Author Note: Muhahahaha... MWAHAHAHAHAH! FINALLY! :'D I had finally published my first Psycho-Pass series fan-fic! I felt so proud of myself! XD Still, the prologue might not be much, but I promise you that the next chapter will be better! So please~ give it a try~? *puppy eyes*
P.S: This story has not been beta-read! :'( But I TRIED my best in it! So if there are any heavy and serious grammatical errors, please tell me! Reviews and critiques are welcomed!
My Pride, it's YOU
A Psycho-Pass fan-fic
By
KawaiiNekoNami
Prologue- Started with an Accident
A beautiful woman with short brown locks was counting her fingers as she wondered how most of her female friends could always find some men to settle down while she could not even find one.
Well, it's not that no one had never wooed over her. In fact, a lot did. However, things never worked out fine for her. Hell, even one of those men from her previous relationship had even ended up marrying her friend, which she found somehow ironic given all the circumstances.
Once again, she went back counting her fingers. How many times has she become a bridesmaid in a wedding anyway? Ever since she was a teen, she had always been one already, starting when one of her aunt gets married. That was her first time walking down the aisle as a bridesmaid and that was where she dreamed she'd get married someday as well. Sadly, it never happened 'till now and Akane resigned herself thinking perhaps she just wasn't meant to be in a relationship.
The brunette sighed. Perhaps the last time she has ever been in a relationship was when she was still sixteen. And that was already like years ago. Akane even had concluded that perhaps the gods had come to hate her for something she might have done wrong to them before.
She turned her attention back to the computer screen in front of her and placed one of her hands under her chin.
"Marriage… huh?"
Shaking her head, she wondered who she could ask advices from. The possibilities were few. Ever since the death of Yuki, the only true friend she had was Kaori. But sadly, her best friend was busy with her love life and she seriously doesn't think it would be a nice idea to ask her now. The other of her friends had always been downright out of the question and so were her superiors.
But then, maybe she could ask advices from Ginoza-san.
She grumbled. Some things would never change, especially her dependence on other peoples. Instead of finding answers on her own, she had yet again craved for someone else's counsel. Letting out a deep sigh, she slumped a bit in her chair.
"What's happening to you today?" A rough voice asked and she could feel a certain person's presence behind her. She turned around and she was completely taken aback when she came to meet face-to-face with Kougami Shinya who stared at her with a plain bored expression.
"Well, it's really nothing, Kougami-san…" she left the sentence hanging in the midair because she didn't even know how to finish up and she suspected that he wouldn't be interested either way.
"Why… are you doing here anyway, Kougami-san? Shouldn't you be on the cafeteria with the other Enforcers…?" she asked slowly as she tried to change the topic of their conversation.
A stack of papers gently hit her head and she blinked her eyes as Kougami stared at her in bored.
"Gino asked me to bring you these forms from the last mission we had accomplished."
She took the stack of papers and looked at the raven haired man in front of him before forcing a smile on her face. "Thanks…"
Kougami just shrugged his shoulder and yawned before snatching a silver pen from Akane's desk. He plopped down on the chair next to Akane and starting to work on the papers as the brunette continued to stare at him before heading towards the coffee machine at the edge of the room. There was a slight noise when she placed the two cups on the table and the elder man looked up at her as she sat down next to him.
"You know, you can just leave all these to me and went back to your quarter to rest. I'm perfectly capable on finishing these papers by my own."
The Enforcer let out a scoff.
"And yet Gino threatened me to help you because the others weren't available today. He said something like he couldn't trust you on doing it perfectly without causing a mess."
Grasping on one of the cups, he took a small sip of the bitter beverage.
"Let's finish this up quickly so I can leave and do my own works."
She bowed shortly to thank him before reaching out for a piece of paper. The texture of the paper was smooth against her fingertips as she placed the document on the surface of her working desk. It was a list of citizens who happened to die during the latest mission.
Akane glanced briefly at the ex-Inspector's emotionless expression. He was obviously concentrated on finishing the paperwork and most likely seemed not to care about her. She lowered her head and stared at the list before a name caught her attention.
Shuusei Kagari.
She shook her head as a picture of the bloody corpse of Kagari flashed before her eyes. Tentatively touching her throbbing forehead, Akane closed her eyes and bite her lips.
She could feel tears were threatening to fall from her eyes as she remembered the horrible death of Kagari. No one wanted to believe that the usual happy-go-lucky Enforcer will die… just like that.
Kougami stopped his work when he saw the pained expression on the Inspector's face. He glanced down at the paper in her hand and a frown tugged on his emotionless face when he realized what was troubling her.
"It's not your fault he dies. You should stop blaming yourself over it." He said. Although his tone was cold and emotionless but it was able to make Akane felt slightly calmed down.
"S-Still… I felt useless… You guys… were always there protecting me b-but… I never did anything back for you all. It was as if… I'm a burden to all of you." she muttered sarcastically and lowered her head, facing the cement floor and let her hot tears dripped on her skirt.
Kougami stayed silent and watched as her smaller figure trembled slightly and soft hiccups can be heard through her sobs. He wanted to comfort her, he seriously wanted to.
But how…?
He was never good in comforting peoples, he never knew how and what he should do to make a person felt better. Yet, deep inside his heart, he wished that he could make her stop those tears that he hated to see running down from her eyes.
"Do you…" he opened his mouth and said slowly, wrecking his mind to find a way that would able cheer her up.
