hey guys,

after a really long time i am gonna try to write again. hope you like it. it is a dramione fanfic, with some trigger warnings like: eating disorder, suicidal and self harm. please don't read if you are recovering because I don't want to be the cause of relapse. a lot pf hate and love will be in this fic, so a lot of swearing. don't like is don't read.

have fun xx


Chapter 1

In one of the cabin in the train on its way to Hogwarts is a girl with bushy brown hair en beautiful big eyes. The smartest witch of their time, one of the golden trio. Hermione Granger smiled while she pinned the 'head girl's' batch on her robe. This summer she received her letter from Hogwarts, informing her that she was the new head girl this year. There also was a new rule, which Hermione and the head boy would hear after dinner from professor Dumbledore.

'Knock knock' , she heard someone knocking on the door of the cabin. When she opened the door, she saw a tall, blond man towering above her. She looked up and stared in the icy gray eyes of no one other than Draco Malfoy. ''He granger, I had to inform you that we have to do our rounds through the train, so hurry up. I don't want to wait on a nasty mudblood like you.'' Draco said in an icy tone, looking at her like she was a piece of dirt. He straightened his robes so his shiny batch was visible. Hermione stared in disgust and anger. ''Fuck off Malfoy. Now we are both head boy and girl, we have to share a dorm together, it is not like I really look forward to it so please can you stop calling me like that? It is not like we are going to see each other much, but still.'' Hermione said in a firm tone. ''woooh Granger learned to swear! What happened to you fatty?'' ''I am NOT fat, you filthy snake!, please start your rounds, I will follow in a bit.'' Hermione said, now furiously. How dares he? She knew she was not the skinniest of the girls, but since the start of the summer she ate differently, she ate less and less, so she would be beautiful too. Somewhere in her mind she knew that it wasn't smart, but another part of her was happy to feel the hunger in her grow. ''Listen here Granger. I do not take orders from a dirty mudblood like you! I stand above you, don't you ever forget that, and if you are not doing your rounds in two minutes, you will regret being born with those magical powers that don't belong to you.'' And with that, draco turned around and yelled at a few first year who were running in the train. Hermione sighed and took her wand, while walking out of her cabin. ''This is going to be a long year…'' she whispered to herself.


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