A/N: Okay! Warning to those who have clicked on this title- I did this out of sheer boredom and therefore means that this is going to be pretty crappy. Got it? Other then that, enjoy. Author out.


I love him.

I want him to see me, not as his little sister, but as a woman.

I'm already sixteen, only two years away from being an adult, so why, why is it her that he looks at and not me? She is only fourteen. She doesn't have much to show and yet she is somehow able to make him act like a kid. She brings out the best in him, but she isn't anything special. Not like me at least, a rising superstar with a svelte body, long blond silky hair, and beautiful face with deep amethyst eyes. Over me though, it's her that he chooses. I don't understand it nor do I want to accept it. I won't let her have him!

... It's a lie.

I know that it's a lie. He gives her that look that, without a doubt, shows how much he loves her. I.. I can't do that to him, my beloved Ikuto, Onii-chan. She makes him happy in a way that's impossible for ayone else to do. That includes me. In all of my years alive, I have never seen him smile. Never until she came along. That... That type of happiness that he has obtained is something that is rare and only comes once in a lifetime. Out of all the people, I would know best. After all, he was, is my first love. He is that indescribable happiness that fills me whenever I see him. It flows through my body and envelopes me, makes me feel safe. He is my protector, my brother, my first love. Ikuto has done so much for me, and now, it's now my turn to do something for him. I can't be selfish, not when it's my brother's happiness that's being put on the line, so I won't be.

I'll take a breath and let go of the hem of his shirt.

I'll watch as he leaves the building and disappears.

I'll watch and remember how Amu has saved him both mentally and physically.

I'll watch as I steel my resolve to let him go.

I'll watch and remind myself to breath as I feel my heart shatter into a million pieces.