Seth tapped lightly at the door of the hotel room waiting for her to answer. He didn't like the meeting location but he took any chance he got to spend time with her. The door swung open and she pulled him inside, he didn't get two seconds to take her in before she slammed the door behind him giving no one a chance to glance inside.
Nikki Bella had cheated, despite being married to John Cena. There was a lot about their marriage that was secret, but Seth knew it all. There was a lot more to Nikki Bella then met the eye. Despite being undeniably beautiful, Nikki Bella was in a loveless, broken marriage. She relied on Seth to pull her out of her misery, she had found comfort in his company. Although rare, her time spent with Seth had become some of the best moments in her life. Seth couldn't help but see Nikki for who she really was, not who John Cena wanted her to be. Seth understood what cheating with Nikki meant, but he couldn't help himself. Despite only sharing a kiss with her, his mind raced with thoughts of finally being able to take her
"You must really not want people to see me Nicole" Seth's words stung Nikki, he looked at her with side eyes but wrapped his arms around her waist and closing the space between them pressing a kiss to the top of her head. Gazing at her, he paused to give her a chance to speak.
"You know it's not like that Seth" Her voice trailed off as she looked away from him. He swore he heard a sniffle come from her as she laced her fingers with his, he noticed that her oversized diamond ring was missing, her slender finger looked beautiful and she buried her head in his chest. he took in the smell of her shampoo and let out a breath feeling calmer as he finally held her in his arms. His mind was racing, it had been several days since they had kissed and he was dying to ask her if she regretted it.
"So you kissed me…" Seth awkwardly spoke, his voice barely above a whisper trying to break through the uncomfortable tension between them. Nikki Bella finally gave in to all temptations and let Seth Rollins kiss her.
"I did" Nicole let out a breath, pulling Seth towards the bed pushing him down so he would sit. She paced back and forth in front of him "But there is a lot I don't remember"
"I remember Nicole"
*Flashback*
Nicole had found herself in the back corner of a bar with the bottle of tequila she flirted off the bartender.
"You sure as hell cannot be here"
"And why the fuck not?" Nicole smirked at him, motioning to the seat next to her giving him permission to sit down. She was in jeans and a snapback, a casual look for her, she rolled her eyes at him.
"You're giving none of these girls a fair chance, you're the most beautiful woman in here. These girls don't stand a chance against a beauty like you" his hand glided along her thigh
"Can't you leave me and my tequila and call it a night Seth, you can't be seen with me"
"Why not"
"Because I want to kiss you and I'm too drunk to have morals right now"
"Fuck your morals"
"Easy for you to say Seth, you have nothing to lose" She sighed, throwing the liquid down her throat
"Come with me" Seth pulled Nicole out of the booth and towards the small hallway near the bathroom.
"Seth, don't do this, I'm not going to be able to say no to you."
"Don't say no Nicole, don't worry about what everyone will think just kiss me like you want too"
Nicole pressed her body into his, kissing him hard, it was everything she expected it to be. Kissing Seth was the one thing she wanted and couldn't have, yet here she stood in the small hallway of some rundown bar in the middle of nowhere kissing the man she needed.
They both broke away after hearing an older woman stumble down the hall and barrel into the woman's bathroom. Nicole looked at Seth, pulling him by his shirt into the men's bathroom, grateful it was a single stall with a lock on the door.
She locked the door behind them, staring at him, letting the lust fill her up. She jumped up to wrap her legs around his waist, backing him up against the bathroom wall
"Where were we?" She whispered seductively pressing her lips towards his.
*End of Flashback*
"Nicole, you don't regret it do you" Seth spoke, snapping her out of her daydream.
"Of course I don't Seth. I would never" Nikki said sitting next to Seth, leaving no space between them. She caressed her face, her soft skin rubbing against his beard. Seth and Nikki had been talking for months, at least whenever they got a chance. Depending on whom you asked, John Cena was the poster child of wwe, love and adored by everyone he met, in other words, a complete saint. Seth knew the kind of man John Cena really was. He knew all about how John married Nikki but cheated on her any chance he got. It seemed simple for Nicole to leave John and his cheating tendencies, but part of her hated the idea of being divorced again. Especially when she thought she had finally gotten it right. Nicole had fought so hard to get John to see all the benefits of marriage. Before he said I do he was a good man, never perfect, but Nicole couldn't complain. She was blessed with his love and attention, that was until they said I do. Once they were married, John Cena changed, He acted like a saint in front of all their friends and family but no one knew the real sinner he had become. Nicole learned that John was very good at talking, convincing everyone that they were perfectly happily. Nicole was growing tired of listening to his countless excuses.
"I want you so fucking bad it hurts Nicole, I don't want to be like this, I don't want to hide in some dirty hotel room and just hope you can sneak away from John. I don't want to only text you between certain hours and pretend that we don't care about each other" Seth's hand ran up and down her leg, silently brushing his fingertips against her bare skin.
"You know I haven't kissed a man who wasn't John in almost five years. I haven't been able to stop thinking about you and it kills me because I'm not supposed to cheat on him Seth. I'm not supposed to throw away everything I promised to him because I fought for so long for him to marry me. I broke through all these walls to get John to see that marrying me was the best choice"
"It shouldn't be like that Nicole," Seth interrupted "I would marry you today if you let me, you wouldn't have to fight for it and I sure as hell wouldn't cheat on you with some rat I found in whatever city we were in that day. Why would you want to marry someone who wanted to change you so much? "
Seth's hand had come to rest on her cheeks, gripping her face in his hands, his eyes burning holes into hers; it was enough to make her head spin, from arousal and despair. A deadly combination of wanting things but knowing the pain it would cause. The world was not as black and white as Seth made it out to be.
