sniffing away the remaining tears.

"Are you lonely?" He asked, a moment of silence followed and I stopped sniffing.

"I miss them." I murmur, near the brink of crying again.

Cross must have known what I've meant, because he stood up and cleared his throat,

"Well, if you believe that you are better alone then I will trust that you are strong enough to get through this on your own. But don't be bothered to ask daddy here, I will also do my best to comfort you as your father." He said seriously at first but then more goofy in the end. I relax my muscles and reply "Okay." I listen to him walk to the door pausing then leaving and quietly shutting the door. I look out through the window across my bed and let my heavy eyelids close.

Every other day when Kaname came to visit I always went back to my room and stayed there until he left. Sure, it wouldn't improve my relationship with him considering how much Yuki loves him. But I've never felt the need to fix that. I always avoided Yuki when Kaname was with her. I would take walks or go do some grocery shopping with Cross, or even leave to train myself for the day my demon spirit would awaken. It had taken a while to remember why a pureblood vampire attacked my house, but at least I've remembered that much.

He wanted the demon sleeping inside my body. When I was born, a demon came to kill me. I was told he wanted to stop the growth of the demon hunters. But my father was able to use a seal to remove the demon's soul from his body and encase it in my own, forcing the demon into a deep slumber. Mother didn't like the thought that I now had a killer enemy sealed inside my body, but if she were to break the seal the demon would be harder to kill in spirit form since it would not be in a physical form, so we would need different weapons. Even if he wanted to, though, he wouldn't be able to return to his own body, being that it was burned to ashes as tradition went when sealing a demon's soul in a host. Much more to my mother's displeasure, I seemed to have a strong body to contain the soul. As years went on, there was no disturbance or indication that the demon woke from slumber and tried to take over me.

I've been doing my training alone on whatever I could remember doing, which were very basic moves: strike and block. I searched for websites open only to demon hunters in the library computer lab. It was lucky that I could also remember that resource.

There were many ways to train yourself, but of course, it wouldn't be easy without a partner. Many times, I wanted to ask Yuki to help me but she already had to train with Artemis. So, I avoided bringing up that fact that my training would be easier with another person. I didn't want to bother her. I still couldn't bring myself to interact with Yuki when kaname was there. I always hid in the bedroom.

That was, until two years of going to my room and avoiding them. Kaname and Yuki came to my room instead of going out together.

I was shocked that day. It was fall.

As a seven year old, I was surprised that they came. At first, I thought that Yuki wanted to show Kaname our room, but then Yuki spoke to me.

"Um, Lila are you okay? You've been coming to our room whenever Kaname comes to visit, is there something wrong?" she asked.

A surprised expression took over my face, I shook my head, "Oh no that's not true! I just didn't want to bother you guys that's all and since there was nothing to do I decided to just come to the room and you know...do something else." I say in a not-so-assuring way.

Yuki looked at me for a while, hesitantly nodding but I could tell that she was still unsure and concerned about me, Yuki turned to leave along with Kaname. I could feel the loneliness yet relief, as the door closes. My eyes water but I force myself to stay calm. "I need to be happy for Yuki to be happy," I told myself but another voice seemed to come from inside my head,

'But am I actually happy?' I sat in my bed, thinking.

'Am I running away? Or...am I scared?' It could honestly be both; I just can't have a normal chat with Yuki and Kaname.

I must really be weird if I can't politely walk up to two people I've known for two years.

Kaname.

I didn't know him too well since, of course, I would be in my room, but Yuki, my adopted sister, I know better. Yet even we don't talk to each other much at times. It made me feel guilty; I should try to spend more time with them. But I've always been selfish. I often felt envious of Yuki and Kaname. I hated myself for it because I could not shake that ugly feeling away. I can only imagine what it would be like to have internal conflict or envy while trying to have a kind face on.

Sighing in defeat, I turned onto my back.

"Why am I so confusing?" I groaned.

-Kaname's POV

The first time I saw Lila was when she was behind Kaien Cross, he had already taken her in. Ever since the day I saw Lila she was always somewhere else when I came for visits. Yuki has been worried about her and we managed to let it slide for two whole years, but this time, Yuki wanted to include her sister in our activities. She said something about being a terrible elder sister to leave her alone for so long. When I came for another visit, Yuki immediately led me to her room she shared with Lila, and there she was on her bed, reading. Though I don't know much about Lila I still felt as if I should have done something sooner as well. She could be of use.

