Okay….I cleaned my room today and I found this story that I had written about 3 months ago. I still thought it was good so I decided to type it up.
okay….Review….and I do not own Full Metal Alchemist….(though I wish I owned Ed…..grin and Al….Al's such a cutie….)
Fated Relapse
You were the only one who ever understand me and now you're gone. One minute you were there, your panicking voice trying desperately to tell me something important and then you were gone forever. Puff! It seemed like some magic trick that as a child you believed in whole-heartedly but at the same time you were trying to figure out how it could have happened. How? It seemed impossible, infallible that you; seemingly the happiest person in the world, the one human being on this earth that kept everyone moving, kept me living could die.
In one swoop; all of the guilt, the hatred, the cruelty of life came rushing back to me. You were the brick wall that kept the thought of suicide from my mind. Only you could help me fight the darkness of depression. No one could ever commit suicide with you around.
How is it that someone who annoyed me as much as you did, could be my best friend? How is it that one person could leave as much of an impact on someone's life? If I died, would any one feel the same as I do about your death? Would as much show at my funeral? Who would show?
BANG! One shot, that's all it would take for me to find out. One shot and I could be with you again, Maes. I wouldn't have to take orders from the military anymore. Everyone in this corrupt military is going to hell anyone. He, it's funny. The thoughts that come after a death. WHAT IF IT HAD BEEN ME? That is the though it everyone's mind.
If it had been me…there would be no family for me to leave behind. Your daughter misses you terribly, Hughes. It almost makes me want to follow your advice. But no, I am not worthy of a wife or a child, especially as beautiful as yours. I have always been thought of as a pervert or a womanizer, but the truth is I have no want for a wife or even a girlfriend. Even though it might be nice to belong, I could never take care of any of their needs. A FAMILY? No, that is one thing I never agreed on.
HAD IT BEEN ME…HAD IT BEEN ANYONE ELSE…WOULD THE IMPACT ON THIS WORLD BEEN QUITE AS GREAT?
