Chapter 1: Introduction / Falling in love

Note: Adam's POV // Italics – present; Normal - past

Waking up pretty early, I'm still not used on sleeping alone, without him, even it's already a year. It's hard to move on, you know? But I have no choice but to do so, because it will only hurt me badly—no, it's already hurting me, worse than what I thought.

This bed still smells like him, like even I just close my eyes, I feel he's with me—I smell he's still with me. Even he went away a year ago, those memories I spent with him in this room are still fresh to me... I remember the first time we do something here…

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It's been 2 days since we started sharing room in this mansion. We have no choice though but to share room; Matt brought his outside buddy and let that buddy to sleep in his room—though I'm not sure why—I don't want to know why. So that leaves Kris to share room with me…

Ah… morning. Last night is pretty bad. I drunk a lot and messed up (The after-effect of breaking up with your boyfriend for so long). I think I did things I mustn't do… Like… Shoot. No way. Just before I remember what I did last night, I spotted Kris beside me, covered with blanket, and looks like wearing nothing underneath. No way, no way, NO WAY! We mustn't do something! That's the worst thing I've done if so, well, aside from the fact that Kris is already married and that I just broke up with my boyfriend, we just started to hang out for, TWO DAYS. This is a nightmare.

"Oh, good morning Adam," Kris said sleepily while touching my arm softly. I tensed up and immediately remove his hand from my arm and stand up. Oh no, he's awake.

"Look Kris, what happened last night is just an accident. I didn't mean to… I didn't mean to do it to you. I'm so drunk and I'm out of my mind and—" I halted; Kris stood up and put his lips on mine, which is you know kinda funny to witness because of our big height difference—what am I thinking, KRIS IS KISSING ME!

"It's okay Adam; actually, it's really, pretty good." He said after he broke the kiss.

"O-okay?! W-what's okay with that, Kris?! We make out! And it's not okay because you already have a wife and I just broke up with Drake, whom I really loved for like a lifetime… And…" I paused, to catch a breath and to shift from that hastened and shocked tone to a softer one, before asking him something, "And… w-why? Why you kissed me? I mean, aren't you mad at what happened—?"

"No, why would I?" Kris immediately answered innocently just after I said the word happened, which is really unexpected and surprising. He put another smack on my lips. Shit. What if he already liked me? No, maybe he's still drunk because it can't be. He's married, for God's sake!

"K-Kris…" I said, shaking, like I'm going to cry, "You… just… kissed me… again…"

"And? Don't you like it?" Kris said while pouting—oh gosh! Why he is so cute?!?!

"Of course… Of course I do" I said, confused at the same time kinda shy—after all, his lips aren't that bad, actually they're so lovely to feel. You can feel the softness. It's overwhelming. And he smiles and he kisses me again, yet this time, I return the kiss. And yeah, that's the start of our secret love affair. But it's also the start of problems—like how we're going to hide this thing to everyone, to our parents, to Katy (Kris' wife)…

"Kris?" Speaking of the problem, I immediately broke the kiss when I heard someone's calling Kris from the outside—yes, it's Katy, knocking the door. "Kris? Are you there?"

"Oh shit, it's Katy" Kris whispered, having this face of horror. We quickly tidy up ourselves (I forgot to mention that we just didn't kiss—yes, we do that again). And we both quickly exchange glances and breathe deeply.

"Here we go" I said, Kris nodded and open the door as slow as possible. And Katy's there. She kissed him after that and gave him a really tight hug. I mean it that I'm jealous but I don't have the rights. It's Katy, Kris' wife. While me, Adam, is just… his roommate.

"Kris… so, Matt told me you're already sharing room with Adam but you don't tell me that you're moving" Katy said, in a tone that slightly annoyed me, you know, sweetly…

"I'm sorry, hon. I didn't tell you because I know those who are not contestants are not allowed to sleep in, except to Allison's mom, of course…" Kris said, kinda shaking "…so that I'm not really sure if they're going to allow Matt's friend to sleep here… And, yeah, they didn't allow Matt but Matt forced me to move and everything…"

"Ahh…" Katy said, while nodding and smiles "…it's okay, at least you're pretty good… by the way, how's the stay here? How's the new roommate?"

"Adam?" Kris glanced at me. I smiled at them, though I'm not really that glad to see Katy here… it's just, really, making me… jealous. "Oh, Adam… Adam's good. He's a very wicked guy. We really…" Kris paused and stares at me again, "We really get along very well…" And I smiled again, this time, because I'm really happy. Does it feel good that he's still complementing me even he's talking to his wife? Yes it is. And it's melting me…

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After that, everything seems to be fine even we have this affair. It's like we're just living a normal life, like we don't care if Katy or anyone inside mansion, or even outside, found out about our relationship.

Yet it's like one year ago.