"The way I see it Nikki, there are those who cheat and there are those who get cheated on." Seth dropped his hands as if they were on fire from touching her skin. He watched her take a deep breath as he let go of her. He stood up, moving towards the window of the room, ignoring the fact she didn't answer his previous question.
Cheating, the idea had crossed Nikki's mind several times, each time she donned a new disguise to try and catch John in the act she had thought about being the one to sneak around. In her time spent with Seth, she had grown closer and closer but each time her brain froze. Cheating on John seemed incredibly selfish, she couldn't understand why it seemed so hard for her, and John certainly had no trouble with the concept. Fuck her conscience, her guilt, and her worries and fuck the man that made her question it all. Seth, the complete opposite to Nikki and yet the perfect companion for her.
There were always two sides to every story; there were the people who saw cheaters as heartless instead of distressed and the people who help them cheat as home wreckers instead of emotional repairers. They would never understand why Nicole was unhappy and why Seth would sacrifice everything to be with her. If Nicole ever got divorced it would be clear who would be blamed. John was very good at pretending to be perfect, little did they forget, his cheating was why he got divorced the first time.
"We have three option Seth…we could do nothing and pretend this never happened, we could fool around and be open about it, or we could fool around and keep it a secret" Nicole spoke.
"I want to do this Nicole, but you know we shouldn't" Seth spoke continuing to look out the window, refusing to make eye contact with her.
"You can look at me when you talk Seth" He could feel her behind him, her small body pressed up against his back.
"No I can't Nicole, I can't fucking look at you because if I look into your eyes I'm going to want to kiss you" She turned him around, wrapping her arms around his neck and kissing him. Instinctively, he kissed her back, pulling her bottom lip with his teeth, a soft and sexy moan that escaped her lips broke him out of his trance. He broke the kiss and walked past her.
"You do know this would be so bad Nicole, you have so much bullshit going on and who am I to add another layer of bullshit on top of you. Say we do get involved, and someone finds out, you're never going to have a moment to yourself. They are constantly going to be hounding you with questions; How does it feel to break John Cena's heart, why would you leave him? Nicole, you would be tortured, I could never do that to you. " Seth plopped back onto the bed, trying to make space between them, tempted to make love to her right here, he noticed her sigh sensing his desperation to create space between them.
"I want you, I want you more than I've wanted any girl in my entire life but I need to resist you" Nikki walked towards him placing her hands on either side of him, leaning forward to give Seth a glimpse of her cleavage. She moved her face close to Seth's, Seth felt her breath on his neck, her lips lingering across his neck and he could feel himself growing hard as his leg shook. Seth was frustrated, being so close to the woman he was falling in love with and not being able to touch; she killed him. He wanted nothing more but to spend all night showing her how beautiful she was and how loved she could be.
"I want you too Seth, more then you realize" Nicole trailed kisses down his neck
"Stop" Seth realized his tone came out harsh and cold as Nicole stepped away from the bed.
"I just want to kiss you Seth"
"You're killing me, you can't look at me in that little dress, with that pout Nicole, kissing my neck and expecting me to not do anything…you hardly play fair"
"Seth, I'm tired of doing what I'm supposed to do, why can't I do what makes me happy. So I'm married to a completely absentee husband who is more concerned with his next ring rat than his wife. There is this line in the sand that i can't cross because you know what's going to happen. I'm going to be seen as the whore, people see how i dress, how i act. Everyone is going to say oh that's Nikki Bella, the whore that broke John Cena's heart. Why can't I be with a man like you instead? A man who wants me for me, someone who is different, special…"
"Nicole, you're not a whore. You're a beautiful woman. Look at you, why would he ever hurt you? But Nicole, why do you even want me? I'm sure as hell not John Cena, I'm never going to be the poster boy, he's like fucking jacked and I work out so much fucking harder than him and he's still bigger than me. I'm just a regular guy who got his chance at his dream, I'm nothing special Nicole. You have to know that, I'm me, and if you're mine im going to make sure you know just how loved you are each and every day. I will never pull this bullshit like Cena is. But are you sure that I'm the kind of guy you want?"
"Seth don't say that, don't do that, don't act like you're not worth all the love in the world. I'm attracted to you for so many reasons. I'm attracted to all the things that make you so different from John, you should never compare yourself to him. You're anything but regular Seth you're sitting here with me, getting involved with all my shit when you should just run away. I'm John Cena's wife, and I'm cheating on him with a man who actually looks at me like I'm worth something. Look at you, like holy shit you're so fucking sexy. You walk around in those leather pants and I can always see the outline of your dick and I just want to mount it. you can't fucking wear that shit around me anymore."
"Would you rather I wrestle in my trunks again? I'm sure they will give you the image you're looking for" Seth flirted "Or I could always just wear nothing, I'm sure that will get me a cena-sized reaction" He smirked watching her as she rolled her eyes.
"You might actually kill me Seth. You're too much. It's one of the many things I like about you" She smiled at him. After a moment of silence he rose from the bed.
"Well as fun as this is, i really should get going, Dean and Roman are probably worried about where i went, you know i'm never late for crossfit" He rambled on, finding reasons to not look her in the eye.
Nicole reached out to grab his hand, "Seth, you should know something…"
"What is that?" He tangled his hands in her hair, cradling her head.
"There is a line and we're teetering on the edge, it may not happen today, or tomorrow, but one of these days i will be brave enough and eventually we're going to dive in. When that day comes Seth, i'm never looking back. I don't care if that makes me a sinner, it's time for me to be good to 's time for me to be Nikki Bella and Not Nikki Cena" She ran her thumb back and forth on his finger as she spoke, watching her own fingers as if they moved without her knowledge.
"You're right Nicole, but today is not going to be that day" Opening the door and closing it quickly behind him leaving Nicole alone with her thoughts.
