" Bella, he's gone, you have to let go of him. Don't let his leaving you hold you back from your entire life." That's what my friend Skie tells me every day.

Yeah, I know I should have listened to her. It's your best friend, they give you the best advice ever? So, I've heard,. But at times, it's difficult, you hear things you don't want to hear, and you just ignore it. Any person, would say that, anyone. And me, being like everyone else, have chosen to ignore it.

Skie, was a vampire. She was turned at the age of 18, right after her birthday. She'd gone out drinking with her friends, being the average teenager, she drank the living daylights out of herself. Apparently she had gotten raped, and was left to die. She can't remember who changed her and why they did so, but she thanks them, and she thanks god to. She's not exactly one to believe in the lord, and honestly neither am i, but when good things happen to those who deserve, you have nothing else to do, but to thank someone, that doesn't exist. I was changed into a vampire 10 years ago, you could say I was happy, but in a way, I'm not. Maybe I wanted to live out my human years, and become a vampire when I was 76. Crazed ass 76 year old lady on the loose. Sexy right? But then again, people say to live life to the fullest, what better to do that, than to be a vampire?

When I was 18, I was dating a Vampire. Usually when you first turn, you aren't able to remember memories from your past, but, this was Edward, who couldn't not remember him. We had been dating for 2 years, sure shihappened, but we weren't that willing to let him go. I loved him, and I was so sure that he had loved me too... So what the hell happened?

Last thing Edward said to me, was that he loved me. I was blinded by love, of course I believed him... True love never fades, and I stand strong in that, beceause of to this day.. 10 years later.. I'm still in love with that fucking asshole.

Flash Back:

10 years earlier

"Bella, Love, I promise you that I will be right back, but I need to go hunting. I don't want to end up loosing control, and then killing you. Just a couple hours, you wont even miss me." I looked deep into his eyes, I knew he wasn't lieing. When his go black, he needs to hunt. But it's just hard having to let go of your loved ones.

"I'll let you, only if you promise me, that you'll come back" Edward looked at me, with a small smile playing against his lips.
" I promise that I'll come back to you"
"Pinkie promise?" I still had to say that every time someone promised me something. Some things just never die.
"I pinkie promise" And as his pinkie crossed with mine, I had no idea that it would be the last time I saw him, or any of his family members for that face.

Then..He was gone in a flash.

3 months after Edward had left.

I was throwing stuff around in my room, knocking things off my dresser, emptying everything in my closet and drawers, saying over and over again " HE LIED TO ME!, HE PROMISED ME HE WOULD COME BACK AND HE NEVER DID, HE LIED TO ME !"

I fell to my knees, and started crying my eyes out

5 months after he has left

Victoria's voice was now whispering in my ear, " Sweet Bella of mine, you knew he wouldn't come back for you, and yet you always kept your hopes up."

Victoria had seen me in my room crying and dragged me to the meadow Edward used to take me to. It was our meadow, but with Edward gone, it had became useless. She was looking at me with this huge grin on her face, bearing her white teeth.

I knew this was the end of my human life, but since Edward left I didn't care anymore. I didn't care about anything. The one I cared for most left me. I felt as f I was one of those dead bodies being carried up from the cargo. You know, in like the 1800's. If you died while on ship in the cargo space, they'd tie you to a rope, and haul your ass up, then throw you over board. That's what I fucking felt like. As if I were being carried by a rope, and then being dumped over seas.

Victoria sank her teeth into me, the pain was un-bearable. And then all was lost.

I felt myself being lifted in to two cold arms. The cold wind was swishing through my hair, I attempted to open my eyes, but I didn't have the strength to do so.

"Ed...ward...?" I said weakly .

"No, my name is Skie" I heard a girls sweet voice say. "Don't worry, I wont let anything happen to you, no one deserves this."

End of flashback.

" Bella...BELLA!" I felt Skie shaking me. "Did you hear anything I just said?"

" Uh, no sorry Skie... I was just thinking about that night that he left."

Me and Skie were both 18, of course Skie was beautiful. Tall, lean, her eyes were gold, but had specks of blue in them. She also had long blond hair, with black streaks in it, a perfect nose, and a perfect figure meant for the run way. She reminded me of Rosalie... Damn I miss that sour chick. Sometimes I wonder is Skie was always this beautiful.

Me? Well I wasn't anything perfect. I had long brown hair with highlights in it, gold eyes, more curves then before. Facial features were more defined, though if I were to compare myself to Skie, I'd look exactly like the old Bella.

" Skie what am I going to do, he promised me that he will come back and he never did. What if something happened to him?? What would I do, I can't carry on like this anymore." I started to cry. As far as crying could go... Dry sobbing. Yep, dry sobbing. It's not exactly fun, you keep expecting to fell water running down your face... except, its like you're coughing and hiccuping at the same time.

" Bella, I know that it's really hard, but you have to believe that somewhere out there Edward is there, and he is probably thinking about you. He cared and loved you allot didn't he? And if he did, you just have to keep your hopes up."

Yeah.. Keep my hopes up. They've been up for the past 10 years and never have they fallen down.. Sweetbabyjesus, it's not that easy anymore.

Though along the line, Skie always knew what to say and always had some way of cheering up someone, that's why I loved her so much. We started to hang out a lot after she found me and we soon became best friends..