Where He Belongs

Rating: G or PG

Disclaimer: I don't own GH

I'm going to change history a bit and saw that he didn't kill that guy in the fire and start the fire, it will make this story work better.

Summary: AU: Written for April Challenge on Soap Fan Fanfiction : Zander Smith always thought he was an outsider until one day he meets a woman from his pas and realize that maybe he isn't an outsider anymore.

It had been nearly five years since he faked his death during the Port Charles hotel fire and left town for good. He had thought about that town for years until he picked up the newspaper and read the headline that read Emily Quartermine dead.

He noticed one thing when he was reading the article; there wasn't once a mention of her marriage to him.

To Port Charles, he was an outsider, someone easily forgotten.

Of course they talked on and on about Nikolas. To this day, he still hate that man. He took Emily away from him and Nikolas didn't think anything about it. He knew when Emily married him that she wasn't in love with him anymore, but a part of him was hoping that she would remember the love that once shared. But of course that never happened, who would want to be with me if they could have their very own prince.

To the town he was an outsider, to his family, he was a mistake. He still remembers hearing his parents talking about how much he was a troublemaker and how he should have never been born, that he was a mistake that should have never happened. My mom left because of me.

Zander walked over to the table and looked at the picture of his own son. He was growing up to be such a big boy. His son was never going to know his daddy. He was going to think that Lucky Spencer is his father, and maybe that it is the best thing for him. At least his son could be proud of his daddy.

His son will never know that was his real father was like. Cameron will never know what kind of failure his real father was and how he was a drug dealer and kidnapper. No son should ever have to have a father like that.

"Zander," said a voice, snapping him out of his thoughts. He turned around and saw his wife standing in front of him.

She walked over to him and put her arms around him. He stared at her with this smile on his face. He never thought that he would ever find love again or even that he deserved it, but then one night she came back into his life.

She grabbed the newspaper that was on the table, and was shocked at what she saw. "I'm sorry, Zander. I know that you once loved her. Do you want to go back?"

"And say what, oops I'm not dead."

She laughed at him. "I guess you are right about that."

She grabbed his hand. "I went to the doctor today,"

He looked at her with this concerned look on his face. "Are you okay?" he asked. She nodded her head. "I'm fine.

She stopped for a moment. "I'm pregnant, Zander. You're going to be a daddy ."

"That's nice."

She stood up and looked at him with this mad look on her face. "I told you that you are going to be a daddy and you tell me that's nice. Do you not want to have kids?" she asked.

He walked over to the window. "No kid should have a father like me. "

She walked over to him and wrapped her arms around him. "You will make an amazing father."

He turned around and stared at his wife. "What will tell him or her when they ask me about my life? Do I tell him that I used to be a drug dealer or worked for the mob? What kind of father is that?" he yelled.

"You're not any of those things anymore, Zander. You haven't been those things for years. Our daughter and son are going to be very lucky to have you as their father, and Cameron is lucky to have you too."

"I faked my death. I made people believed that I was dead. What kind of person does that? Is that the type of person that you want as the father of your baby?" Zander asked.

She touched his face, and leaned over and kissed him. "You are exactly who I want for a father for our baby. You're not that same person that you were five years ago. I fall in love with you twice, Zander. Once when we were living in Port Charles and again when I meet you here."

"I love you too, but I just don't think that I should be a father."

Zander grabbed his jacket, "Where are you going?" she asked. He wrapped his arms around her. "I just need to think about some things." She nodded, as she touched his face. "Just remember that you're not that outsider anymore. "

He nodded, as he left the house.

&

Zander walked into the bar and walked up to the bartender. "Give me a beer. " The bartender looked at Zander. "Where that is that pretty wife of yours."

"At home." Zander said. "Just give me a beer."

"Yes," the bartender said, as he handed the beer to Zander. The bartender glanced at Zander. "Had a fight with the wife?"

Zander laughed. "She is pregnant; I'm going to be a daddy again."

"Again?" the bartender said. "I didn't think you had any kids."

He sighed as took a sip of the beer. "I don't see my kid because I'm not good for him." He said, taking another sip of the beer.

"Do you know what kind of father I would be?"

The bartender laughed. "I'm guessing you are going to tell me, aren't you?"

"Someone like me doesn't deserve to be a father. I'm a failure."

The bartender handed him another beer. "Everybody deserves a second chance at it." The bartender then walked over to another customer.

Zander grabbed his beer and walked over to the table. All he could think about was of his life in Port Charles. Ever since he sat foot in that town, he has been nothing, but trouble for everyone.

He was a troublemaker from the beginning to the very end of his life in Port Charles.

There was one person that he wishes that he could tell that he was alive and that was Alexis Davis; she was sort of a mother to him. He keeps tabs on her and knows that she now has three daughters.

Someone like Alexis deserve kids, she is an amazing mom. She defends me many times, when she shouldn't have to.

He took the picture out of his pocket and stared at his wife. Five years ago, he was a loner, who was trying to figure out what to do with life and now he has a beautiful wife and a child on the way.

He never thought that he would ever find love again or even that he deserved it. /i

"Zander," said a voice. He turned around and saw his beautiful wife staring at me.

"What are you doing here?" She touched his face. "I knew that you would be here."

He took another sip of his beer. "You shouldn't be here,"

"I'm exactly where I want to be, " she said, wrapping her arms around him.

She grabbed his hand and placed it on her stomach. "You are an amazing husband, every time I see you, I'm thankful that I had the business trip that evening when I saw you in that bar. You think that I changed you, but you changed me too, Zander Smith."

He stared at her, with this confused look on his face. "You are always so confident."

She laughed at him. "Being a lawyer, you kind have to be confident.

She smiled at him. "I'm talking about changing me into a better person, before I meet you again. I was all about career, but now I'm totally different."

He stared at her. "Just go home, I know what you are trying to do, but it's not going to work.

She leaned over and kissed him. "I love you, Zander Smith. Don't destroy something because of her again. You are an amazing husband and you are going to be an amazing father. You're not alone anymore."

He watched as she walked out of the bar.

As she walked out of the bar, it took him back to the night that everything changed for him, the night that Gia Campbell came back into his life and made him realize that just maybe he wasn't an outsider after all.

Author's Note: This was going to be just a one shot story, but my muse is telling me to that this is going to be a long story, lol. The next chapter will be in the past and how they meet up again