Sad
Clown
Author's note:
This is one of my favorite songs. It's by Jars of Clay from their CD: If I Left
the Zoo. The characters are of course, owned by either JK Rowling or Warner
Brothers, take your pick. All I own is the story.
Snape walks down the hall, passing student
after student. He looks up and sees, about ten feet away, Lily Evans.
"Hey Lily," says Severus with a
sheepish smile.
"Oh, hi," she answers, then goes
back to a conversation with her friends and brushes past.
Say how's the
weather,
So I look out the
window
To brighten my
soul
But I can't
control
The rain that
keeps fallin
Severus Snape had been spending the last
week working up the courage to do what he was about to do. He walks toward Lily
from across the Great Hall.
"Um, Lily?" he asks, his voice
shaking.
"Yeah Sev?" Lily answers, though
not paying much attention.
"Um, I was wondering, um, if you
would, err, go to the ball with me?"
"Oh I'm really sorry Sev, I'm already
going with James Potter."
"Oh, well that's ok, I'll just ask
someone else I guess," Severus says, fighting to keep the hurt out of his
voice.
Smile on the
outside
that never
comes in
The graduation ceremony. Severus looks over
at Lily Evans and James Potter. A tear trickles down his face. Wiping it away,
he walks over to them.
"Congratulations," he says,
looking at Lily,
"You too," says James and leads
Lily away.
A comedy,
mystery, irony, tragedy
So I scream
"Let the
show begin"
Severus looks at the wedding cake. Little
figurines of James and Lily sit on top. He reaches toward the groom and-
"Hey Sev," says Lily, "Glad
you could come."
"The entire grad level was
invited," he replies, withdrawing his hand and turning toward Lily,
"Why should I be the only one to miss it?"
"Still, thanks for coming." She
looks at him straight in the eye and smiles. Music begins to play and Lily
hurries over to her waiting father for the procession.
You break me
open
Turn on the
light
Stumble inside
with me, with
me
Severus is sitting; reading. The Dark Mark
burns on his arm. He gets up and pulls out his wand, ready to apparate. A face
enters is mind: Lily. What would she think of him now? She would hate him, just
like before.
Do I entertain
you?
Do I preoccupy
you
with my wit
to cover this
lie
Are you mesmerized?
Severus walks into the school. Where is he?
He searches all over the school, then a figure approaches.
"Severus Snape!" says Dumbledore,
"What are you doing here?"
"I need to talk to you," Severus answers,
"badly."
"Alright, into my office.'
Do you think me
faithful?
Do you think me
a clown?
Severus and James are pretending to fight
in a raging battle. When one curse comes a bit too close to Severus, he glares
at James.
"We're on the same team
remember?" whispers Severus harshly.
"Don't give me a reason to
forget," replies James.
"What do you mean by that?" asks
Severus, turning red with anger.
"Stay away from her Snape."
I picked out
this shirt
I put on this
hat
I wore all this
paint
Just for you
Severus appears, suddenly, in Godric's
Hollow. He's too late. He runs over to the ruins of the potters' house. He
turns and sees Lily's body and hurries over to it.
Severus begins t check for any sign of
life. A pulse, breathing, anything. But he knows already. He breaks down and
cries over Lily's body.
You break me
open
Turn on the
light
Stumble inside
with me, with
me
Severus is sitting in the funeral service,
listening to Remus Lupin talk about Lily and James. When Lupin finishes, they
open the coffins. Starting with James.
Severus looks at the body with a sneer, but
his attitude soon fades. Lily's casket is opened. Severus stands up and leaves
the room.
You break me
open
Turn on the
light
Stumble inside
with me, with me
