I was bouncing in my seat, as my family talked around me. I was going to see her. I was going to spend the whole summer with her. I was going to talk to her. I was going to do stuff with her. And she would talk to me… And I wouldn't make a fool of myself.

"Honey? Edward?" my mom asked turning in her seat.

"Yeah?" I said still bouncing.

"Are you alright? You're kind of pale…"

"Must be freaking out about Bella" Emmett teased.

Alice got out of the way so I could punch his arm and he hissed and was about to punch my arm back.

"Emmett" mom warned. "Apologize"

"He fucking punched my arm!" Emm whined.

"Language" dad said calmly from behind the wheel.

"You shouldn't have teased him about Bella" mom said clearly fighting a smirk, "Leave him and his crush alone"

"I don't have a crush on her!" I said.

And then it began, Alice tried to help me, but also make me admit, while Emm teased me about it, and I denied the whole time, mom trying to make us shut up, and dad playing with the radio. It lasted for ten minutes until Alice let out a high pitching scream, and dad stopped the car, flinching with us. She sighed when she ended and we all stared at her.

"I'm tired of this shit" she said, "Emmett leave Edward alone. Edward we won't say anything about your crush for Bella" I was about to protest but she glared, "Even if you don't admit it. Mom, please, change from this awful radio station dad put. Dad, drive faster, we're tired, and need to stretch, this backseat is too small with Emmett and Edward"

Dad smiled and continued driving, faster, and mom changed the radio station. Alice sighed in contentment and leaned back in the seat, practically on my shoulder since Emmett was using all her space.

"Let summer begin" Alice mumbled.

After a few minutes I cleared my throat and they looked at me.

"I don't have a crush on Bella"

They all groaned and then laughed. I looked away, out the window, trying to hide my smile.

An hour later we parked in front of the wooden cabin, surrounded by trees, and the sound of water from the lake, and the river close by. I stretched as soon as I got out of the car, and smiled when I saw the deep blue Camaro. We got our bags and knocked on the door. Bella opened with a huge smile and hugged my parents. I used the time to check her out. She was beautiful, in denim high-waist skirt, a black tank top, with deep V-neck, showing her cleavage, and a denim vest, with a grey high heel shoes. I had to look away from her legs before something happened.

"It's so good to see you, Esme" she said to mom. "I missed you"

"Why don't you come to our house anymore? We miss you too honey" mom said.

"Ah, school is getting a lot of my time. I'll try to visit more this year" she said.

"Yeah, school and boyfriends" Emm mumbled smirking and Alice discreetly slapped his arm.

Bella smiled at us, and Emmett took her in a bear hug.

"How are you, Bells?" he asked putting the giggling girl in the ground.

"I'm good" she said, "You?"

"Good"

She kissed his cheek and hugged Alice. They greeted each other, talking briefly about clothes and then she turned to me. I swallowed hard, and discreetly rubbed my sweaty hands in my jeans clad thighs.

"Hi, Ed" she said and kissed my cheek, wrapping her arm around my waist, bringing me forward into the house. "How are you?"

"G-Good" I stammered and hesitantly put an arm around her shoulders. I must be tomato red since her lips touched my cheek.

"We'll have fun, right?" she asked as the others greeted her parents.

"Definitely" I mumbled blushing.

"You still blush as you did when you were a kid. It's cute" she said and walked to Alice.

I watched as both of them went upstairs to the rooms, and tried to take a normal breath, but just could take a shaky one, and felt lightheaded. What that girl did to me!

Sue and Charlie showed us our rooms, since they came in two cars four days ago, they brought some of our bags, since our car was packed, with us, specially Emmett. I looked at my window, and smiled. I had a balcony. I slid the glass door and stepped out, enjoying the view of the lake. I saw that it was a shared, there was another glass door. I tried to think whose room was it, but didn't remember who took the room beside mine. There was a knock on my door.

"Yeah?" I asked stepping back in.

"Edward, honey, I prepared snacks for your family. Everyone is downstairs" Sue said.

"Oh, thanks. I'm coming in a minute"

"That's what she said!" Emmett said passing behind Sue laughing.

I blushed and Sue smiled and closed the door. This was the summer for everyone. Emmett came to spend his summer with us, last one he spent with his college girlfriend, whom he still didn't introduced. Dad wasn't working, a miracle. Alice was home, normally she would try to go somewhere, last time she convinced Aunt Carmen to go with her to Paris. I wasn't in a summer school. Mom was happy to have everyone together. And it was the summer before senior year.

