Shit, I felt sore. Did I really do that last night? That shouldn't have been a question because I knew exactly what we did the night before. The real question was, what did it mean? Does it mean I have feelings for him? But if I did, does that mean I'm gay?

Damn, I've got a headache. I should get myself cleaned up first.

I take a look over to the man, asleep, in my bed before getting up and moving to the bathroom. Once I was under the warm running water, I began wondering how things ended up the way they had. I think he came over while I was studying…

-X-

I looked up when I thought I heard something. Nothing. I looked back down at my physics textbook when I heard it again. Knocking. I pulled out my ear buds and walked over to the door. "I'm coming, be a little patient."

When I opened the door, I saw Shinya Kanbara standing there with a plastic convenience store bag in one hand. He had his family's infamous goofy smile plastered onto his face and judging from the messy state his clothes were in, he was just at some client's place.

"What is it?" I muttered irately. "I have an exam tomorrow, I need to study."

"That's rude," he pouted as he let himself in. As per usual. He set down the bag onto the coffee table and removed his jacket. "I just wanted to hang out with you since you decided to blow off the others."

The others? I almost forgot, it was the first Monday of the month meaning I was supposed to be with the other Legendary Warriors, to spend time with them. But unlike most of them, I'm still in college so I had schoolwork to take care of. I had to cancel no matter how badly I wanted to be with all of them again. Shinya must've decided to come over because he thought I was lonely. That's typical of him. He's a lot like his brother.

"I'm just tired," I said. I realized that while I was in my apartment alone, I had decided to change into my pajamas early, which meant Shinya was seeing me in a plain white t-shirt and black boxer shorts. It would explain why Shinya was staring at me with his hungry eyes. "Let me go put on some clothes and then I'll make some dinner. Something tells me you haven't eaten yet."

"What makes you think that?"

"You don't know how to cook shit. And you don't really have any money for convenience store goods."

He shrugged innocently. "You got me there."

"Why can't you just learn how to cook for yourself?"

He seemed offended that I would even suggest that to him. "Eh? But Tomoki-chan's food is the best!"

I sighed in exasperation but decided to let it pass since it wasn't the first time he's said this.

After I got changed, I got to work in the kitchen. My apartment wasn't big; it was rather traditional with tatami mats and a noticeable lack of chairs. But it didn't seem to be a big deal for Shinya. He seemed to enjoy being in this confined space, especially after one of his 'jobs'.

"So, who was it tonight?" I asked.

Shinya grinned. "Just this random guy. You probably don't know him."

"Was he a bottom or a top?" I questioned. I didn't even know why I needed to know any of this.

"Bottom," said Shinya. He revealed that he had brought over a pack of beer cans in the bag. He took one and cracked it open. "But the guy came so easily just from being fucked. He stopped there and didn't even let me finish. To top it all off, I'm getting real tired of being the top all the time though."

This was a new piece of information. Shinya is gay, he only has eyes for men but he is interchangeable during sexual intercourse. But the thing is, that's all he looks for when it comes to men. He only searches for something physical and sexual; he doesn't care for a meaningful relationship. The only person he's ever dated was this guy two years younger than him. Makoto, I believe, was his name.

But even while dating the guy, Shinya was still looking all over for sex from other men. Makoto never seemed to mind though I knew he did. Shinya would never ask for money, he wasn't a prostitute. No, he was simply a slut. Whenever I heard my schoolmates referring to the 'faggot slut', I knew who they're talking about. I'm just surprised that there are so many guys who are that desperate for sexual relief at our college though. Especially considering how most seem to be against homosexuals.

I've gotten numerous offers from Shinya myself but I always declined. I was never interested in having sex with a man, whether I was the top or the bottom.

I was getting sidetracked. "I thought you preferred being the top though."

"Yeah, but I've only been the top for two whole weeks now!" Shinya said loudly. "Even Makoto was a strict bottom."

"So," I said as I brought the food over to the table. "You want to be the bottom?"

Shinya nodded as he handed me a can of beer. "Not all the time but once in a while would be nice."

I shook my head. "I will never understand what's so enjoyable about having some dude's dick up your ass."

Shinya wiggled his eyebrows. "Would you like to find out?"

I hit him with a frying pan while taking a sip from the beer. I always did this and I warned him about it too. If he ever tried to make any advances towards me, I would hit him with a weapon from the kitchen. Non-lethal of course. Frying pans and pots have worked best for me but it doesn't stop him from trying again another day.

"No thanks," I grumbled.

Shinya chuckled to himself as he dug into the dinner I made. "Well, I will never understand what's so desirable about sleeping with a girl. It doesn't seem very appealing to me. Then again, I just find the female anatomy to be rather disgusting."

"Better not let any hormone driven straight guys here you say that," I mumbled.

