Hey guys so here is another fan-fic for the Finder Series. This one was a bit more emotional because I was feeling a bit emotional... So yeah.
Contains: Sadness, Angst, Yaoi, Lemon, A saying of Yan's (the Bastard none of us liked because he hurt Fei~), Slight OOC
Like I said, Emotional, I also made Fei a bit over emotional, I know, but like I said, I WAS FEELING A BIT EMOTIONAL!
*goes and hides in a corner*
Feilong: Emotional borderline bipolar.
Me: SHUT UP FEI OR IM NOT GONNA WRITE FOR YOU AGAIN!
*Feilong Liu*
I sighed as I walked into the bathroom with Mikhail.
"So you have a meeting today?" He asked and I nodded.
"Yes, it's with the man in charge of my American Weapons Trading Route."
"Really?" I sighed and nodded as we walked to the sink. I could hear the shower running and it was obvious that Asami was in the shower because Akihito would never be up this early. I turned on the water then grabbed my toothbrush and the tooth paste from the drawer. I then began to brush my teeth and after a minute Asami got out of the shower and I glanced at him as he walked over.
"Alright, one of you can shower now." He stated as he grabbed his tooth brush.
"Im fine, I already showered." I stated, taking a sip of water from the tap.
"I guess I'll have a shower then." Stated Mikhail. I sighed again and put my tooth brush back in the holder. I took my hair out of it's ponytail then glanced at Asami who was standing in front of the drawer that had my brush in it.
"Asami, hand me my brush." He smirked then grabbed my brush and held it out to me. I went to grab it but he pulled it away.
"What do you say Feilong?" He asked with that annoying smirk still plastered on his face.
"Please." I stated looking away from him.
"Please what?"
"Please hand me my brush." Asami leaned in close to me and I leaned back, annoyed by how close he was.
"And why should I?" He asked.
"Because I asked you to, now give me my brush!" I exclaimed angrily, fed up with his attitude.
"I dont intend to simply give it to you, persuade me to give it to you." I let out a huff of frustration.
"I refuse, I dont intend to do anything that will make me owe you anything." Asami chuckled.
"And what is it that you believe you will end up owing me?" He asked.
"Knowing you it would end up being either sex or money and I dont intend to owe you either."
"Well then I guess you wont be brushing your hair." I punched at Asami but he grabbed my fist and pulled me closer to him.
"Let go." I stated with a glare.
"Persuade me to release you."
"Tsk." I punched at him with my left hand and he discarded my brush, catching my second fist.
"Well now I have both of your hands." I smirked.
"That may be true, but i've always been better with my feet." I managed to push Asami back slightly then kicked him in the side hard enough to make him release me and stumble slightly. I sighed then grabbed my brush and began to brush my hair. Asami sighed as well then walked back to the counter. The bathroom door was then flung open and Akihito stood in the doorway with a tired look on his face.
"WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON IN HERE!?"
"We are getting ready." Stated Mikhail, poking his head out from behind the shower curtain.
"It sounded more like you guys were trying to kill each other."
"No, Feilong and I simply had a little squabble." I glanced at Asami then let out another small huff of frustration.
"If that is a 'little squabble' I would like to hear what you two trying to kill each other sounds like~" Stated Mikhail with a smirk.
"Keep it down! Believe it or not, I would prefer to not be woken up at six in the morning!" He then stomped away, slamming the bathroom door.
"Good job Fei, you made Akihito mad at us." I glared at Mikhail.
"It wasnt my fault, if you want to point fingers then point fingers at the bastard who wouldnt give me my brush." Asami chuckled.
"Yes, it was a bad choice on my behalf. After all we all know that Feilong goes PMS when he doesnt have perfect hair." I snarled at Asami.
"Last time I checked I am not a girl." Mikhail chuckled.
"Are you sure about that?" He asked.
"Yes Mikhail, I am sure. Because last time I checked I have a dick."
"Such crude wording." I let out a final huff of frustration before leaving the bathroom and slamming the door behind me. It was irritating having to live with dumb and dumber. I really wished I could just suffocate them both. Maybe if I suffocated Asami then my pain would go away. My hand went to the scar on my chest. My mind then flashed back to that night, to Asami. He had made me believe that he actually cared about me, that I actually mattered to him. I had trusted him. I had believed in him. He had told me that having someone to protect you out of a sense of duty was worth more than it seemed and I had believed that he was protecting me out of a sense of duty, but I had been wrong. All of his words had been nothing more than an intricate web, spun to ensnare me. He had convinced me to lower my gun so that I could be shot.
"Feilong?" I gasped as Akihito snapped me from my train of thought.
"Hey, what's wrong?" He asked and I sighed.
"Nothing Akihito." I stated, allowing my hand to fall to my side. I then walked towards my bedroom and stopped at the door, glancing back at Akihito.
"Sorry for waking you, Akihito." He sighed.
"Ahh whatever." He stated shrugging. "I probably wouldve woken up when you all left anyway." I nodded then walked into my room, closing the door behind me. I walked over to my mirror and looked at my reflection dissapointed by what I saw in the mirror.
