Author´s note: I want to thank Srishti Goyal (gaiaair from LJ) for being my beta.
ENJOY!
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
One Night.
For one night It was so right
That I gave you My heart,
My love My heart
Just for one night My body,My soul-The corrs
I couldn´t honestly say how this began. It was one night, one lonely night that I let my feet guide me under the pouring rain...When I realized it was too late to go back. I just kept on walking until I knocked on his door.
He smiled at me, that smile which could melt even the heaviest ice-cube. Even a heart as cold as mine. I never said a word, he never said a word, we just looked at each other and that was it.
His lips met mine in a passionate kiss, his hands dancing upon my body, causing shivers to run down my spine. I let him love me and he let me love him and that´s what we do every night of every day of every week.
I keep pretending I miss my husband. Playing the part of a sad widow who looks forward to seeing her husband in an infinite journey. No one will ever know the truth. I´m too ashamed to tell anyone that Ray is the one who keeps me alive; he is the one who makes my heart beat. And that he is also the one who loves me every night.
"Just one night, Ray." I said as his lips kissed my neck and my hands were playing with his messy hair. Somehow I can´t erase those words from my head, I keep repeating them each night, just like now...another night next to him. Another night lying to myself.
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
"We could talk one of these days, ya know?" I say as I play with his hair once more.
He smiles, closing his eyes, "Why? Don't you like what we do?"
"Of course I do...I mean, I like it but..."
"But what?" He opens his eyes. I can see a small trace of fear in them.
"We can do more than this, Ray...more than just sex."
I sit on the bed, covering my naked body with the thin sheet. I can see Ray thinking for a minute. He knows how scared I am of this...of falling in love.
"How about if we talk about music?" I say and he laughs.
"What? If you don´t want to do this anymore you just have to say it. We don´t have to talk if we stop."
I don´t want to stop and I don´t think I can either. I can´t get enough of Ray.
"I think I should go home now." I look at my watch and try to stand up but Ray takes my hand.
"Don´t go..." He kisses me as he lays my body on the bed and once more his hands are on my body.
"I can´t Ray. Stop. Please." I can't help but let out a soft moan and he continues ignoring my request.
"I really have to go."
He stops, a hurt look on his face. I trace his lips with my fingers.
"Tomorrow...same place, same time?"
He smiles and nods. I stand up taking all my clothes from the room.
TBC