Charlie Swan, my dad's partner, was an old family friend. Seriously I almost saw the man as uncle, I just didn't because it would be pervert to think of him as uncle, since that would make Bella my cousin… ugh. He recently had married his long time 'girlfriend', Sue. Bella's mom left when she was a baby, and Sue was there. As the years passed, Bella saw her as mom, and Charlie fell in love with her. But Renée just gave him the divorce he was trying to get for years, a few months ago. They married, a simple, short ceremony, and said that this summer we had to get together to celebrate everything. I went downstairs and was disappointed that Bella wasn't there. My family ate the sandwiches Sue prepared, my parents talking excitedly with Bella's, but me, Alice and Emmett were quiet.

"Something wrong, kids?" Charlie asked.

"No, uncle Charlie" Alice said, "We're just tired"

"Well, go take a nap or something. We'll wake you up for dinner" Sue said.

We nodded and went to our rooms, desperate for sleep. I closed my door and heard something from the room beside mine through the wall. I frowned, I forgot to ask someone about who's room was it. I laid on bed, enjoying the huge bed's softness. It felt like laying on a cloud. I closed my eyes and then I heard.

Thump.

I opened my eyes and waited.

Thump.

I looked up at the wall behind my headboard, and frowned.

Thump.

It sounded like something hitting the wall.

"Oh"

I sat up at that. That was… definitely a pleasure filled moan.

Thump. Thump. Thump.

Shit, there was someone having sex. I gagged a little, thinking it might be my parents… But they were downstairs, with Charlie and Sue… So who would… Alice and Emmett weren't in this room, and definitely wouldn't have sex.

"Ah, God" the moan was louder.

I gasped recognizing Bella's voice.

Thumpthumpthump. The pace increased.

"Fuck, Bella" I grimaced recognizing Black's voice, "B, slow down. I won't… Oh, shit"

Thump.

I laid back in bed, covering my head with a pillow, trying to not hear, or to kill myself from suffocation. I still could hear the groans, moans, thumps, giggles… She fucking giggled.

"Jake" I heard she say breathlessly.

I was biting my lip so hard I could feel the saltiness of the blood. I felt something slid down the corner of my eye, and realized I was crying. I was fucking crying. What kind of sick shit is this? Is this a joke? A sick joke? People like to see me suffer? I got up, wiped the tear and got out of the room, almost running. I stumbled downstairs, and when I got there the adults stared at me, with concern. I shook my head and nodded to the living room. I lay in the couch, hearing the low murmurs of their conversation, and glaring at the ceiling. I heard her giggle before I saw her. She plopped down at my feel and I sat up, looking away. She sighed contently, and I had to look at her. She was flushed, her tank top wrinkled, and her hair messier than when we got here. She looked over her shoulder at where our parents were talking and took a cigarette from a pocket of her vest, and looked at me.

"Want some?" she asked in a whisper.

"I didn't know you smoked" I mumbled.

She lighted it up, stayed silent while took good drags of it.

"Bella!" Sue chastised from the other room.

"Alright. I'm going to put if off in a second, mom!" she said rolling her eyes. "Open your mouth" she said to me.

I frowned but did as she said. She slid next to me, took a drag from the cigarette, and leaned in so close, my heart skip a beat. She was going to kiss me. Her lips were almost brushing mine. She closed her eyes, and I did the same, waiting. I then felt her exhale the smoke in my mouth, and I opened my eyes. She pulled back, took another drag, and put it off in an ashtray on the coffee table. I stared at her in shock. I was practically trembling. Her lips were so close to mine… The smoke… was so sexy. I could smell her… I shifted in my spot, trying to adjust myself.

"Ahn… It's…Eh" I stumbled in my words.

"You didn't like it" she said with a smirk.

"I-I did" I stammered.

"It's the minty one. I can't stand the common" she said and looked over her shoulder to our parents, "Your parents would kill me if they know…"

"It's c-cool"

"If you want more, you know who to look for" she said, and to me, sounded seductively.

I nodded dumbly, and she smirked, kissed my cheek, and got up.

"Jake!" she yelled.

I then grimaced, remembering why I was here. Why I was mad before.

"Coming!" he yelled from upstairs.

"Dad, I'm going to take Jake home!" she announced grabbing a bag, and keys.

"Jake?" mom asked and glanced at me.

"Yeah, my boyfriend, or whatever" Bella said rolling her eyes.

"His parents let him come with us for a few days" Sue said. "But he has to go, his family is going on a trip"

"Oh, ahn, too bad" mom said but didn't sound sincere.