"But I do have to say that I get curious sometimes," Shinya mused before getting some look on his face. He then looked over at me. "You could describe how it is!"

I stared at him as if he grew a second head. Why do we use that analogy all the time? There are probably hundreds of others. Anyway, I stared at him in shock. "What?"

"You heard me."

I shook my head. "No, I don't think so."

"Why not?" he whined. "I always share my sexual escapades with you."

"I wouldn't even be able to stop you," I grumbled. "And look, I'm just not comfortable with sharing that part of my personal life with you or anybody else."

"Oh, come on, please?" he inquired. "I'm not asking you to murder someone. All I'm asking is for you to tell me just one sex story."

I huffed in exasperation. "No!"

"Why not?"

"Because I've never had sex before!" I didn't know why I blurted out the truth to him but I felt so fucking embarrassed that I did. He didn't need to know that, especially not him. He's slept with several people before. He's going to make fun of me. Me, the twenty year old virgin.

"Are you expecting me to laugh or something?" he asked instead.

I was, actually. "It's embarrassing, isn't it? To be in college and to have yet to lose your virginity."

Shinya sighed. "I will never understand virgins either. Why do they think that it's so bad to be a virgin at the age of eighteen or above? I know plenty of virgins in my class. And when you think about it, this is Japan; our people are stereotyped to be rather proper so it shouldn't even be that big of a deal."

"But that's just a stereotype," I argued. "I mean, you don't act like a stereotyped gay guy. You love sports, hate boy bands, fall asleep during plays, could probably destroy a kitchen by a picking up a pot, and you have a high sexual drive, all stereotyped straight guy things. The only thing you do that is stereotyped for your sexuality is going to whatever guy you choose for sex, no matter what they're personality is like."

"I'm a little hurt by some of those things," Shinya chuckled. "But in that case, you behave more like a stereotyped homosexual than I do. You love cooking, performing arts; you even know how to sew. And let's not forget what happened last Halloween."

"Izumi forced that make up on me, I didn't have a choice!" I snapped. I realized that he was avoiding the original topic. I knew it; he wanted to laugh at me but decided to change the subject to put on the façade of a good friend. "Go ahead and laugh already. I know you want to."

"Tomoki," Shinya sighed. "It's really not a big deal. You're just being paranoid."

I glanced up at him. "You think so?"

Shinya put a hand on my shoulder and flashed me the Kanbara smile. It's apparently an inherent trait among the males of his family. "Trust me."

Somewhere inside me, I knew he was right. It just felt embarrassing when I hung out with a bunch of guys bragging about the girls they've 'ruined' as they've put it. "Sometimes, I just wish I could get it over with so I don't need to worry about it."

"It's really nothing to worry about," Shinya chuckled before getting his idea look on his face.

I blinked, curious and a little scared if I'm being honest. "What?" But I already figured out what he was thinking when he looked at me, his mouth hanging open as he was about to say his idea. So I hit him with the frying pan.

"Ow!" he yelped. "I haven't even said anything yet!"

"I don't care!" I yelled as I stood up. "I'm not going to sleep with you!"

"It's not like I'm going to be the one doing the penetrating," he said as if that made the situation any less awkward for me.

"Is this for your sake or mine?"

"Yours!"

"Really? Because just a few moments ago, you were talking about how you wanted to bottom."

Shinya fell silent and that's when I knew I was right. "Okay, yes." I groaned. "I'm sorry Tomoki! But… Why don't you want to? Are you against it or…?"

"No, I'm not against the idea, I'm straight but…" I had no idea where I was going with that. "Look, I know a lot of straight guys use you for their own sexual pleasures but you're not a slut to me. You're my friend. One of my best friends. And sleeping with you just wouldn't sit right with me."

"Takuya said something along those same lines," Shinya muttered.

My eyes widened and he seemed surprised that he had said that as well. "No!" I drew out loudly. "You didn't!"

"N-No! I swear nothing like that happened!" Shinya tried to cover up, but it was too late, it was now in the air for me to dissect.

"You slept with your own brother?!" I hissed.

"Okay, maybe," he said. "He…Takuya-nii was actually the first guy I slept with but it wasn't him who made the first move. I mean, obviously. He's pretty much the straightest guy I know. But, I was the one who learned about sex and I looked deeper into it on the internet. When I learned about what two guys could do, I… I wanted to try it out and well, Takuya was the only person I could ask. When he declined, I… Did certain sexual tricks I learned online to seduce him."

Part of me was strangely intrigued and I wasn't quite sure why. "So... How old were you?"

Shinya took a moment to think about it. "I think I was twelve."

