I do not own Twilight or characters. This is a story simply for fun. Characters are OOC if this kind of story is not your cup of tea please move on and I hope you find a story you do like.
Chap 1
BPOV
"Come on, Bell! We're gonna be late! I still need to pick up Rose!"
"Alright, I'm coming!" I hurry and finish dressing and grab my bag from the floor. Really does not take that long to dress seeing as I only put up my long brown hair and put on my standard uniform. No not a real uniform just simple loose fitting jeans and my hoodie. Same thing I always wear. Stomping down the stairs I ignore the glare from my brother Emmett.
"You know, you would think that being towards the end of our junior year you would be used to waking up early."
I stick out my tongue at him and push my glasses up my face. It's true, nothing I hate more than mornings. Emmett and I are both in the same year and many people mistake us for twins. Truth is Emmett is my cousin. My parents adopted him when we were both two and a half. His parents, my Uncle Peter and Aunt Sara were killed in a car accident. My father took his brother's child into his home and loved him as his own son.
We pulled into Rosalie's driveway and Emmett honked repeatedly. "Charming, Romeo. Ever think of going to the door?"
Emmett gave me a smirk. "Why? Is that what Edward would do?"
"Yes, he would. He is a gentleman." Even if we had been boyfriend girlfriend for over a year Edward was still just as sweet as the day he stuttered and blushed through his speech as to why we should go steady middle of sophomore year when we were 15. Emmett snorted as the jeep door opened and his girlfriend jumped in the open front seat. "Nice, Asshat. No manners I swear." She huffed as she tried to shake off the rain.
"What's the sense in both of us getting wet?" He laughed as Rose hit his arm.
"Just kidding, Baby." He swept down to kiss her and I looked away. Stuff like that always embarrassed me. I have been with Edward for a while but we didn't act like Emmett and Rosalie. I still blushed when Edward held my hand in public. I mean sure we have kissed and cuddled but I was only 16, I wasn't ready for anything more. I was lost in thought as Emmett drove us to school.
EPOV
I was trying to fix my messy hair when my sister just busted in.
"Alice, you can't do that!"
"Relax, I knew you were up." My twin walked to my bed and sat down. "So, what with you?"
"What do you mean? Nothings 'with' me." I picked up my new leather jacket and grabbed my keys. " Do you need a ride?"
Alice slung her back pack over her shoulder and followed me out of my room.
"I am going with you." As I drove my silver Volvo down our long driveway she started with me again. "You know what I mean. New clothes, new car, and getting contacts? What was wrong with your glasses? You looked cute in them. And don't think I haven't noticed you spending less time with Bella."
I took a deep breath and scowled at my sister. "First of all, it's not a crime to try to look your best. The glasses were annoying when you're trying to play basketball. I put up with it last year but I won't this year. And for your information, Miss. Nosey, what goes on between me and my girlfriend is none of your business. Bell understands that I have things to do."
"You're my brother, my twin brother and she is one of my best friends. I just worry…. I think there is more to this-"
"Alice! Enough, ok? Just drop it." I didn't look at her because I knew I would see the hurt in her face. I loved her but Alice was always trying to run my life. That shit needed to stop. So what if I was making friends outside the circle? You would think my sister would support my decisions, but noooo, she had to put her two cents in. We, meaning me, Alice, Emmett and his girlfriend Rosalie, and of course Bella have been joined at the hip since we were little. We were our own little group from the very beginning and when we got older we started to pair off. Lately, though I just found myself drifting away. I was starting to wonder if there was just…more out there. Was I with Bella because I loved her or because it was expected? Don't get me wrong, Bella is a great girl but was she right for me? I was ashamed to admit that I felt I twinge of embarrassment when I walked next to her sometimes. I mean, we all changing and growing up, hell I was almost 17! But Bella just seemed to be that same 15 year old kid I asked out. She never wanted to go to the parties I did. Nobody did. The all claimed that it wasn't their 'thing'. Maybe it was mine though. Bella wasn't even trying to be part of the new life I was trying to build. Something different from the same old same old.
I parked next to Emmett's jeep (like always) and climbed out. Here we go again.
Bella walked over to where I was with Alice. I noticed Mike and Tyler standing by Tyler's van. Mike nodded his head to me indicating I should join them. I looked to Bella and she was talking to Alice and Rose and something or other. "Hey, Bell, I will see you later, k?" I placed a kiss on her forehead and took off before she said anything. As I was walking away I felt her looking at me and I looked back at her and choose to ignore the confusion on her face.
