A/N: This is just an idea I've had for a while. Caution, this will contain rape, abuse, and suicide. I'm warning you now, no like, no read.

Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto

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I can't do this anymore... I have to get out of here... *shivers* What if Hidan does that again? I-i... Just can't...

I got up and got some stuff together. I made sure to pack lots of clay a few changes of clothes. After that, I got a peice of paper and a pen, then proceeded to write, I can't do this... I just can't... –Deidara

At that, I left. Slipped into the night. Hoping to never return. I am hoping to forget what happened there over the years. Sure I would miss Konan and Kisame, they are my friends after all, but I just deal with it anymore.

~(four days later with the Akatsuki, third pov)~

"Where could he be!?" Konan exclaimed. He was worried sick about Deidara. They hadn't seen in four days. They were all worried about him. They have searched all over the base, but they had yet to find anything.

"I'm afraid we'll have to assume that Deidara is dead... We haven't seen him in 4 days. I'm sor-" Pein was cut off before he could finish.

"I found a note!" Kisame practically yelled. He ran up to Pein, waving the note around.

"Kisame, let me see the note," Pein commanded. Kisame gave Pein the note. He read it out loud. There was silence. They stayed like that for a good hour. They were shocked. How could he just leave

What was he even talking about.

~(Deidara pov)~

I have been walking for days and I can't find anywhere to hide. I can't go back to the base. Besides, its far too late for that. *stomach growls* Man I'm hungry and thirsty. I haven't eaten anything for a few months and haven't drank anything since I left.

"Deidara!" I heard in the distance, "Where are you Deidara!?" I then panicked. I searched frantically a place to hide. Bad mistake. I passed out instead of finding a place to hide.