Yuki asked Lila if there was anything wrong but Lila just shook her head and said that everything was fine. She said it as if there was nothing wrong but her tone of voice made it obvious that she was hiding herself. It made me want to watch out for her, too, as she was secluding herself and Yuki was trying to get her involved. My poor Yuki having to deal with this pathetic girl she calls a sister.

As we stood there, I don't know what I should do or say to make her feel better. It was as if she had built an invisible wall that not even my vampire senses can see through.

It took me a while longer of observing her small, balled-up figure that I had realized what was happening: something is tampering with my power.

'Lila what made you so recluse?' I thought myself as we left her be. Shutting the door behind me. Forgetting the girl inside.

-6 years later- Back to Lila's POV -

Yuki has been trying to spend more time with me and we've been getting along. We felt like we were blood sisters; we looked similar too. The main difference is the length of our hair, mine was just below my shoulders while Yuki's was longer. And her eyes were red-ash while mine were deep brown-amber. Both of us are the same height too but the slight features and angles on our faces are the one of the ways to tell us apart, and Yuki is a year older than me. We both went to the same school and sometimes are in the same class. Throughout the years we became close, just like real sisters. And I was happy.

But one day, Cross went out, which was unusual for him to leave so late. Yuki and I stayed at home, alone. A few hours later, Cross came back with a boy a year older than Yuki, he had a coat over himself and his eyes were full of many conflicting emotions, but his expression was blank.

"Yuki, Lila, this is Zero. He will be living with us from now on. Be nice to him, his family was killed by a bad vampire. And Yuki, please show Zero to the bathroom. I need to go talk with the police." He left, leaving Zero with Yuki and me. Yuki walked up to Zero and told him,

"Um, the bathroom's this way." She pointed inside, moments of silence went by. He did nothing. Said nothing.

"Can I touch you?" She asked.

He didn't answer but Yuki lead him to the bathroom and took his coat off, the both of us were shocked to see that there was blood all over his neck and left shoulder. But Yuki just grabbed a washcloth and cleaned the blood off of Zero.

After Yuki was done cleaning him, I went and brought a towel for Zero. Leaving Yuki to drying him off, I went to cook vegetable soup. I just went out with Kaien to grocery shop the other day.

Pouring the soup in a bowl, I place it to a spot where the chair was set aside as Yuki led him to the dinner table. He looked at it, surprised then sad. I lean over, worried I put in something he didn't like.

"Is there something wrong with it?" I asked, looking at the steaming soup then to him. He just sat down and ate, not saying a word. I shrug it off and let him eat. Yuki took the seat to Zero's right while I took the left. It almost looked as if Zero enjoyed the soup.

It was silence, apart from the conversation Yuki started with Zero, though he didn't reply often, she went on as if he did. I felt compelled to tell her to stop. The decision was hesitant, maybe he needed someone to talk to. I know I felt the same way when I came to this household. Then again, I never really talked about the events that led me to this house. Zero may feel the same. That word rang in my head over and over. We are the same. We lost our family, our home, our purpose.

"-do you think Lila?"

My head shifted toward Yuki, brain now back to earth. "What?"

Yuki raised a brow, "Weren't you listening? I asked if you think we should make this a commemoration day for Zero, we already share the same day, you and I, so I asked what you thought."

Calculations and thoughts of his feelings hummed in my mind, thinking of how he would feel. Would he want to remember this day? The day he lost his family. The day a vampire broke into his home. Who wouldn't want to forget that? The decision was final. I part my lips to respond, however, Zero beat me to it.

"I appreciate that you're trying to make me feel better, but I don't want to make this a commemoration day. Especially, not for me." he snapped, gripping the spoon tighter.

He spoke with such bitterness that it made me want to tell him that it will be alright. Yuki's cheerful face fell, and he realized how he had delivered his words. His contorted face of hatred began to subside, he released the wooden spoon as it clacked against the wooden table.

We were drawn into an awkward silence.

An awkward, guilty silence.