"… Do you want to have a drink with me after finishing these paper works?"
Opening the food cupboard, Kougami detected an opened bottle of sake and a staggeringly expensive bottle of red wine. And despite the fact that Kougami knew that Akane had a high tolerance on alcohol, he couldn't help but grab another bottle of Whisky and pour some of the liquid into a glass before placing it in front of the younger brunette who downed the offensive drink in one swig.
The whiskey barely tasted anything and it felt more digestible than the usual beer that Akane drank in her apartment. There was a sudden change of temperature and everything seemed to be strangely warm for the brunette girl. She leaned back against the chair and stared at the lamp on top of her.
The lamp suddenly seemed to be much larger and brighter and she had the feelings of having spots dancing in her vision. She sank against the desk and started to giggle in a maniac and involuntary way.
The raven haired Enforcer who had finished his tenth glasses of whisky pinched the brick of his nose because he was feeling the floor underneath his feet was wobbling. Or was it not the floor but his legs? Anyhow, it still made him feel mocked to have such low tolerance over alcoholic beverages.
"Say, are you feeling better now?" he managed to mutter out in his drunken state as he waved his glass, as if calling over a waiter.
Akane gave him a nod and smiled, but her face drifted and her head lowered down, trying to hide her sad eyes.
"Inspector?" Kougami turned his attention back to the brunette girl as he watched her giving him a bitter smile. He gave out a sigh and rubbed his temple. "Look, Inspector. I'm never good in comforting peoples. I'm an Enforcer, you know? Did you know that most of the Enforcers won't have been so close to the Inspectors and some of them will even try to rape them? I think I'm actually more tamed than that."
"It's… not about that." She said in distraction. She tried to turn away, not wanting to ruin the wonderful night together with her silly guilt and thoughts, but Kougami grabbed her hands securely, letting her silently know that he was not going to give up so easily.
"… It's just that… I'm scared… that I… I might lose you one day just like how I had lose Yuki. I can't… I won't know what to do if you're gone as well."
Kougami smirked at her. "Do you care for me that much?" he asked as he leaned forward towards her. However, his eyes widened as she nodded her head slightly at his question.
"You didn't possibly mean it, did you?"
She just shook her head before looking straight into his crystal navy blue eyes, sincerity written were shown in her honey dark brown orbs. Kougami gave out a sigh and ran his hand through his short spiky raven hair.
"You're drunk-" he wasn't able to finish up his words as a pair of soft lips gently touched with his.
Her lips tasted bitter, like the alcohol she had drank. He blinked for a millisecond to regain his senses before pushing her away, rather roughly but he tried not to hurt her. The brunette girl tilted her head a bit as she looked at him in question.
"This… it's illegal." He muttered, avoiding her gaze. A soft frown tugged on Akane's face as she carefully brushed the bangs out of his face before leaning forward and kiss the tip of his nose.
"I know." She whispered. "But… it's not a crime… to want something as comforts, right?"
He stayed silent, before he leaned forward.
Cold shivers suddenly ran through Akane's body when the Enforcer absently started to skim his fingers over her cheek. The alcohol in her system was making her dizzy and she staggered backwards.
This time, it was him who initiated the kiss and it was by far not innocent like hers but she could feel that he was trying to be gentle on her. Head spinning, hands clenching at the fabric of his jacket tightly as she felt her eyelids grew heavy and finally, she closed her eyes, willingly opening her mouth to allow his tongue access.
The rest was nothing but a blur. Her brain stopped functioning as her vision turned dark.
The next morning, reality came back along with a horrible headache. The stinging pain between her thighs was hardly imperceptible compared to the sick feeling in her stomach. Akane found herself lying in an unfamiliar room, with a navy blue blanket covered her naked frame.
A pair of insecure eyes opened wide.
Naked? She turned around and found herself pressing against a certain person's chest. The Inspector was often being perceived as innocent, naïve and dense but she was fairly sure that this scenario had only one conclusion.
She had sex. With the Enforcer; Kougami Shinya on top of all.
The former Inspector yawned and cracked his eyes opened slowly. Blushing spectacularly, Akane rose into a sitting position and covered herself with the blanket. Yawning, Kougami followed her example and stood up, apparently not caring to cover his naked self. The brunette girl looked away as the older man started to dress himself up.
"Let's just forget about whatever we had done."
She stared at him, shock and surprised.
"… Why…?" she asked him as she avoid looking at him, afraid that he might see the broken look on her face.
He didn't reply her as he walked out from the room and closed the door, leaving the brunette girl alone.
She fluttered her eyes closed and rubbed her throbbing temple while biting her lips, trying hard not to let those hot tears to run down from her eyes. She turned around to face the empty place beside and she could feel a lump was trying to come out from her throat.
He had left, just like that. Without giving her a single glance.
'Let's just forget about whatever we had done.'
That's the last word he had said to her and it hurt her a lot.
She gave out a bitter laugh, trying to get the broken feeling away. However, her laughter didn't even subside as big, crystal tears slowly rolled down her flushed cheeks.
To be continued.
Ending Note : I'm already feeling like a pervert while writing this prologue... *hot steam came out from my head* Haha... ^^" But can you blame me? I'm only 15. =,=" If anyone of you wanted to read the sexuality scene... How 'bout asks another author to write it...? I had never written any smut scene before so don't put your hopes on me~ :D Haha~
