I will break
I feel…
…empty.
There's a sinking feeling in my stomach and a wave of warmth that crashes down on me as his teeth sink into the bare neck I left exposed for him. I wince and try to grab hold of the cold stones on the wall behind me but can't get a grip on the rigid surface. If he could see my face he would see how much pain I was in, but he can't.
Nor do I want him to.
I wiggle uncomfortably and he senses it, holding my arm firmly against the wall and sliding his hand against my cheek to hold my neck steady. His finger tips are cold against my skin; his body is cold.
The blood is warm.
I can hear the sound of my blood running through my veins… or leaving my veins depending on how you look at it. I can hear the sound of my heart beat pounding loudly in my head as it begs me endlessly to stop what I'm doing. It wants me to stop giving him blood and tells me that I need all the blood I can get for myself.
Too much. He's taking too much.
I let out a gasp and he pulls away letting my body drop to the floor.
I'm so easily let go as soon as I'm unneeded. No, I won't let that be the case. I won't deceive myself into believing that I am being used for blood.
Zero hates this more than I do.
I look up. He tries to turn his head quickly so that I can't see his face because I know he is ashamed of what he's done, but I'd already seen it. I'd seen the bright clash of maroon dripping from his lips.
It's a good thing the uniforms are black; you can't see the stains of blood on them.
I smile at him trying my best to hide the fear in my eyes. I don't want him to stop in fear that he'll get worse. I don't want him to fall farther down into his greatest fear. I want to help, I really do, but I feel like I'm only making things worse.
I can see the shame in his silver eyes and I wonder if he sees any shame in mine.
I feel…
…cold.
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ah a drabble indeed but I felt like writing some for vampire knight :)
love this pairing! So cuteeehhhh
it didn't exactly turn out how I wanted it to though ;-;
oh well! Maybe next time!
Review please!!