"Wow, aunt Esme, you suck at acting. I can see you're lying from miles away" Bella said smirking.

"Just… I think this should be family time, you know?" mom said.

"Lying again" Bella accused and mom blushed, "Don't worry. It is family time. Starting tomorrow"

Then Jake ran from upstairs, greeted everyone and said goodbye.

"Hey. It's AE!" he said smirking at me.

I scowled at him and my nickname and he chuckled.

"Jake" Bella warned. "Stop"

"It's cool, babe. Didn't know he would be here" he said and patted my shoulder, "Have fun, try to stay away from a book"

"Fuck you" I mumbled.

"What did you say?" he growled.

"Jake, let's go" Bella said pulling him away, and out of the house.

We stayed silent and I heard her car turn on, and drive away. When the sound of the tires disappeared, mom cleared her throat.

"Okay, what was that?" she asked.

"Nothing" I said getting up and walking to the stairs, "We just don't get along"

I went upstairs before they could say something, and finally slept, now without disturbing, angering noises. When woke up, well, my mom woke me up, it was already dark. Everyone sat in the dining room around the round table, talking and eating. Bella wasn't back yet. We continued to eat and my family was making plans for go hiking tomorrow, and I would just nod, pretending to be involved in the conversation. Suddenly the front door opened and closed and Bella came in frowning.

"Everything okay, sweetie?" mom asked.

Bella looked at her, then at me, and smiled weakly.

"Yeah, everything fine" she said sitting beside Alice, two chairs away from me.

"We were talking about go hiking tomorrow" Charlie said and she nodded reaching for the juice jar.

"Yeah. We can go after breakfast, and in the way back to lunch we could go swim. The lake water is amazing" she said sipping her juice.

"That's a nice necklace" Alice said to her. "Do I know it? It seems familiar…"

"Oh, it's Edward's birthday present, isn't it?" mom asked excitedly.

I looked at the heart locket in her neck and smiled. Bella smiled at me, and took it in her hands, looking at it.

"Yes, I love it. Edward always gives the best gifts. He knows what I like" she said.

I blushed slightly, looking down at my plate. I always knew what she liked. I knew her. Everything about her. But she continued to not know me, see me.

"He gave her necklaces, always like this, and she simply loves them, wears always she can" Sue said.

"They are vintage. He gave me one that I can imagine a 1500s woman wearing. It's awesome" Bella said.

"I'm glad you like it" I mumbled.

Emmett elbowed me in the ribs and I glared at him, and he just smirked.

"Edward seems to know Bella pretty well" Emmett said making me blush, and continue glaring at him, "Right… Bella?"

"Yeah, I guess so" she said getting some steak.

"I would think that you two born for each other. You two would make a cute couple, no?" Alice said and I looked down at my plate, turning tomato red.

Bella laughed. Laughed! I was humiliated.

"Stop, Alice" I said quietly.

"Alice is right" Sue said quietly, and I looked at her to see her smirking at Bella.

"Mom" Bella said rolling her eyes, "We're just old friends"

Ouch. I looked back at my plate nodding, wishing the earth would swallow me now. Humiliated and shut down. Great.

"There's something any of you would like for 4th July barbecue?" mom asked.

Alice and Emmett asked for their favorites, and mom looked at me and I just shrugged.

"Bella?" she asked.

"No, thanks, Esme. But maybe I'll make that strawberry and blueberry pie. Edward seemed to like it last year. I can't eat it…"

"Why?" dad asked.

"Oh, no. I won almost four pounds since school ended. I have to stop with candy and stuff!"

"You look great" I said.

I blushed and continued to look at my plate. It's like I don't have a filter. My mind doesn't know when to stop when I'm humiliated already.

"Edward is right" Charlie said, "You don't have to lose weigh"

"You're my dad, you're supposed to say that" Bella said smirking, "You would like me to be a ball, so boys wouldn't ask me out"

"Edward isn't family and he thinks the same" Charlie pointed out.

People usually don't know when you feel embarrassed and want to be invisible.

"Well, I think Bella is hot like this" Emmett said saving me.

"Does your college girlfriend know you call other girls hot?" Bella asked amused.

"Well, she call that… girly vampire actor hot, and I endure it" Emmett said chuckling.

"He isn't girly. And yes, he is hot" Alice said.

And then the conversation turned into Hollywood stars that are hot. Thank God.


"Hi, Edward" Bella said looking over her shoulder.

She was sitting in the edge of the dock, her legs in the water, wearing just a deep blue bikini. She smiled and patted the spot next to her. I sit down, looking at her, and she smiled at me.

