Suite Life on Deck
Will Everything Be Fine
I DO NOT OWN SLOD OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS
A/N So, there are a lot of changes I wanted to make to this story and I know a lot of you have been asking for an update and I'm sorry for that. I just didn't like how it turned out and I feel by starting over I can make it better than what I originally had.(:
Bailey entered the classroom and attempted at keeping her mind distracted. She was trying to find anything, anything at all, to get her mind off how horrible her life was becoming. She held her posterboard tight in her hands as her hand became sweaty with worry and all her emotions slamming into one. She hoped to god that she wouldn't break down when she got in the class. She could feel the tears getting ready to fall from her eyes. She was usually the strong girl that could take on any situation that would come her way, but now, she was someone else completely. It was like some magic trick occurred that made her personality disappear all together. The feeling of pain traveled through her body as she chocked back her tears. She couldn't believe how her life ended out.
She quickly wiped the few tears that she wasn't able to hold back as they fell down her cheek. She then took a deep breath trying to release her anxiety, but it was worthless. She saw her ex-boyfriend sitting in the front row next to the teachers desk. They only would have a conversation with each other now if they had to. Mostly it turned into insults and constant yelling. They both didn't mean anything they said, it was just a mechanism. She could bury her inner feelings, the desire she had for him. The crave she had. She couldn't keep it away though. When each day approached he was the one that held her heart so tightly. She knew the love they once shared was gone now...along with there friendship. But for some reason, that didn't change her feelings. She had so much to give, but no one to deliver it to. She had everything in her life planned out, that everything would end out perfectly and be fine, but that's not the case anymore. That was a life she wanted to live, but would never get to. Sometimes, life sucks...you have everything you ever wanted and then it all tumbles and falls right before your eyes...you can't save it. After one thing happens, another follows. A continuous pattern.
She sits a few rows behind the one she loves that doesn't love her back and she couldn't think straight. Being close to him just made the hurt she felt inside intensified. There was no cure for it. As each second pass she felt more and more weaker. The memory of him breaking her heart would always come into her mind somehow...sneaking it's way through...pulling at her...That last fight...to painful to bear, but she stilled adored him. Loved him, but she knew she had to deny herself of focusing on that.
Things were changing too fast for her...Her parents were getting a divorce...that was something she never seen coming. She felt like their love was the purest of all and could never be broken. She learned that it didn't take too long for even love to go sour. Turn bitter. She was damaged, splintered. She couldn't distract herself as her eyes got more watery...She put her head down on the deck and closed them tightly trying to prevent them from spewing like Niagra. She knew it was pointless, but she needed to give it a shot. She then heard the speakers through the intercom to stand up for the pledge. She opened her eyes and couldn't find the words. Her hand was only covered over her broken heart. She felt like no one cared for her.
She then heard Tutweiler say she was the first to present. Great. She tried harder to hold it in. Bailey's attempts were useless and Tutweiler noticed. She walks over as Bailey's heart starts to sink even more. School wasn't a place for personal problems...she just couldn't get a hold down on her emotions. No one notices Bailey though because they are busy chatting away. She remembered how before class Cody and her would always joke, talk about current events, and sometimes Cody would sneak a kiss in...Her lips then got this strange sensation...
"Is everything okay, Bailey?" The red headed teacher said looking over at her.
Is Everything okay? No. That was one of the most ridiculous questions Bailey had heard all day. She was not okay. She thought she would never would be again. A part of Bailey wanted to tell someone and the other part doesn't. She felt mixed. All of these feelings were brewing inside of her and eventually bursting through her skin. No one cares...no one genuinely cares. She looked forward trying to avoid eye contact and nodded.
"Yes..." Bailey said. Tutweiler nods in understanding and walks away, but she could feel Tutweilers eyes placed on her. She couldn't erase the though about her family and what it's all becoming. She thought her family was inseparable, had a strong bond...She couldn't keep her tears in any longer and they started spilling... she wanted to hide away in the corner and be unnoticed.