"Twelve?" I repeated. He was an early bloomer, I already knew that. But that meant Takuya lost his virginity at fifteen, possibly earlier. "Wait… So, if that hadn't happened, would you not have been gay? I mean, if you basically pushed Takuya into fucking you, then…"

Shinya shook his head. "You should know by now that it's not a choice. No, I knew since I was eight that I was attracted to boys. It was pretty scary really."

"I can imagine…"

The two of us remained silent for a long time as images of the Kanbara brothers getting naked together in bed flashed through my head. I picked up the dirty dishes and moved them to the sink, wishing I could scrub away the filthy thoughts in my brain.

"I guess I should go," Shinya said as he stood up.

"Wait," I suddenly blurted out. "You should… stay overnight. It's already way past midnight."

Shinya blinked. "Are you sure?"

I wasn't sure what I was thinking, or what I was planning on doing. I just knew that my lower zone was getting tight in the confinement of my jeans.

I nodded. "Besides, you need to take responsibility for what you did to me." I moved into his line of vision so that he could see my hard on, which was pretty embarrassing in and of itself. I could tell that he got pretty excited when he saw it as he grabbed my and and pulled me into my bedroom.

"Just pretend I'm a girl if it makes you more comfortable," Shinya told me before he started kissing and licking my neck affectionately. He must've been able to tell that I was pretty tense. And the way he was moving downward from my neck, slowly unbuttoning my shirt, definitely made me feel more relaxed.

"I just need some relief," I breathed out when he started playing with my nipples. "I'm not sure if I'm ready for sex."

"If you say so," he smiled. His hand reached forward and grabbed the bulge in my pants causing me to gasp. "You sure are excited though. I had no idea you liked having your nipples played with like this. It's pretty dirty for someone like you."

"Yeah, well, I didn't know that either," I huffed.

"I guess we both learned something new tonight," he grinned.

Shinya continued leaving a trail of kisses down my body and when he reached the belt of my jeans, he began to methodically remove the bottom layer of clothing with his teeth. I already had an erection but it felt like I was getting even more aroused just by watching him. I didn't need to pretend that he was girl.

He stares my exposed dick. "I know it's not very big," I muttered, blushing madly.

"Heh, I've seen smaller," he breathed.

Shinya didn't start sucking it right away though. He began with licking me first, circling his tongue around the base of my cock and even going as far as licking my balls. I couldn't help it as I started releasing moans which only seemed to urge him forward. And that's when he started to put his lips around it and move.

My breathing got quicker and the intervals between my moans became shorter. This felt… amazing but somehow, it didn't feel completely right to me. I knew why when I was approaching my climax. I quickly pushed Shinya away from my member. "H-Hold on!"

"Eh?" he blinked, looking up at me. "What's wrong? I know I'm not a bad cocksucker."

"I-It's not that," I stuttered. "I'm just getting close."

"You said you needed relief."

"Yeah, I know but I… I want to…"

Shinya understood and he began to strip down as I watched. I've seen his nude body several times before but this was the first time I felt embarrassed while he was standing there with his bare body in front of me. I could tell that he was hard as a rock down there but I wasn't there to pleasure him, he was going to pleasure me. Those were his words, I swear.

"Is there a certain position you want me to be in?" he asked seductively.

My heart was pounding in my chest, not because it was my first time, but because of how excited I felt. "I guess whatever you like. I don't particularly care. But don't we need to use protection or lube?"

"Unfortunately, I don't have any condoms with me," Shinya chuckled. "What about you?"

I shook my head. "None."

"Then I guess we have to do this bareback then."

"A-Are you sure?"

"I don't mind."

"What about lube? Won't it hurt if we don't have any?"

He shrugged. "Sure, for someone who's doing it their first or maybe even fifth time. But this is me we're talking about. Even if I haven't done it in two weeks, it won't hurt as much. Don't worry about it." Shinya bent over on his knees and elbows as looked back at me. His ass pointing in my direction. "I'm ready whenever you are."

I wasn't sure if I was ready but there was no turning back since I'd already come that far. Actually there was, for a variety of reasons, like how it was unsafe or how I wanted my first time to be done with someone I love. But right now, this isn't exactly a story about safety or true love; this is about what my lustful desires led me to.

So I put my full weight on the bed, causing the frame to creak slightly. I put my hands on his back and then I was in. Even though I knew that Shinya had done this kind of thing several times before, his asshole was still tight. It seemed to wrap around my dick perfectly and well, it felt incredible.

"So, do I just start moving?" I asked.

"Don't be an idiot," Shinya grunted. "Of course you do. And there's no need to hesitate, I can take it all."

He wasn't joking around; he really could take all of me with no problem whatsoever. And once I started moving in and out of him, I couldn't stop. It felt too good.

