So sue me, I thought of the last chapter while I was supposed to be working my salchow, but I couldn't help it, I swear. I was reading Eragon, Eldest and Brisingr all through last night and today I was listening to some slightly depressing music. Before I went out ice skating too, I was reading some Eragon/Murtagh fan fictions, so it was kinda obvious what was going to happen to my thoughts. Of course, I realised my last chapter idea wouldn't make much sense without the rest of the story, so of course, I flipped through my mp3 player until I found some songs that'd serve this story's purpose well…

T for later suicide and incest-y thoughts. Also swearing and lots of angst.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything here but the plot, and even that was inspired by the wonderful work of AFI, who I don't own either. I wish I owned Murtagh though… *sigh*…

Oh yeah, I don't own Breaking Benjamin or Queen either (they both did versions of this song)


Chapter One - Eragon - Who Wants to Live Forever

The stereo was on repeat. Eragon didn't know why he put it on repeat, but he did. Who Wants to Live Forever... Finally, a song he could relate to. A song that ripped apart his emotions and screwed them up. A song that wrenched his heart and made him want to jump off the nearest bridge. And all because of one fucking brother. One stupid brother who he couldn't live without. He couldn't help it. He loved him. He, Eragon Bromsson was in love with his half brother Murtagh Morzanson. And there was nothing he could do about it.

He choked out a bitter laugh. It sounded strangled, even to his own ears. Then a single tear rolled down his cheek. He swiped at it, angry. "Damnit," he cursed. "Why the hell couldn't I have fallen in love with someone else?"

He whimpered, curling up into as tiny a ball as he could in the corner of his dark blue room. He cast an eye around his surroundings forlornly. He closed his eyes and allowed himself to relax, letting the sound of Breaking Benjamin (Sorry, I just prefer that version to Queen) flow over him, swirling the lyrics around in his mind, listening to them.

There's no time for us.
There's no place for us.
What is this thing that builds our dreams,
Yet slips away from us?

Another tear slid down his cheek, but this time he did nothing to hinder it's progress. The song described the situation perfectly. He loved Murtagh. He knew he did. But it could never happen, even if Murtagh felt the same. It was against the law. And it made Eragon feel... hollow... emotionless...

Who wants to live forever?
Who wants to live forever?
Ooh.

Not him, that's for sure. All he really wanted... He wasn't even sure of that. He could tell him, and risk all he'd worked for, or he could end it. End it fast, before he could get hurt. He shook his head, trying to shake these thoughts out of him. It didn't work, so he tried to drown them out, concentrating body, mind and soul on the music. Another tear. His third one tonight.

There's no chance for us.
It's all decided for us.
This world has only one sweet moment,
Set aside for us.

That only brought the dark thoughts back to him. They had no chance to flourish as the may have done had things been different... Had Eragon been straight... Had Murtagh been straight. But they had no chance, not even a second for just the two of them to be happy together as Eragon had dreamed. That makes four, five tears now. He drifted through the chorus, but his ears pricked up for the lines afterwards.

Who dares to love forever?
Oh, when love must die?

Eragon, that's who. He knew without a doubt he'd willingly risk everything, anything for Murtagh.

Then touch my tears with your lips.
Touch my whole world with your fingertips.

Eragon gasped a sob. That was exactly what he wanted Murtagh to do. To kiss away the tears, the hurt, the uncertainty, the sheer torture of possibly having to see Murtagh grown up, with a partner, with possible children. Eragon hiccuped on his tears. They were choking him, suffocating him. Like his love for that which was out of his grasp. The rescue belt that was inches away from his outstretched fingers, while he was drowning... drowning... The final line was what sealed his fate...

Who waits forever anyway?


What did the final line make Eragon decide? Find out in the next chapter of... UNBEARABLE!

Ah heh heh heh... Sorry that sounded like a crappy TV show ending XD So what did you think? Drop a line, would you? I'm a little nervous as to what you think of my first Angst & my first Guy/Guy pairing...

Hmm, we'll make it easy, say five reviews and I upload? No flames?