AN: Hi, I was really inspired to write this after watching the 200th episode, I'm pretty sure it made everyone cry by the way. This is mostly about the hurt every character has gone through. If you don't know, La Vie en Rose was the song the Mother sang in the last episode. What it means is to see life behind rose colored glasses, the meaning sounds odd, but it is a phrase that means to be so content, that it's unrealistic, when things are simply too sad for you to BE happy. I originally planned to have these chapters in characters' POVs, but I wanted to do it in third person instead. I really hope people like this, I want to write fics, but I never get any reviews, so I don't get much encouragement. Enjoy!


Mother's Hurt

"Okay, you're officially super late now..."

She stops when she realizes the voice on the other end is not Max. It is a woman, she questions her if her name is Samantha.

"Yes, this is she..." she says in a concerned voice.

The voice on the other line seemed filled with sorrow.

No. Not real. This could not be happening to her. She refused to believe it. She would wake up from this terrible nightmare, and start off her real 21st birthday. It takes her a moment to realize she has not hung up her phone yet, she does so quickly. She takes a taxi and gets a ride to his apartment. When she's at the lobby, she realizes she's trembling. She wants this to be over, if Max were here he'd silence her, and tell her everything would be okay, as he always did. She wanted to be in his arms again, and feel like nothing in the world could hurt her. That was impossible now, because she no longer had Max with her.

It takes her multiple tries to get the key into the keyhole because she's trembling so much. She finally manages to let herself in after what seemed like a lot of effort. She sees a case on the table. She goes to it, curiously to see what it is. Inside, she finds a small ukulele, along with a note that says 'So your breakfast doesn't have to sing acapella'. He did get her a gift, and it wasn't last minute either. She'd already played violin, bass, and guitar, but she'd been longing to learn to play the ukulele. She looks and it, and breaks down, she allows the tears to fall down her face. It feels so different to go through this alone, whenever she cried Max would always hug her, and without warning, he's just...gone.

She hugs the ukulele and realizes it was his last offering to her. She would never lose it, this ukulele was Max to her now. If she were in a time of despair, she'd take out the ukulele for comfort, and remind herself Max is still with her. She gingerly strums a chord. It produces a magnificent sound. She plays one of her favorite songs that Max would always sing to her when she was sad, La Vie En Rose.

"Hold me close and hold me fast, the magic spell you cast, this is la vie en rose." she barely makes it past one verse before croaking, and then sobbing uncontrollably.

She looks up and says "Max, please help me out here. You're the one who's supposed to be here for me when I cry! Why'd you have to leave!" her voice starts in a quiet whisper, and escalated to screaming. "I loved you more than anything! You can just leave whenever you feel like it! It's not fair!"

She's breathing uncontrollably now. She goes into the kitchen to go fix herself up some tea to settle down. When struggling to reaching for the cupboard, she stumbles to the ground. "

"Need some help?" asks a kind voice.

"Max? MAX?!" she yells. "I thought you left me! I thought you were dead and-"

"Yeah, I'm still here." he says sobbing too now. The two embrace each other with a hug and a kiss. "I'm so sorry for scaring you, are you okay?" he asks in a gentle voice.

"Now that you're here I'll be okay." she says smiling. She refuses to let go of him, and keep hugging. "I love you, Max."

"I love you too Sammy."

Suddenly, everything begins to go blurry, and then white. It was a dream. She finds herself on the kitchen floor with half a bottle of scotch in her hand. It was all a fucking dream. She must have stumbled from being drunk. She doesn't prop herself of the ground though. She simply lays there, lost, and her eyes filled with despair. He was really gone, and she had to face the horrible reality it was all true. Max wasn't going to come down from heaven and help her, she was alone. She continues to to swill down all the scotch left in one sip before getting another bottle. Before she knows it she has finished three whole bottles in one sitting. She realizes she'll probably have the worst headache ever but she doesn't care, the only pain she'll probably feel is losing Max, nothing else.

She was lucky, yet extremely unlucky at the same exact time. Max was so great, he was like a winning lottery ticket to her, Max was her first boyfriend, and he was a great one. She'd heard how hard love was, but she never understood because Max was so amazing, and her first boyfriend. Now, it's like you think you got lucky on your first try with that lottery ticket, and it's not likely you'll find another winning lottery ticket. Sure, she might find some lottery tickets that will give you a fair amount, but nothing could compare to finding that jackpot again. She didn't want to go find another winning ticket either, aren't you just wasting your time looking for one, if your chances are so small?

She doesn't know how she'll recover from this, or even if she will. She knows she has to find that lottery ticket some day, she doesn't want to be that women who dies alone wit nothing but cats. She wants her own family, she thought it would be with Max. She'd always wanted a girl named Penny, and a boy named Luke, but honestly, is the dream even possible anymore? Sometimes you have to accept you won't always get exactly what you wanted in life, and sometimes when those things seems right in the reach of your hand, they just leave, and move farther and farther away, but that's life.


I hope you enjoyed that! If you review, I'd really love if you gave me some characters and moments to write about. Try to avoid the obvious ones that I'd probably end up writing about anyways, like Robin choosing Kevin over Barney, or Robin finding out she can't have kids. I might even make up some moments that haven't happened in the show yet, please rate and review, and I love you for reading this. Here's a virtual sumbitch! 3