Someone weak. Someone who had been manipulated by another. Someone who had placed their trust into another.
I sighed. It didnt matter anymore. I didnt intend to be so foolish ever again.
*THE NEXT DAY, THREE AM*
I sighed as I walked into the apartment. Asami and Mikhail were both home but Akihito wasnt. I could tell because the boy's shoes werent at the door. I discarded my coat on the rack then walked into the living room. Asami and Mikhail were sitting together talking about something that I really didnt care to know. I ignored them then went and poured myself a drink. I then headed towards my room.
"Where are you going Fei?" Asked Mikhail.
"Where do you think I am going Mikhail? To my room of course."
"Aww, so your going to drink without us?" Asked Asami with a smirk.
"Yes, because I would prefer to not drink with an arrogant Japanese bastard and a stupid drunk of a Russian." I stated walking into my room and slamming the door behind me.
*Mikhail Arbatov*
"Man, is it just me or is Fei being a total tight ass lately?" I asked and Asami sighed.
"It's not just you. Usually he at least tolerates us but for the last few days he has seemed to be at a breaking point."
"Then tell me, why do you continue to taunt him if you know he is at a breaking point?" I asked.
"Because, I cant help myself." Asami stood then walked towards Fei's room.
"What are you doing?" I asked.
"I am going to find out what's annoying him."
"Dont be too surprised when he says that it's us alright!?" I stated with a smirk.
*Ryuichi Asami*
I walked into Feilong's room and spotted him sitting in the leather chair against the wall slowly drinking the drink he had poured himself earlier. I walked over to him and he glanced up at me.
"What do you want Ryuichi?" He asked.
"I want to know what's wrong."
"What do you mean by that?" Feilong met my gaze and set his drink down. He then stood, never breaking away from my gaze.
"You have very obviously been upset lately and so I want to know why." Feilong narrowed his eyes at me.
"And what do my feelings matter to you. Wether I am upset or not does not matter, because you dont care. Why dont you just leave me alone, you heartless, traitorous bastard?" I then pushed Feilong against the wall and he gasped, then narrowed his eyes at me. "What do you think you are doing Asami?"
"I dont take kindly to your words Feilong."
"Do you think I care?" He asked arrogantly.
"No, but you should." I grabbed Feilong jaw then leaned forward and kissed him. He gasped then tried unsuccessfully to push me away. My tongue explored his mouth as he continued to try and push me away. After a minute he stopped trying to push me away and gave in, finally allowing his tongue to dance with mine. After another minute I pulled away and looked at Feilong's slightly pink face.
"What was that for?" He asked with an upset look on his face.
"So it has to do with me." He gasped. "The fact that you are upset is somehow tied to me."
"No it's not!" Feilong exclaimed angrily.
"Yes it is." I stated with a smirk, sliding my hands under Fei's shirt and teasing both of his nipples. "Were you thinking about my touch. Are you jealous of Akihito, Feilong?"
"Of course not. Now stop it." Fei stated with a frown.
"And why should I?" I pinched his nipples and he moaned, his back arching away from the wall. "You seem to be enjoying it." I discarded Feilong's shirt and tie then undid the button and zipper of his pants and slid one hand into his boxers.
"S-Stop it Asami." He stated, covering his blushing face with one hand. I ignored him then grabbed his hard member and pumped my hand up and down it. Small moans escaped Feilong's lips as I leaned forward and licked at his nipple. After about a minute of this Feilong came into my hand and sunk back against the wall his mouth hanging open as he brought in deep, gasping breaths.
*Feilong Liu*
I rested my head against Asami's shoulder as he picked me up and carried me over to my bed, discarding me gently on the silk comforter. My mind then flashed back to Yan.
"Have you sunk so low, you get off on him giving you a hand job?"
I attempted to push Asami away from me again. This was stupid and shameful. Asami ignored the fact that I was trying to push him away then discarded my boxers and pants.
"Asami, stop it." He met my gaze then sighed and grabbed my hips, pushing himself into me. I gasped then closed my eyes and gritted my teeth as he pushed himself fully into me. Asami then began to thrust into me and pump my member with his hand.
No.
He then leaned forward and sucked my nipple.
Why?
I gasped when I came shortly followed by Asami.
Why?
Asami then pulled out of me and stood, his back to me. Tears rolled down my cheeks.
Why had I placed my trust in him again? In those moments, I had tried to cling to him. I had tried to hold onto him. I had tried to convince myself that he did care. Stupid!
I looked up at Asami as he tucked me into my bed then kissed my forehead.
"Rest now, Feilong." I nodded.
How could I have been so foolish? I had once again put my trust into Asami. I had once again gotten my hopes up, and tricked myself into believing that he did love me.
I watched as Asami walked from the room and tears rolled down my cheeks. I hit my bed.
"Stupid!"
I was a fool. I was in love with the man that I hated, the man I knew I could never have.