"Bailey, are you going to be alright?" She shook her head for a "no." Tutweiler waved her over to her desk. Bailey gets out of her seat grudgingly. Her eyes were red and puffy and every time she tried to wipe the tears away, it would hurt. "Do you want to go down to the guidance room?" Bailey wanted to, but she thought of her presentation. She couldn't miss it and hand it in a day late. That was so unlike her to do.
"No...I need to present. Like all the other classmates." Tutweiler would not allow this. She knew Bailey and Bailey was not being herself. She knew letting her do this would end up with questions from the other classmates.
"Right now, you do not need to present. You can go to the counselor if you want. You can present to me in private or to the whole class another day, it's fine, Bailey. If you need to go, you need to go." Tutweiler looked Bailey in the eye's and sighed.
Bailey looked behind her and she saw Cody with a smile on his face talking to Zack. London was sending kisses to her mirror and Woody was nervously talking to Addison. Bailey was unnoticed. Should of expected that. She was now the unwanted part to everyone's puzzle. The piece that would never fit in with the rest. They were all happy without her. She looked back at Tutweiler and said "yes" in a shaky voice. All she prayed for was to be able to make it through a session with Mr. Blanket... She walked through the empty halls and willingly let all her tears out. No one was around to see and that comforted her. She just wanted her life back, was that too much to ask? She wanted the family she had once upon a time.
Bailey blamed herself for her parents discontinuing their relationship. If she didn't leave Kettlecorn or would of gone back with Moose, it all could of changed something...She wouldn't of got her heart broken by someone who she thought loved her and she could keep her family strong. She could of helped the situation they were in. She just loved her life on the SS Tipton, she has amazing academic classes, friends, boy-Had a boyfriend. She thought with all her heart Cody and her were going to be connected at the hip for a long time. She wishes she could take that day back, but it was the least of her worries now. He had moved on, she needs to. Cody was better off without her anyways. All she would do was hold him back. She was all those things Cody thought of her. She was impulsive, irresponsible, and reckless. She was every bad name in the book. Everyone wanted her to fail, and she did. No, everyone still wants her to fail. They will see it. Everyone wants her to feel that hurt and pain. They will. She couldn't make it go away. She was destroyed...ruined...She wanted to change it all, but life doesn't give second chances. At least not to her.
She wanted to change everything...She wanted to reverse time...make sure she wouldn't of gone to the school...she wasn't going to end up with Cody anyways. She loved him, she would always will, but love takes two. They were never meant to be together. They were all wrong for each other. She wanted it, but she couldn't have it. She needed her family together now...How could she be so brainless to consider herself to be in love with Cody? They were in high school! Love was useless...meaningless...pointless...She wanted her life to run like it used to. Wanted it all to be healed. She didn't want Cody to hate her, she wanted them to get along, she wanted her family to be one again and not two separate broken halves. Her life was swirling out of control. She kept wiping her tears more and more the more she thought about it.
It was difficult to witness your family being ripped out of your heart and nothing you could do to prevent it. She didn't comprehend why this was happening. All she knew was the words that she was told and that was that they didn't love each other anymore. She doubted they thought once about the feelings she would have over this matter. When she first answered that phone and heard those words...those cursed words...she thought she heard them wrong. Somehow made a mistake. She asked again, and those words she heard were correct. It was over between them. She couldn't hold her phone. It dropped right on the floor. Confusion was the first thing that took over her. She still was. She didn't know what she was supposed to do, what she was supposed to say. How was she ever going to be able to get herself past this? She couldn't. Her heart was slowly leaving her. The strings she once held so firmly to her life together, loosened into nothingness. It was like someone stabbed her in the heart and repeatedly did it. Twisting it occasionally. There was no way she was ever going to get through this all. It was going to be challenging, she was usually up for challenges, but not this one. She didn't know what she was going to do... where is her life going to lead her after this?