I looked at Zero, to Yuki, and Zero again. Yuki looked painfully regretful while Zero was staring at his soup. I thought of what to say, to mend this awful silence, but it seemed whatever I thought of to say a would only make the aura of the room worse. I glance at the two again, neither seemed like they would start up a conversation now.

"Zero," I started, his cold gaze on me made a realization that I still didn't know what to say. Yuki looked at me too, still seeming guilty. I cast my stare to the wood grain of the table. "I-I know that you lost people important to you but you're not the only one. I think Yuki was brought here for the same reason, and I had to run away to...to…" my voice hiccuped, the pristine image of my gored mother and father and the shredded pieces of my brother and sister returned to my head, the images I've been trying so hard to forget. I wiped the tears that have fallen down my cheek. I'm making this situation worse.

"A bad vampire had...broken into my home, too. A-and-" My jaws began to lock up, but a hand on my head eased the reaction. I look up to see Zero was stroking my head, an apologetic look on his face while averting his eyes from mine.

When my hiccups died down he removed his hand, still not daring to look me in the eye.

"I didn't think you were brought here for a similar reason. I'm sorry." He quietly said.

If it were possible I would have gazed at him, dumbfounded, for hours. He retracted his hand, grasping the spoon. "This is really good vegetable soup." he said and continued to eat quietly.

After several weeks, Zero began to open up more to us. Yuki and I were glad since the three of us now live under the same roof.

A few days later, Zero and I were in the dining room with Yuki. We heard the front door open and Yuki, once again, went rushing off to greet the person. I made a subtle movement in my sitting position on the chair, remembering that Zero's family was killed by also killed by a pureblood vampire, I found out from a vampire senate website I came across from research for demon training. I don't know why Kaname didn't come visit in a while, but he was coming now. I direct my look to Zero who looked back at me. I completely forgot to tell Zero about Kaname.

"What is it?" Zero asked, as if he was annoyed.

I looked down at my fingers, trying to avoid Zero's stare, because I didn't want to see his face when I told him who Yuki was going to."Well, you see, since you came to live with us and everything I forgot to tell you-"

"C'mon, Kaname, this way! I want you to meet someone." Yuki squealed in an excited voice. We see Yuki pulling onto Kaname through the doorway. Zero at first just stared at him for a few seconds, but then there was growing disbelief and hatred in his eyes as he grabbed the butter knife from the table. Yuki glanced at Zero, processing why he would hold the butter knife so agitatedly, then ran in front of Kaname who held out his hand in front of Yuki as Zero charged, taking a firm hold onto the knife. Zero glared at him.

"Vampire!"

Kaname didn't change to any expression; he was calm as he maneuvered the knife away from Zero's hand onto the ground. I stood up fast, staring at Zero, my eyes saying 'Sorry I should have told you sooner.' He glanced at me then to Yuki. "You touched him?!" He snarled toward Yuki. Zero looked at me again and the distance I was from Kaname to Yuki. He continued glaring,

"Did you also touch him?" My brows furrow together, expressing concern and a no-I-didn't-now-please-calm-down look. He grumbled, then ran away.

"Zero!" I called, but I knew it was useless. I sigh and run after him.

..

I finally found Zero outside near the outskirts of the forest. Walking close, I spoke in a soft tone, trying to not to startle him.

"Zero, you know, I don't think that Kaname is a bad vampire. Even though I didn't spend time with him like Yuki did, I can tell that he wants to see Yuki happy. So, please, come back."

It had taken a while until he nodded and came back with me. By the time we got back, Kaname had left and Yuki and Cross were waiting in the living room. Once he saw us Cross shot up,

"Good grief! I was worried about you two! And Zero, next time don't run outside like that, especially if it's winter. Think about Lila who went out there to get you back. And thank you Lila my little, cute daughter." He said as I nod and say,

"Yes, Cross." He froze with a happy face when he heard me say "Cross".

He went to a corner, moping, "It's father."

I ignore him, following Zero to his bedroom. He walked over to his bed and lies down. I walked over,

"Are you okay?"

He looked at me with a distrusting glare and turned over. "I'll leave you alone then, sleep well." Walking to the door, looking back once at Zero, I closing the door.