"Hey, guys." I leaned against the side of the van. It was on the other side of my friends so I didn't see them anymore. It was then that I noticed Tanya Denali. She was the same age as us and co-captain of the cheer squad. She was so fucking hot and I noticed my dick hardened when she smiled at me. God, what I would do to- wait I can't think like this I have a girlfriend.
"Hi, Edward how are you?" She smiled. I sure she noticed me checking her out but she didn't seem to be bothered by it.
"I'm good and you?" she shifted closer and said, "Ok but I could be better."
I didn't know what to say as I just stared at her. She giggled and walked away.
Mike waited till she was out of ear shot to comment. "Dude, she wants you bad!"
"What? No way. She's Tanya 'freakin' Denali she can have any guy she wants. Why would she bother with me?" No way, impossible.
"Edward, my man, When are you going to live up to your potential? You are a star basketball player, rich, and even if I am a guy I can admit, your good looking." Mike looked around as if uncomfortable. "Listen, I know you been with Bella for a while but really, don't you wanna see what you could do without your little coven?"
"What are you talking about, Mike? They are not my 'coven'"
"Really? So if you want to hang with other people it's cool? Because it doesn't seem that way. Just saying. You guys are close I get it. I gonna be honest with you, Edward. You are being held back by them. All of them especially Bella. "
"That's bullshit." I started to walk away when Tyler spoke up.
"Dude, it's true. How many guys go out with one girl throughout high school? This is the time in your life when you're supposed to experience what life has to offer. Girls like Tanya. Man, just think about it. You're not doing yourself or Bella any favors by hiding out and not living the way a red blooded teen guy is supposed to live." Mike nodded and grasped my shoulder, "Tyler's right. Well, gotta bounce. Jessica's waiting for me and if she gets pissed I will have to look for other pussy tonight and I just don't have the time." Mike and Tyler laughed as they left.
What was I going to do? I loved Bella but maybe, just maybe it was a friendly love. I started walking towards the old school building. I looked up and Tanya was looking right at me.
"Hey, Edward." Lunch had just started and I was sitting by myself at 'our' table when Bella sat next to me.
"Hi" I had trouble looking at her and I couldn't figure out why.
"Edward?" Bella seemed nervous and I could hear her voice crack.
"Yeah?"
"Are you ok? I mean, are we ok?" I hated that I was hurting her. She really did mean a lot to me.
Maybe we could talk this out. I stood up and offered her my hand. The others would join us in a minute and this conversation we needed to do by ourselves.
"Come with me?"
Bella stood up and followed me out. I lead her to my car and opened the passenger side door for her. She got in and I shut it. Taking a deep breathe I made my way around the car and got in.
"Edward, what's wrong? Please just tell me." Bella started to cry and again I hated myself. Why was I hurting her?
"Bell,…I don't know. I really don't. I feel so confused and…"
"Confused? About what? Us? Edward, please, what are you saying? Are you…are you breaking up with me?"
I didn't say anything but I took her hand. I let out a deep breath and tried to explain to her something I really didn't understand myself. "No, I mean yes I am confused but I am not breaking up with you. It not just us it's everything. I'm sorry, Bella none of this is your fault."
"Edward, I have loved you since the moment I saw you. I don't want you to be unhappy. Ever. I will do whatever you need. Please, Edward don't do something we will both regret." Her tears were flowing freely and I caught one with my thumb. "Bella,…"
"No, Edward don't say anything. Just think about what you want, what you need and let me know." Bella kissed me on the cheek and opened the door. "You know, I get that right now things are changing. How could it not? We are growing up and things don't stay the same but Edward I love you and I want be here for you." She got out and shut the door gently. As I watched her move away I jumped when my door opened. Tanya stood with her arm on the handle and then she placed herself on my lap.
I thought about stopping her I really did but as her lips met mine and her tongue moved into my mouth I lost all thought.
BPOV
I walked all the way home. I just couldn't deal with everyone right now. God, I was so blind. I really thought Edward was just as happy as I was. Was he just not happy with his life or was just me? I knew I was lying to myself. Edward was a guy he needed more than kisses and hand holding. Why was I holding back? I thought about it and realized maybe I could feel how 'off' we felt. I loved him. I was IN love with him but I never really got the feeling he loved me as much. I stumbled as the tears clouded my vision.
My phone beeped telling me I had a text. Great, probably in trouble for ditching school. What I read made me stop dead in my tracks as I cried out in disbelief. How the FUCK could he do this to me?
