Here comes the sequel to TH2C so if you haven't read that, things will make more sense if you do first, but it isn't a must. You can read this as a stand alone if you like. Enjoy!
Arizona's POV
Standing in the attendings lounge talking to Maggie, Richard, Owen and Alex, no one even sees Meredith enter the room. We are all too busy being wrapped up in our own business. That is until she speaks.
"Derek is dead." Meredith says, everyone in the room completely silent. The others start asking Meredith how they can help, if she's ok, basically anything that comes to their minds. And then she faints leaving us all stood in another stunned silence.
As we tend to Meredith and get her settled, I exit her room, running straight into Richard and Bailey.
"How's Amelia holding up?" I ask them, just receiving a look from them.
"What, she doesn't know?" I ask.
"She's in surgery. You know the protocol" Richard tells me.
"Yeah. I know the protocol" I say, releasing a heavy sigh.
This is completely unfair. Protocol or no protocol, if it was me, I would want to know as soon as possible. I quickly make my way to the OR floor, only to run into Owen.
"Arizona, you can't tell her yet." He tells me, standing between me and the door of the OR that Amelia is currently occupying.
"Hunt, move, she's my girlfriend and she has a right to know. It's her brother, the guy that protected her when her father was killed in front of them" I bark at him, my emotions becoming too great as my eyes fill with I shed tears.
"I can't do that Robbins. It's protocol." He tells me calmly, pulling my body into his arms. His actions causing my tears to spill over, gently falling down my face.
"She needs to know." I say between sobs, my voice shaky.
"I know, pull yourself together. She's nearly finished." Owen tells me as I wipe the tears from my face and mentally prepare myself for the situation I'm about to face.
It's nothing compared to Amelia but she's been doing so well the last few years. She's become the best second parent to Sofia I could ever have hoped for. She's grown as a person, become calmer, more focussed on her recovery and being a good person. This, it's likely to push her down the dark hole straight into oblivion. I know the pain, I know it all too well. The wild parties and excessive drinking, just to try to numb the pain of losing a sibling. I don't want that for Amelia. I had no one, but she has people that care about her. She has me and she has Sofia, Meredith, Maggie, the kids, oh god the kids. They're young and they just lost a parent. Just like Sofia did.
All I want is to be able to protect my girlfriend from the pain I know she is going to face, but I can't. Not right now at least.
Entering the scrub room, I notice Edwards is still there.
"Can we have the room please?" I ask and Edwards nods, leaving back into the OR with Maggie.
"Did you need something?" Amelia asks.
"Maybe we should have this conversation in my office?" I answer her question, with one of my own, not wanting to do this in here.
"I don't have time for..." Amelia trails off as she she's the look on my face.
"Who died?" She asks.
"Amelia."
"I know the face, I've been here before. Everyone thinks they are the first person in the world to look at a human being like that but, it's always the same face. Who is dead?" She asks again, more forcefully this time.
"Derek." I blurt out.
A few moments of silence settled between us. Our eyes meeting.
"It's Derek." I reiterated.
"I am so so sorry. It was an MVC accident and he wanted to help." I tell her.
"I don't need the details, dead is dead." Amelia tells me coldly.
"I am so, so sorry. And I wish this..." I try to move towards my girlfriend but she takes the smallest step back as she interrupts me.
"Thank you. For telling me."
"Amelia, if there's anything..." I try to say but again she stops me from finishing my sentence.
"I'm good. I've done this before, I know the drill. Not a big deal" She says, half smiling as she goes back to scrubbing out of the surgery she has just finished. Leaving me stood there, unsure of what to say or do. What do you do in a situation like this?
Leaving the room I give Amelia some time, some space and head to the daycare to find my daughter, needing just a little happiness in my life.
A week later, the day of Derek's funeral. I've hardly seen my girlfriend since that fateful day we found out about her brother. She's been working, basically living at the hospital, keeping herself as busy as she can I assume.
Whenever I have seen her, it's been from the gallery or the fleeting glance as she rushes to another surgery. Sofia asks me all the time when Amy will be home, and I can't answer her, because I just don't know.
As I arrive at the church, I scan the crowd looking for Amelia. She's nowhere to be seen.
I don't know why I'm surprised really, I guess I just hoped the funeral would give her some closure, but maybe she isn't ready.
"Where's Amelia?" Maggie asks me shortly, whilst looking after little Bailey.
"I don't know Mags." I tell her with a solemn expression.
"She should be here. He was her brother." Maggie snaps.
"You think I don't know that? I know better than most that she should be here." I tell her.
"Sorry, it's just, they're my family now. Amelia and Meredith and Richard. I'm worried about her." Maggie tells me, her tone much calmer and less accusing.
"I know, I know. She's probably at the hospital. She hasn't been home all week." I tell Maggie.
"She isn't doing so good is she?" Maggie asks me.
"I think she might be drinking again." I admit.
As much as I hate myself for it, I knew it was a possibility, a probability even, but I haven't done anything to try and stop it. Instead I've just given her space. Left my girlfriend alone.
"I'm going to go find her." I tell Maggie, turning and leaving before the service even begins.
Minutes later I arrive at the hospital, adorned in my funeral clothes. I frantically search the whole hospital, trying my best to find Amelia. I eventually find her, lying in an on call room, staring at the ceiling.
"Amy." I say softly as I move towards her from the door.
"Don't, don't call me that." She snarls at me.
"Ok, Ok." I respond, holding my hands up in surrender. Derek was the only one allowed to call her that before Sofia and I entered her life.
"You should be there." I say softly.
"No, I shouldn't. He's already gone. Going to a church isn't going to make that easier, it isn't going to stop the pain, or bring him back, so no, I shouldn't be there." She almost shouts at me.
"Amelia, come on, let's get you home." I coax her gently.
"No, I have no home. You're nothing to me. Leave me alone." Amelia snaps, her voice elevated to a full shout now as her tears begin to fall.
I know she's angry at the world right now but she really shouldn't be taking it out on me. I'm here, I'm trying to be here for her.
"Amelia, stop. I'm your girlfriend, let me take care of you." I ask her, still doing my best to keep my voice calm.
"Arizona, leave. I don't want to be with you anymore. It's over." Amelia says, her eyes meeting mine squarely. Even through her tears I can see she means it.
"It's over?" I ask, needing the clarification, that after everything, she really is breaking up with me.
"I don't want to be with you anymore." She tells me, leaving the room and me behind. My mouth agape. I did not see that coming.
I know I haven't seen her much the last week, and I was the one that told her about Derek. I should have just continued to give her the space she needed, I know that now, my heart breaking into a million pieces at the idea of losing the woman I love.
Thank you for reading the first chapter. Hit the review button, I need to know how people feel about the shocking revelations of chapter 1. Hit it ;) x
