It had been months. And nothing, nothing but emptiness. How much i tried to forget them it had not worked, so tonight as I grabbed my iPod and let the music hurt my ears I let my mind run free from the restrictions I had made.
Edward.
My Edward was gone never to return again. He made that much clear.
That made him just Edward Anthony Masen Cullen not my Edward.
As tears started to fall, I sat up in my bed and did something that I had never done and was criminal. I blamed somebody and it wasn't Edward, the fact he was a vampire or myself it was…God.
"You took him away from me! How dare you? He was mine and I was happy. What did I do to deserve this? I just wanted him to be with me and help him see that he wasn't a monster. He was my mate, my other half, my one in six billion. And you had to take him away from me." I whispered angrily as tears ran down my cheeks into the corners of my mouth, soaking my face. I closed my eyes and remembered the times that Edward and I had been allowed to spend. The first time he spoke to me in the biology lab, the time I sat with him in the cafeteria for the first time, the meadow, my first visit to the Cullen house. Those were the happy ones, my happy memories that could not be taken from me. But then there was the clearing with James, Victoria and Laurent. The ballet studio, my eighteenth birthday and the last…The cold look in his eyes when he left me in the forest.
I shuddered and more tears leaked from the corners of my brown and empty eyes. I lay my head on my pillow and took deep breaths to calm down. As the tears dried I pulled out the headphones from my ears placed them on my nightstand. As I began to drift I made myself a promise.
This would be the last time that I would cry over Edward Cullen.
7 years later
"Bella you did it!" Angela congratulated me as I stepped through the front door of my New York apartment.
"I sure did. Angela you have no idea how great that felt, achieving that much. I mean now I'm actually a few promotions off from the highest position." I sighed as I walked over to the fridge and grabbed a bottle of water, as I sipped on the water I realised that Matthews Co. had given me a lot. More than I could ask for. When I first decided to move to New York I tried to get a few jobs and it started off with me working at a café, a shop and at Matthews Co. When I was hired for Matthews Co. it was a small job however I was young and a hard worker so I started getting promoted and quit my other jobs to focus on Matthews Co. and today I got my latest promotion, now I was Bella Swan with an office. My job did take a lot out of me but I managed to have a personal life. In my first year in university I met Nick Matthews. However lost all contact when he moved to Los Angeles. So imagine the surprise I got a year after I was employed at Matthews Co. and saw Nick walk through the lobby and noticed me. We hit it off and even though I was opposed to having a relationship with my bosses kid, Nick assured me that we had met before I was an employee at Matthews Co. Nick is six foot four, quite muscular, brown hair and blue eyes. He was one of the sought after bachelor in New York however after our relationship went public the press died down. Nick is one of the loveliest men I have ever met. He is very caring and passionate. He is almost perfect.
"Bella dinner is ready, we would go out but Ben and I have plans." Angela kindly smiled.
"Ang, don't you worry. I'll call Nick. He said he was free today." I returned the smile and grabbed my lasagne.
"So what plans have you got with Ben?" I wondered. Angela and Ben had somehow maintained their relationship all through high school, university and moving to New York.
"Were going to go to Forks for the weekend, you know see the family."
"Ang, your lasagne only keeps getting better. How is that possible? And your going tonight?" I wondered as it was already seven pm.
"No not tonight. Tomorrow. Oh and Bella you might want to quit that newspaper job." She smiled.
"How do you know about that." I was so shocked that she knew about it.
"Your boss called you. Bella why didn't you tell me?"
"I didn't tell you because I enjoy writing and well it was my separate identity. You know I loved writing and well I thought that I could get away from it all." I muttered as I spread the lasagne around my plate.
"Bella, I think you will need to quit. You won't have time for it. After all it's not like you need the money."
About that Angela was right. I didn't need extra money. Escaping from Washington two weeks after my graduation from university I started working at Matthews Co. and got promoted quickly, rising to all challenges which were set for me. I earned a lot. Enough to support Renee's family, Charlie's family, myself and still be able to own half the contents of designer shops and put away money for future. My place in New York was not bad either. It was a penthouse near the centre in which I lived with Angela who was kind enough to accompany me in my search for happiness. Angela ended up a photographer for the greatest fashion magazines. We were living the dream. Angela was engaged to good old Ben who now lived in the building next to ours.
"Yea, I know Ang but I enjoy what I do and when you move out I'm sure some extra money wont hurt." I suggested with a sad smile.
"Bella that's pure Sugar-Honey-Ice-Tea and you know it. I would not be surprised if your bank balance isn't over $1,000,000." Angela stated. I knew I had lost this fight and would be calling the newspaper tomorrow morning to quit.
Just as I finished my meal I hear a loud knock echo through my apartment. This could only be one person.
"I'll get that Ang." I shouted and gracefully walked over to the door, behind which I found over 4 dozen red roses instantly making me smile. Nick lowered the bouquet,
"Hi." he smiled.
"Well hello stranger. What can I help you with?" I asked fighting back a giggle.
"Well I was looking for this one lady," he played along "but now that I have found you, I won't even to go looking for her." He smirked.
"And why is that?" I innocently popped my head against the door frame.
"Well you are simply the most gorgeous, beautiful and sexy woman on this planet," he leaned in so that our lips were less than an inch apart "Congratulations." He whispered and pressed his lips to mine.
"Thanks." I said as I pulled away and Nick handed me the bouquet.
"So I guess I will be seeing you more at work," Nick wondered "oh hi Angela."
"Hey Nick." Angela smiled as she looked for her blackberry.
"Well yes," I said as I found a vase and cut off the ends of the flower stems "I love my job, and in a couple of promotions I will be at the top of the company." I explained. I grabbed the vase that now contained some water and the beautiful roses and placed it on the glass table.
"Isabella Marie Swan wants to take over the WOORRLLLDD!" Angela laughed and Nick joined in.
"You bet I am," I chucked "there is nothing wrong with making as much money as possible. I mean I don't even keep half of it. The half is split between Charlie and Renee. Charlie needs it now that he is living with Sue plus the cost of Seth's garage and Renee needs it due to her like….seventh honeymoon with Phil and Iris's school bill it doesn't hurt anybody."
"Except for you." Nick failed to keep his mouth shut. Although he was right. I was usually working crazy hours to get everything done.
"Look," I said a little harsher than I planned "honey, you grew up with more money than some people make in a lifetime. Me, I grew up with money to just have enough but I grew up around people with convertible BMW and monster jeeps where as I had a fifties Chevy truck," I remembered a particular family in Forks but quickly pushed out that thought "you have no idea how great it is that I have money to spend."
"Wait…didn't the Cul-len…Oh. Right I'm off to Ben's, call me if anything." And with that Angela stormed out.
"Who are the Cullens?" Nick wondered.
"Nobody." I mused as I felt a bit of anger towards Angela for bringing them up.
"Bella, who are the Cullens," but as soon as he saw my facial expression fall he got protective "Bella, did they hurt you?"
"I don't want to talk about it."
"But Bella…" He started but fortunately I was able to cut him off
"…I said I don't want to talk about it." I snapped. Nick came up closer and hugged me.
"I'm sorry Bella. I just had a rough day at work today and just you keeping secrets set me off. I'm so sorry."
"You know I love you Nick. It's just that some things in my past are not pleasant to talk about it. I hope you understand." I said in barely a whisper and turned around in his embrace.
"I know and I understand." He smiled and pressed his lips more roughly on mine and I lead him into my bedroom.
