Footsteps brought you down a dirty hallway sometime after dusk these same footsteps used to echo in the hallway of your home when returning from work I waited for you in the living room wearing a smile on my face and a smile on my heart as I waited for you Hello, I missed you

Now I am at my office at work, hidden behind towering stacks of paperwork files to be made, signatures to be signed and a burden that I can't take off my chest as I am waiting for the clock to strike ten so I can finally go home lay down and rest, have no time left so I can't think about you In my dreams, I miss you

I came to visit you again yesterday, I didn't want to but I did, I had to Sometimes I wonder why I do this, why do I seek to be in pain again.
I don't understand you, I want to... but I don't you don't try to explain either, however, you won't talk to me, after all you never did I didn't tell you I missed you

I came to see you, I don't know what I was maybe hoping for and still I was wearing a smile on my face even though my heart was clenched in agonizing pain and the question why, hanging ominously over my head, critisizing my ways,
why did you, why did I, why did we all? There was nothing gained, only lost And I couldn't tell you I miss you

Footsteps brought me down a dusty hallway sometime after dusk It's been four years since I've been here but my footsteps still echo the same like back then when I used to come by early to wait for you, greet you when you came home wearing a smile on my face and a smile on my heart as I counted the minutes backwards to your arrival Because, everytime, I missed you

Now I sit inside the empty living room, on the couch I used to sit and look around It feels so strange to be here when it shouldn't. I can feel tears rising to my eyes and I can't wear a smile anymore on my face or my heart as I curl in a ball like I used to do back then when I was a child and your comforting voice was the only thing that could chase the nightmare away I miss that voice, miss you

Back then I would dream that I woke up and you were gone and I'd cry in my sleep a couple of words from you were enough to make me stop shaking, nod my head and smile again Smile as I would curl by your side and get lulled to sleep by the sound of your voice even though I never wanted to sleep and I fought to stay awake because in my dreams, I missed you

But now the nightmare is real and you're nowhere near to tell me it's going to be okay your voice won't comfort me anymore, can't comfort me anymore, as I lay weeping,
wondering why had this happened and why it had to end and I can't understand how could we part like this? Why did you never concider the consequences when you always had?
and I missed you, miss you

And now here, as I lay, my only company the clock that used to tick away the time I waited for you I am regretting every choice I made, we made, and I'm blaming myself for never forgiving you Blaming myself for that day when I came to visit you, that my parting words had to be of venom and hatred Blaming myself for being such a coward and so damn weak to have come all this way.
and still to have never told you I missed you