Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts. The poem is entitled "Insanity" and was written by me in 2004.
Insanity
"Kairi, is everything okay?"
My sharp blade, my savior
My razor, my best friend
Everyone run for cover
This blade isn't here to mend
When did I first start? I... can't remember. I can't remember anything expect doing it. Was it before or after the whole mess with Kingdom Hearts? Was it before I lost my heart or after Sora gave it back to me? Was it after I lost them and forgot Sora? Or after we were all together again? Back on the islands. I don't remember. Time just seems to all swirl around inside.
I hide what I feel and do
To the asylum, I shall be sent
Everyone hides their true
Why should I be any different
I don't talk much to anyone anymore. Sure, when someone talks to me, I'll answer or smile and nod. But I don't really venture anything anymore. I hide from them all. I hide who I am, who I've become. Not even they know. I guess I'm a good liar, huh? Am I Sora? Riku? Am I good liar now? Because you both believed me when I said nothing was wrong. You didn't know I was lying.
It slices and it dices
It rips apart the skin
Covers you with vices
Brings everything to an end
I carry one around with me. And I wear skirts and shirts that hide the scars. It's all I think about now. It's all I want to do now. It's addicting. Who would have thought, huh? That me, Kairi, would be addicted to anything other than Sora. Yeah, I'm not ashamed. I will admit it. I was addicted to Sora. I thought we were meant to be together forever. He was my soul mate. It just took me a while to realize that Riku was his.
Hiding in my lair
Slicing with my blade
Shrouded in despair
Of myself, I am the most afraid
How long has it been? How much time has passed? I remember now when it started. That night we got back home, finally. They didn't know I saw them, but I did. I saw Sora throw his arms around Riku and press his lips to his. I knew I had lost him then, lost them both. And that's when it started. When I started hiding everything. That's when I realized that I lost everything, lost who I was. And I became someone I didn't like, someone who wasn't me.
And I'm afraid. I'm afraid of getting close to them now that their together. I'm afraid of putting distance between us because that would mean losing them. I'm afraid that I'll wake up one morning and forget everything that ever happened, our entire lives. But mostly, I'm afraid of being alone with myself.
"I'm fine. Nothing's wrong."
