A/N: I don't own Naruto . .


Prologue: In the Rain

I stared out the window, it was raining . . . showing the feelings that I didn't not allow myself to show. The feelings that were once in my heart. The heart that I once wore on my sleeve . . .The same heart that was hurt and broken by you . . by all of them.

Tears in the form of rain droplets, screams of sadness and pain hidden within the roaring winds . . .

You thought I was blind, not seeing the way you looked at me in disgust. Not noticing the way you treated me, as if I was lower than the dirt under your shoes. . . but I did. I noticed, I saw, and I will never forget.

You thought I was deaf to your words, to your insults. You always thought that they went in through one ear and out the other. But no . .it was never like that. I always remembered, each and every word was engraved into my heart, making it bleed.

You always thought I was happy, that my laugh was real and that my smile was genuine. You never even thought to look behind the mask. You never thought that your looks, your glares, your insults, you words hurt me. But they did, each and every time. Never hurting any less.

I look back, remembering this morning; it was the same as every other morning. It would start off as a beautiful morning, the sun would slowly rise, casting light upon the world. The birds would sing and the wind would caress my skin, as it wrapped around me in a form of a breeze. I would walk into the clearing, the same clearing that I walk into every morning. . . and I would smile, trusting you with my heart. Trusting you with my sanity and happiness. . . . I would scream good morning. Only to be ignored or hit . . . It was all for nothing. . . You would never care.

You confuse me, you left this village in an attempt to gain power. And after nearly killing me you come back. Why?

I can't bring myself to feel betrayed, I feel numb, so comfortably numb. I want to relish this numbness as long as it lasts, as longs as it graces me with its presence. I know that when it goes away, when it leaves me . . I will feel the betrayal, and will feel the pain once more.

I want to figure you out. . .but I can't. That would require your presence, and I don't want that. I want to feel nothing, you will bring back the pain.

I am blamed for your betrayal, for your defection from this village. I am the demon, the demon that twisted your mind. That's all they see, a demon. They don't see the loveless child behind the demon, they didn't see its jailor, they didn't see the one who nearly died in order to bring you back, and most of all they didn't see Uzumaki Naruto.


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