"Bella" I said. Didn't stammer. Wow.

"You know…" she looked at the water, bit her lip, blushing. Oh, that lip. My undoing. "I think you're cute"

"I-I'm cute?" I stammered. Yeah, Edward is back. Great.

"Yeah. I was too shy to say it"

"Oh" Smooth, Edward. "I thought you didn't notice me" Desperate much? Shit, I have to turn off that voice inside my head. Concentrate.

"Oh, I noticed you alright" she chuckled. "I have a crush on you since fifth grade"

"R-Really?"

"Yeah" she said blushing.

She looked at me from under her eyelashes, biting her lip, and I swallowed hard. She leaned in, looking into my eyes.

"Kiss me" she whispered close to my lips.

I touched my lips to hers and my hands went to her waist to pull her close. She moaned in my mouth, and I groaned back. She licked my bottom lip, and pushed me back, so she was laying on top of me. Our tongues met, and I grunted. I tried to pull her back, so she wouldn't feel my excitement, but it was too late. She smiled against my lips, and her hands went to my shorts' button.

"I want you" she said against my lips.

I rolled over, so I was on top of her, and kissed her passionately.

"Edward" she moaned.

"Bella" I breathed as her hips thrust up to meet mine.

"Edward" she said.

"Bella" I answered kissing her neck.

"Edward" she said, not as a moan, not as a breath like last time. "Edward!"

I stopped and looked at her.

"Bella" I said frowning.

She smirked at me and gave me a peck.

"Wake up" she said.

"Ahn?"

"Edward, wake up"

Bella started to vanish from my hands, literally, and I looked around.

"Bella!"

"Edward, wake up!" she yelled.

I sat in bed, my head hitting another.

"Ouch"

My eyes went wide as I looked at Bella rubbing her forehead.

"Oh, shit" I hissed, "S-Sorry!"

"It's fine. Ahn, everyone is having breakfast. Hurry up. We'll leave soon to go hiking"

"Okay" I said.

She nodded, looking at me strangely, blushed and ran out of the room. I tried to understand everything and blushed furiously and cursed under my breath. Shit, did I say her name while sleeping? Talk embarrassing. I shook my head and got up, and changed. When I got downstairs everyone was having breakfast and talking excitedly. I said good morning, avoiding eye contact with Bella, and swallowed my breakfast, since I wake up late, and everyone was ready to leave.

We all walked to the trail, talked during the hike, and sang stupid songs, told jokes, laughed of stories… I walked behind, watching Bella. For a moment I got disappointed in seeing bikini straps under her off shoulder green shirt. Then I hat to subtly adjust myself for even thinking of her swimming naked. Family activities, see?

When we headed back we were desperate for the lake. As soon as we approached, Emmett ran, and jumped in, sneakers and shirt on. The parents went in, to rest and get lunch ready, and we would swim a little. I took off my shirt and sneakers and jumped in the water. Alice followed me in her swimsuit, and giggling. Then her. Wearing a simple bikini, black bottom, and red top, and her hair in a ponytail. She walked to the end if the dock, and instead of jumping like us, gave an Olympics-worth dive. She came up, grinning and Emmett suggested a chicks fight.

"Okay" Bella said. "Who will lift me up?"

I blushed and thanked God for being under the water from the waist down. Just thinking of my head between her thighs… God, I need to take my mind out of the gutter.

"Whomever" Alice said, but smirked at me. "Maybe Edward?"

I blushed more, of course.

"Can you handle me? I'm not light like Alice" Bella said to me. I nodded and she shrugged. "Okay then"

She swam to me, and smiled. I smiled back, still blushed, and probably looked like an idiot. I got down, until just my head was over the water, and she quickly climbed in my shoulders. When I got up, I was kind of shaking in excitement and she gripped my hair tightly, and her thighs tightened around my head, as she almost fell backwards. I gripped her thighs and she relaxed as she realized I wouldn't let her fall. Emmett of course, decided to humiliate me. He wolf whistled and smirked.

"Get a room!" he said.

I blushed tomato red, and he and Alice laughed. Siblings, love to make your life hell.

"Are you sure you can handle me?" Bella asked resting her hands in my head, her fingers between my hair. My eyes almost fluttered close.

"Yeah" I stammered, "Ahn… You're not heavy, B-Bella"

"Thanks" she said.

After three rounds of chick fight, Bella and I won two, we went to lunch. In the way to the house, Bella linked her arm with mine, laughing as we remembered the best moments of the day. I realized this summer, was my chance. I would use this summer to make things with Bella change.