Baring the Responsibility!

By No1butjoe

SPOILERS for the episode 11x22 "We Happy Few"

Summary - What were Sam's thoughts when he agreed to bare the Mark?

Sam Winchester's Journal Entry Date: Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Dean has no idea I'm doing this, which is good because he'd probably try to stop me. He's already done so much, it's time for me to step up. After all, I promised him when this all started that I had this. I'd take care of Amara. I intend to keep that promise even if it's the last thing I ever do. Chuck (God) says the Mark could change me, just like it changed Lucifer, but that's something I'm willing to risk if it means Dean and the world will be safe from the Darkness.

Dean would kill me himself if he knew what I was planning.

But he never consulted with me when he first bore the Mark. Then again, we were at odds at that time. Things will be different this time. If I do turn, Dean can lock me up and throw away the key. Chuck can make sure I never get out. Amara will be defeated and this whole mess will be over. But, I know Dean all too well and he won't take this sitting down. He'll be pissed, I'm sure, but, with God on our side, we can do this.

This will probably be my last entry.

And, Dean, I know you'll eventually find this journal and read it. When you do, know that I made this choice. I wanted to do this. For you, for the angels, for Cas, for Chuck, for the world. Don't worry about me, okay? Whatever you do, you have to let me go.

SPNSPNSPNSPNSPNSPNSPNSPNSPNSPNSPN

Below Sams neatly scripted handwriting, a single word is written. Bold and underlined, it stands out on the page,
as if daring whoever might read it to even try and contradict it. It's not nearly as neat as the owner of the journal's penmanship, but it serves it's purpose. Simply, it reads:

NEVER