A story for a lost friend who thought me all about gender and hiding, for Jenny wherever you may be.
Rumors
Prolog; second hand news
Martin Isles. dr M Isles. sometimes Maura still saw him winking at her from her mirror in the morning. from the depths of her own eyes. Then makeup blurred the few sharp edges that remained, She spent time erasing him every morning, she spent years before that. Now dr Martin was dr Maura. She dressed to hide some things to show others all to be so feminine that no one that would see her would question or suspect. Martin was a small geeky boy who found very early that he would like to be Maura. He was too girly, too shy and just too weird for his peers. He was teased so he retreated into science, books and finding that all the worlds knowledge lay at the tip of a finger, clicking reading finding others. Finding the word transsexual. He found that he was a she. and a scientist. all things pointed to that fact but he kept Maura inside like a secret soul. He studied, hid and grew up, medical school found Martin turning into Maura giving her access to hormones and more knowledge. She was small that helped and had no friends so no one questioned anything, her parents were informed and got even more reluctant to spend any time together with her. Between school and her residence time Martin disappeared and Dr Maura remained. She moved and found life in far of places and when she was offered the CME job she went home. She found she was happy. No one knew about Martin and she even had a friend in detective Jane Rizzoli. For the first time she felt through and through like Maura. Yes she was happy. So happy she feared it would all end at any time. Putting the last touch on her makeup she left for BPD.
She turned heads as she walked in, as always comments where whispered some called her hot others queen of the dead. none of that really registered with Maura cause She was there. Strong hard and all woman without even trying and her friend. Maura loved her. lately she realized in every way. Love, it was an alien concept to her science could explain lust, sexuality, needs but not love. it was never an option she couldn't relate to the men she let fuck her but they made her feel real, like a woman. She always thought it was her own transformation her past that made relating to men so difficult. Then she met Jane. Jane. thinking her name and watching her in the queue made Maura smile. Lately more than happy if she was honest with herself. Now she was swaggering towards Maura with a playful look in her eyes as they swept over Maura's outfit. "hey M how can you look so good at dawn every day?" The small flirty comment made her heart soar. Come lunchtime the tall detective brought lunch and they talked of everything. and men. Men like Casey and Dean. She hated them with passion. But Jane was here with her and tonight they would hang out at the robber with the team. Her team, or their team, she was a part of the team accepted as a friend and a woman. Tomorrow they might see a movie and eat Chinese. Life was more filled with joy and friends than Martin could ever have hoped for.
Her office door proudly proclaimed dr Maura Isles chief medical examiner, she opened it put her coffee on the table and noticed a small note partly hidden under her computer. What in the world..? she opened the note and her heart froze as she read;
"I know your secret doc, now who should I tell?"
