Chapter 1

I dont know why Men cheat on you and break your heart, Why not just break up with you and then go with who ever they want to! Why do they stay with you when their cheating on you ? You cant say you love me, you cant say that you felt sorry for me, you cant say anything! I dont need your bullshit , I realy dont need it. What I need is a reason why men do this? I cant get an explanation for this, so screw it!

One word to describe me, "Sweet" One word not to ever do to me "Cheat" I hate that! I dont care who you are, Its still a wrong and heartless thing to do.. I have never been cheated on before, and I hope I will never experienc it.

My name Is Mikan, Sakura. Im seventeen years old and Im determined to figure out this answer everyone is trying to figure out. "Why do women and men cheat?" Honeslty, Im not only trying to force it all on the men, Women are at fault too. But I cant seem to figure out the answer why?

I have a boyfriend, His name is Nastume,Hyuuga. He is not the most gentle person in the world. Yet he is a one I can trust. "I beleive"

Im going to go to collage soon, I have one more year left, and Im working on a book at my young age. Its about relationships and about men and women who cheat, And for the answer why? I thought to myself. "I need more information." I cant just write a book about this and not know anything. I have to hussel and know and question people.

Im not the most responcibal person in the world at all. Im realy A childish girl, but Im working on that.

I was in school, Its such a bother to tell you the truth, but I have to deal with it. Im in the Library looking up more information, I realy want to get this book done. I will feel more better when I do. I cant ell you how many times I hear the sobs and crying of girls, because they were betrayed by the one they "loved"

I sighed. "Damn it." I mumbled. I looked at my watch on my wrist. I was suppose to meet Nastume and Hotaru 5 minutes ago. Ill just have to come back later.

I left the Library and went to the the front of the school and there was my boyfriend Nastume and My best friend Hotaru. I smiled sweetly "Sorry." I said. Hotaru rolled her eyes.

"Your book again?" Hotaru asked. I nodded.

I looked at Nastume, He didnt like the fact that I was writitng a book. I dont know why but it annoyed him.

"Lets go Polka." He said without looking at me. "Whats wrong with him?" We left school early so we could get a present for Ruka. He's Hotaru's boyfriend, It was my idea in the first place. Nastume only came because I asked him too.

"Whens the party again?" I asked Hotaru. She frowned. "I told you, Its a week from today.. Your the one who wanted to get him a present so early." Hotaru snapped. She was just in a crabby mood, and nervouse because she was excited about Ruka's birthday, Thats just how she expresses her happiness.

"Ne, Nastume what are you gonna get Ruka?" I asked him. We were going to Nastume's car. It was a nice one too, Anybody would want it.

"Hn." He said. Nastume didnt feel like bothered, not even by me.

I sighed. "Whatever then."

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Who ever thought Finding a gift for Ruka would be so easy! Ruka loves animals , So I got him some nice rabbit food, since he has a rabbit at home, Nastume got him a...Key chain?

Hotaru got him... Something.

"Hotaru what did you get Ruka?" I asked her. She glared at me. "Secret." She said. I frowned, "Fine, dont tell me!"

I was too buizy not noticing the girls who were flirting with Nastume, I turned.. "I dont have to worry." I thought. I turned back to Hotaru. She raised an eyebrow. "Arent you gonna stop it?" She asked me. I shrugged. "Why? Nastume isnt gonna do anything. I trust him." I said.

She sighed. "Your hopeless." She said. "Your not jealouse?" She finished.

"Well.. I dont like the thought of it, but its not like anything will happend." I said. Hotaru smirked. "Oh yeah? turn around." she said. I turned and a green headed seaweed girl was a little to close to Nastume. She whispering somethingin his ear.

I was a little angry at that and frowned. I walked over there and grabbed Nastume's arm. "Lets go!" I said pulling his arm and walking fast as I could away from those tramps.

Nastume smirked, and kissed my forehead. "Your funny Polka." He said. I blushed. "What? we had to leave." I said looking away. He smirked and held my hand. "Im not that bothered anymore." He said.

"What was he bothered about?" I asked myself.

"If you two love birds are finished, I would like to get home." Hotaru said. I stopped turning red. "Yeah lets go." I said looking up at Nastume. He nodded. But for some reason, Im haveing this reason of regret in my mind. I dont know, a headache?

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I was on the phone with Nastume.. My mom wasnt home, she had to work and I could take car of myself.

"I gotta go." Nastume said.

"Wait, Arent you comeing over my House to plan Ruka's Party?Hotaru is comeing." I said. I want Nastume to come.

