It Ends Tonight
Warnings: Swearing, mentions of sex, yaoi xDDDD
Disclaimer: I do not own Kai, Tala or beyblade. Or the song. If I did, I would rule the world HAHA!
A/N: Okay, so I got the idea for this while listening to my AAR CD the other night, and... well, yeah xDDD It's set a few months after Hotel Hiwatari.
Your
subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at
all.
We've been together for a few months
now. I wonder where that affection from Tala has gone. Have I done
something wrong? Is it something I've said? All I know now is that
Tala's attitude is really pissing me off. I hate what the boy has
turned into. I just can't place it; what has gone so wrong?
The
walls start breathing A weight
is lifted When
darkness turns to light, A
falling star You're
finding things that you didn't know The walls start
breathing A weight is lifted [Chorus] Just a little insight
won't make this right Now I'm on my
own side It's
my fault when you're blind All
these thoughts locked inside When darkness turns to light Just a little
insight won't make this right It ends when darkness turns
to light. Just
a little insight won't make this right Tonight,
Insight "Shh... It's okay, I understand."
And
all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at
all.
Tala and I are arguing now. I can't
even remember what the fight is about. Maybe I wasn't paying
attention... or maybe I've just given up. I don't think I can do
this. I've attempted this relationship for him, and now he's always
shirky with me. But over the last few weeks... I dunno, I guess I've
become more attached to him. I started relaxing about the whole idea,
and now I might actually care about the bastard...
My minds unweaving
Maybe it's best you
leave me alone.
Maybe it would have been
better if I'd said no. I mean, it's not like we would never
have gotten together, just at a later date. We're still teenagers, we
shouldn't be arguing like petty adults! I need to leave. I need to
get out of here. I can't keep this up anymore... I'm just going to
have to tell him it's over...
On this evening
I give the final blow.
I
did it... I broke up with him... He looks really weird. Like he's
angry and shocked and upset all at the same time. And for an
'emotionless' cyborg, that must be really hard to deal with... I have
to go now. He's yelling again, telling me to get out. So I will,
holding my head high. It's his own fault for pulling me into this,
then turning me away again! OW! That was a door. Note to self: Next
time you walk out of a room, remember to open the door first!
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
I've
walked out now, and I'm about halfway down the stairs. I can hear
banging from Tala's room... I think he must be really confused. And
hurt. But I can't go back now I've ended it. That's just hypocrisy.
No, it was his fault, and I'm sticking to that! Oh, the lift is out
of order... more stairs for me. Yay.
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you
can't explain.
It's cold outside. Well,
you'd expect that in November. I'm refusing to go back. I have to
keep telling myself it's not my fault. I mean, I can't be expected to
suddenly know everything about being in a relationship, can I? Tala
just turns up at the flat and wants me to immediately understand how
he's feeling when he gives me no more than a wave and a grunt as a
greeting! Seriously, how the hell am I supposed to read his mind from
that?! I asked him to reiterate himself once... He just gave me a
foul look, then sighed and said he had no way of explaining it, so it
was best I just let it be. So how the fuck does he expect me to know
what he's thinking if he doesn't know himself?!
I look at you with such
disdain.
I really, really
do hate the way he is now, and I can't tell whether it's my fault or
something else. He doesn't talk to me much, unless he's singing me a
soppy song from the shower. I miss that... He was so sweet until just
recently... Maybe I've been accidentally showing my disdain at his
attitude? I don't know. I never know anymore. All I know is he's not
the sweet, gentle kid he used to be. At least, he's not the same
person he was around me. Anyone else wouldn't be able to tell the
difference.
My minds unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me
alone.
I thought I heard a bird in the
sky. That's kinda rare in this city. I looked up, turning round a
little, but I didn't see any birds. Instead, I saw Tala, watching me
from our - no, his - bedroom window. I didn't look back down straight
away, else it would seem like I'm ashamed of myself...
Maybe I
am?
On this
evening
I give the final blow.
I'm not
looking at him anymore. I've carried on walking. This fucking street
seems to go on forever... Perhaps it's just time messing with my
head... I pulled my phone out for the time. It's six in the morning.
Damn. I'm not sure whether Tala's still watching or not... I refuse
to turn back and check. Hopefully he'll get that it really is over
now. I'm not staying with the crazy bastard any
longer.
When darkness
turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Dawn
is just starting to break. Rather early for this part of the country,
but hey. I don't control the sun. Sometimes I wish I did, because
then, in theory, I'd have enough power to control everything else in
the world. Voltaire and Boris would die, in the most painful and
humiliating method possible... It would snow in Winter and be sunny
in Summer... Tala and I wouldn't be arguing... I know it sounds weird
for me, but I still think I care for him... Maybe I'm thinking about
this all wrong.
It's too late to fight
It ends
tonight,
It ends tonight.
It's better than being on your side
I
still feel kinda confused. I glanced up at the window. I can't see
Tala, but then again, I can't see much anymore. Although it's getting
lighter, I've walked so far that anything in that window would just
be a blob. A very Tala-shaped blob, but a blob nonetheless. I wonder
what's wrong with him... What? Just because I broke up with him
doesn't mean I can't care anymore. Let's try and take this from the
blob's point of view.