I was fucking Shinya Kanbara and it felt great. I could feel the sweat on my body accumulating and I gripped onto him tighter, crashing my chest against his back. Shinya didn't mind though and I could tell from his heavy and quick breathing that he was enjoying it too. I couldn't hold back, but maybe I should've tried harder too. Either way, I ended up relieving myself, before pulling out.

"Shit!" I gasped as I quickly pulled out. "I am so sorry! I-I didn't mean to!"

Shinya looked at me with mock anger as he crawled over to me, fluids dripping from his posterior. "You realize you have to take responsibility for what you've done to me," he said, using my own words against me. "Are you prepared?"

I knew exactly what he wanted, even if he was only kidding. And the strange thing was, I didn't feel repulsed by the thought like I usually was. "…Go ahead," I whispered.

"Wait, what?" he blinked.

"I said you can fuck me," I clarified.

Shinya backed away a little. "I was just joking Tomoki. Plenty of guys have given me their seed from that end. It's not like you did anything wrong, so we can just stop here if you want."

I shook my head. "No, I… I want you to do it."

"Are you serious?"

"Yeah," I nodded. "I am. Besides, you haven't blown your load yet tonight, right?"

Shinya searched my face to try and figure me out, see if I was playing some angle before finally giving in. "Lie on your back. I don't like doing it doggy style when I'm the top."

I complied and lay down on my back. I felt even more exposed than I was already. As if I needed more reasons to blush.

Shinya took hold of each of my ankles and pulled my legs apart. He stared down at my privates' area before bending down and licking my hole. That surprised me. I thought he was just going to fuck me but…

"W-Wait!" I yelped. "W-What are you doing? I don't clean down there very often."

He opened up one eye and looked up at me. "I'm trying to get you to loosen up. Unlike me, this is your first time so it's going to hurt, especially considering the fact that we don't have any lube. So, don't worry. Besides, it's helping you get hard again."

I hadn't realized it but he was right. I was hard again. Apparently, his mouth was good for the front and the back.

I was moaning even more than when he was giving me that blowjob. "Y-You really know what you're doing, huh."

Shinya pulled away and nodded. "You better believe I do. Now, relax, if you tense up, then so will this cute little ass of yours."

I blushed even harder than before, as if that was possible at this point. "Just hurry up."

"Okay, but I was wondering if it was okay to use your cum to loosen you up," he said. "Saliva dries up pretty quick."

I didn't even want to know how he knew about this. "Fine," I murmur.

Shinya grinned and I felt him rubbing something wet, kind of sticky, but also slippery on my asshole. Once that was done, he started teasing me, I could feel it. He was just rubbing the tip of his cock against my hole, making feel hot and impatient all at once. After what felt like an eternity, he pushed himself in and I gasped. He was bigger than I was expecting. And while he was going in deep, he was taking it slow for me.

"It doesn't hurt, does it?" he asked me in a gentle voice.

It did. But the pain was mixing with so much pleasure. "Just keep going," I breathed.

And he did. He moved in until he was balls deep and then he started to perform the same hip-swaying motion as I had. But he wasn't going to waste time with me and I could tell as he started to get faster and faster. I could feel his dick thrusting in and out of me and it honestly felt amazing.

"I haven't had an ass this tight in quite some time," Shinya grunted.

"Sh-Shut up!" I moaned. "Just–! Ah, fuck!"

I didn't have to tell Shinya twice. He was fucking me hard and deep and I was getting into it too. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him down to me. I wasn't going to kiss him but I just needed to hold on to something and his warm, sweaty body was closest. It felt good too, our body heat intermingling with each other. I then wrapped my legs around him as well, I didn't want to let go of him. I didn't want to let go of that moment.

"Shit!" he shouted. "I-I'm going to cum!"

I felt his seed burst inside of me and this intense feeling of ecstasy run through my veins. But what surprised me was that the white fluid had gotten on the outside as well, on our skin. And then I realized that I had cum too, from being fucked in the ass. I couldn't believe it but Shinya didn't seem as surprised as he licked some of, well, me, off of my cheek.

"Shit…," I breathed heavily as I released him. "I wasn't expecting that."

"Heh…," he chuckled as he pulled out and then put himself down beside me. "You're probably the best bottom I've ever had in my life."

"I doubt it," I groaned. "God, I feel sore now."

"Yeah, it'll wear off by tomorrow afternoon at the earliest. If you're lucky," Shinya chuckled. "We should probably get cleaned up." Even though he said that, he pulled me close to him so that I could feel the sweat running down his body. He refused to let me go.

"I'm too tired to get cleaned up right now," I yawned.

"Good, we're on the same page," he laughed.

I paused; I wasn't sure what else to say after what we did. So I just said what came naturally to me. "…Good night Shinya."

"Good night, Tomoki."

I fell asleep in his arms.