"I cant, Im going over Ruka's house to... secretly plan." He replied. "Secretly plan? He is probally gonna ask Ruka some questions or something."

"Well okay..Bye Nastume." I said. It was a long paus.

"Bye Polka... I love you." He said... My eyes widend. I was completly shaded red. That was surprising

"Me too." I said. I hanged up..I was surprised.. "Why did he say that now?" I was home, laying in my bed, I was tired and Hotaru was suppose to be here any minute..."I need to call Ruka." I said to myself, I needed to ask him if he wants the party to be inside or out.. I know a lame excuse to call someone, but I need to know.

I dialed the numbers on my phone...

"Hello?" Ruka asked.

"Uh.. Ruka? I have a question." I said.

"Oh. Hey Mikan-chan.."

"Um... My aunts haveing a party, And she doesnt know if the party should be inside or out? What do you think?" I asked

"Uh.. well, I would pick outside, and at night! that would be great ." He said. I smiled. I lied yes, I cant let Ruka know!

"Well thanks, tell Nastume I said hi." I said since he is going to his house.

"What do you mean? Nastume is not comeing to my house? Who told you that Mikan?" He asked threw the line. I froze..what?

"Do you know where he is then?" I asked. I was concern, had something happend?

"He told me he was going over by Terris street, He said he had to meet somebody.. He shouldnt be over there in that crazy Stree-" I hanged up before Ruka could finish.. I started breathing heavily. Why would Nastume lie? He wouldnt lie, Why was he even going over to that street anyway? My eyes widend.

I ran out my room and ran outside in the night. Terris street is a very small street , I know where it is anyway. I ran barefooted on the hard ground, Why did Nastume Lie? I ran and ran. It felt like I ran atleast 10 blocks!

Then I was here.. I was so stupid and retarted. This is a criminal street! I can easily get raped.. I started to get realy scared. I realy loved Nastume "Where is he?" It was quiet, too quiet. I wanted to cry so bad and scream out hi name..

Again.. Im so stupid! I should have just called him and confronted him about him! Then I saw it!

I saw his nice car, the nice one! I swear it was his! I ran to it and touched it, the car was warm. So he just got here? "Why did he lie?"

I looked up at the house he was parked by, better looking then all the other ones around here. I got scared again.. It realy is to quiet out here. I looked at the house again . "Nastume is in there?" I thought to myself.

I walked closer to the house.. What was I gonna do? Knock on the door and scream Nastume? "Just peak in the window." I thought. I came close to the window, It had see threw curtains so it was easy to look threw in.

The house looked pretty nice, I could tell this was a other room because it had a bed..And.. My eyes widend. "What am I looking at?" I thought, I saw a bed and... and.. I saw a girl and a boy.. I feel disgusted for even looking at this.. "I feel like a peeping tom!" I thought.

Nastume wasnt here... I thought that when I saw some familair hair. My eyes widend. "N-Nastume?" I mumubled. "That couldnt be him.." All the disgust im looking at right now.. Tears began to ball up in my eyes, But not one rolled down my cheek.

I saw every thing, All the sickness, Now the space I gave him is now in the trash.

I could hear the moans threw the window.. It was sick.. The one I love is makeing love to some Tramp? I could hear everything, I saw everything and it just made my stomach sick. I thought, Im writing a book about relationships and cheating actions and its happending to me, right here, right now. I wanted to burst in there and confront him, but I couldnt.

Im not going to confront Nastume.. I looked down and saw a huge rock. I picked it up, it was realy heavy. I turned to Nastume's car and smiled just alittle bit, still hurt. I walked over to his car and I threw the rock threw his car window. I kicked and threw more rocks at it, not saying a word. "Bastard." I thought.

The alarm went off, I turned around and took one last look at that house. "That car was just part one of my plan you jerk!"

I lost it, I ran away crying my eyes out. "Nastume.. you... you.!" I couldnt finish what to say.. So many thoughts jabbed inside my head.."N-Nastume had S-Sex? Why would he, I saw it!" No matter how far I ran I could hear the alarm from his car..

"Im gonna get him back for this!" I said still running. "Im gonna make him want me!" I was still running trying to run back home, Get in my bed and cry...

"You never loved me, If you were gonna hurt me.. You should of broke up with me. You men are so hard to Understand! Thats why your car is ruined you bastard!" I had to be strong, Tomorrow I cant show any sign of hatefulness twords him.. I swear Im gonna get him back!

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