Shut up, brain.
It's better that I see it through
your eyes.
Maybe there really is something
wrong, and he doesn't want to worry me... or pressure me? I don't
know... I mean, it's not like there are any Championships going on at
the moment, and Boris hasn't shown his ugly mug around... It must be
something that I've
done, but what? I've hugged him, I've cuddled him, I've moved in with
him, I've even kissed him in public!! What more does he want?! Well,
it has to be something important... because Tala wouldn't just get
pissy all the time for no reason, would he?
Now you're the first to know
I've
tried to be a good boyfriend, I really have, but it seems that
nothing I do makes any difference. And Tala doesn't tell me what's
wrong, so there's no possible way I can fix it. Maybe I should go
back and ask him... NO! I said I was sticking to this, and I will...
I don't think Tala's too happy though. He seemed really upset when I
left... Well, he would be. The guy he's been going after for so long
has just dumped him after a few months. We haven't even had sex
yet!
It
ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
SHUT UP,
BRAIN.
Okay, so I basically have to go back there, apologise and
rape Tala... God help me.
It's too late to fight
It ends
tonight,
I just looked back. His light is
still on. Obviously, Tala hasn't gone to sleep yet. Either that, or
he's crashed on his bed... bawling his eyes out. NOES, MAI TALA!! I
must save him... With smex... If he'll take me back, that is. Fuck.
Literally.
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight,
I'm
running now. God, this is so much effort. Why did I walk so far? That
postbox was a bitch to get off of too. Postboxes just aren't
designed to be sat on. I should start a petition for cushioned
postboxes... CONCENTRATE, KAI! Ow... That was a lamppost. Damn Tala
makes me feel guilty and run into lampposts... He better bloody
accept my apology or I'm gonna whoop his cute little butt so
badly... Okay, that didn't have the menacing impact I wanted...
It's too late to fight
It
ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Okay...
I'm at his door... Shit, I think I'm actually shaking. Me,
THE Kai Hiwatari, is shaking. Okay... I'm gonna do this... Somehow...
Hopefully. Okay, I'm knocking now. I thought I heard a grunt just
then... Tala obviously doesn't want company. Right, let's try a
different method.
CHARGE!
Ow... I'm sprawled on Tala's sofa
now... kinda... ontop of Tala... Whoops. Awwwwh, his eyeliner's all
runny. Poor thing. He's giving me a weird, angry look now. I think
I'm genuinely fearing for my life.
Damn Tala.
"Kai,
what the fuck?"
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.
"Tala...
I-I..."
"Tala?" I asked. He's looked down at me now. "I'm sorry... I should have considered your feelings first. I was being stupid... so stupid, hell, I was being Tyson!"
"Now, now. You're being too harsh on yourself." Tala's laughing. Not a lot, but I distinctly recognise laughing nonetheless... I think it's making me feel better. I really, really, truly, desperately am sorry, Tala... But if I said that aloud, you'd think I had verbal diaohrea. I've sat up a little now. Not a lot, just so I'm not completely smothering Tala anymore. He looks funny... is that a hint of fear in his eyes? No, TALAAAAA. I'M NOT LEAVING YOU AGAIIINNNN... Stupid bastard.
"Tala... I want to sex you."
"What?" Okay, now he looks shocked. It's actually rather amusing. Teehee.
"I wanna sex you. We both know you want it (at last) and, well, I wanna know what it feels like..." He's still looking at me funny. Is there something on my face? I swear, if any flies attached themselves to my perfect skin while I was running back here... Okay, that was very gay... Maybe I'm just embracing this whole thing now? SHUT UP BRAIN, TALA IS SPEAKING. ALL HAIL THE GREAT TALA Ohhmmmmm.
BRAIN!!
"Don't you think you're rushing things?" WHAT?!? ME, RUSHING THINGS?! You gotta be kidding me, Tala!
"Me? Rushing things? Tala, you're the one who wants it!" I'm really REALLY confused now.
"That may be so, but just because I want it doesn't mean it's good for us." That kinda makes sense... I think. Damn Tala with his crypticness.
"But Tala-" Damn. He stopped me. His hand is over my mouth now... I have a strong urge to lick it... NO. MUST RESIST... RESISTING... SENSORS... FAILING...
"Ewwww, Kai!" Teehee, I licked him. He's sighing, but smiling. That's a good sign, right? "Look," Ooh, he's talking again. Let's listen! "You come stay here, we'll sit down, watch a gory movie, and if you're still up for it, then I'll fuck you."
I think my eyebrow is raised at him. He's moving now... I think it's so we can sit down on the sofa properly.
"Just trust me, okay?" Okay, now he's pulling that soppy face, and he's just asked me to trust him. I can't refuse now, can I? We've moved now, so we're sitting next to each other. Actually, that's a lie. Tala's just got up and is fiddling with the DVD player. I never understand those things. Anyway, my point is that Tala's arse looks REAAAAAAALLY nice from here... Here he comes, sitting back on the sofa with me. He's smiling... Damn, he looks soooooo cute!! I just adore him. Yes, I admit it. I adore Tala Ivanov. And now I'm snogging him.
HAHA!
