Lightning-Dono: Fuzuki muses upon her Meroko's sudden death. It's a short piece that I wrote on a break from my homework. Writing essays can get a bit tiring on the mind.

Worth Your Soul

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Often in life, we force ourselves to perceive the world around us in a certain way. In doing this, we allow ourselves to become close-minded to both the truth and separate items that should be taken into consideration before walking down a certain path. Perhaps you didn't know it, but everyday I pondered about what you probably considered my ultimate betrayal. Maybe knowing that your best friend had chosen to forsake you for all that love had meant was too much to heave upon your mental state at the time. Love had made you sick, driven you to the point of ending something more precious than all that love would ever be; your life.

I blame myself every day for making you take such desperate action. I still imagine that we could've become grandmothers together, risen to a ripe old age, and continued to maintain out friendship. Unfortunately…such a thing would never happen because I chose to have a tasteless affair with the man you had so often dreamt of and referred to as your "soul mate".

That time of our lives had been glorious. We entered the age in which we were willing to freely speak of the men of our dreams, what we hoped our futures would be like…

But you never did have a future, did you?

You chose to take your life in place of having a man by your side. Was it worth the trade? Was sending yourself through pain in order to achieve an imminent end something that equated the pain that you had felt?

Many people think the old are wise, but I believe the opposite. While we may be knowledgeable of life's many pains and agonies, joys and cheer, there are still certain things that we seek to discover.

To this very day, I live in a muddied pool of regret that reduced me to someone lacking the energy to live up to my decisions and face the fact that you are gone. Death had released you from worldly disasters and life has liberated me from youthful ignorance. Yet, I remain ignorant still.

So…my dear friend…

Make me a little wiser today. Provide me with the wisdom that I should have gained long ago.

Is love truly worth your soul?