My Crazy Beautiful Life

Chapter One: All By Myself

Marice Boscorelli sat in his car and watched the traffic creep by. It was still early and the sun was just drifting below the New York skyline. Sasha Monroe sat next to him. He knew she was wondering what was going on in his head. He wasn't ready to share what he was thinking. Over the past year or so Sasha had become a friend as well as his partner. She was over to the house just like the rest of the pricient and firehouse. But today he needed to keep the things he was thinking about to himself.

"How's Baily ajusting to life in New York?" Sasha broke Bosco out of his thoughts.

"Great. He loves school and his sisters and brother. It's like the kids been part of our lives forever."

"I'm glad to here that. My sister and nephew are coming into town next week. I was wondering if…"

"If what?"

"Seajae invited me to dinner…can I bring them along." Bosco smiled and sipped his coffee.

"You know my wife, the more the merrier." Sasha knew Seajae Boscorelli lived for friends and family.

"She needs to know that there are still familys that have dinner together and care about eachother. Our parents didn't provide that."

"You thing our crazy life will influence her to do what?"

"Your family isn't the Brady's or the Cleavers. They're what families should be. Connected and happy. You have Baily and Hope who niether of you had to love but you love them the same as you do Angle and Mac. I need my sister to know that someone will love her no matter what. She thinks that Trent will have to be the love her life till he's 18."

"So she thinks that no man will love her because she has a kid."

"Yes." Sasha looked at the people outside. It was fall and the heat had not yet left the East Coast. People milled around in shorts and tank tops like summer was still with them. "I need her to know that all men are not like her father."

"Her father?"

"My dad died when I was two. My mom married Hamilton West a year later. He never accepted me as a human much less the child of the woman he loved. When Shelly came along it was all about her. Even my mom got sucked into the Hamilton Votex. I was invisable for a lot of years. Then Shelly got into drugs and then got pregnant. They disowned her. By then I was long gone but I picked up the pieces for her. Our parents died about a year after Trent was born."

"I couldn't love Hope any more if she was my own. I'm sorry he couldn't love you like that." Sasha smiled.

"See that's why I want Shelly to see the way you are. And the McKenzies and Carlos and Peggy. You guys are the epitimy of blended families. I want her to know a man can love you and your kids too."

"Well you know my wife. She wants the world to be as happy as she is so she'll do everything in her power to see that your sister leaves believing anything is possible."

"Thanks Bosco. I knew I could count on you."

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At midnight Bosco unlocked the front door of his apartment. It was quiet. It was a rarity that the Boscorelli house was quiet. Seajae had court all day so she never made it to the station. The light above the stove was on and a note hung from the pot on the burner.

Bosocrelli,

You missed dinner again. Should I be jelouse you'd rather eat with your parnter then your family? Sasha's welcome here too you know. Chilis in the pot, put the rest away, kiss your kids good night and come to bed. I miss you. Seajae

Bosco wasn't really hungry. He hadn't been lately. He hoped his wife wouldn't notice if he just put the pot in the fridge and didn't eat anything. He lifted the pot and put it away.

"You need to eat Maurice." He looked up to see his wife in her robe standing in bedroom doorway.

"I grabbed a sandwhich while doing paperwork earlier." He hated ling to her but he didn't want to fight. Not tonight. "How's things on the homefront?"

"Fine. Everyone came home."

"Good." He leaned agaist the counter. "Sasha wants bring her sister to dinner on Sunday. I said it was ok."

"Sure. The more the merrier."

"That's what I told her."

"Why are you still over there?" Bosco smiled.

"I thought we were catching up?"

"Can't we do that in a closer poxsimity?" Bosco walked to his wife and took her in his arms.

"Better?"

"Oh yeah." She snuggled agaist him. "I missed you Bosco."

"I missed you too. How was court?" He kissed the to of her head.

"Same old." Looking up at her husband she kissed him. "You look tired."

"Thanks."

"Hey anytime. Maybe you should take it easy."

"Look who's talking. I'm fine and I look tired because I'v been up since seven thirty taking care of my wife and kids and the good people of my assingned district." He kissed her again. "Let's take this to bed and we both can rest our weary heads." Bosco turned and went down the hall and kissed the kid's goodnight and tucked them all in. Seajae smiled and took her husbands hand and let him to bed.

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Morning came way too soon. Bosco rolled over and pulled his wife to him. He needed to feel her warmth. He'd been so cold lately. Feeling so very alone even when his family sorrounded him. Seajae leaned into him and ran her hand over his.

"What's wrong?" She could feel his tesion.

"I never want to leave this spot."

"You know you won't get any agument from me." She snuggled closer to him. "But sooner or later we'll be missed."

"Who cares." Bosco held his wife close. I just want us to be as happy as we have been forever.

"We don't have to stay in bed to be happy Bosco."

"I know. It just seems safer here. Nothing can go wrong if you never get out of bed." Seajae knew something deeper was bothering her husband but the phone rang pushing all thoughts of Bosco's troubles out of her mind. "Don't answer that Seajae."

"I have to. It might be an emergecy."

"I know. It's always an emergency. Please just once let it ring." The look in Bosco's eyes broke her heart but she reached over him and answered it anyway.

"Seajae Boscorelli."

"Seajae it's Sully, let me talk to Bosco." She handed the phone to her husband.

"It's Sully for you." He took the phone and she started to get up but Bosco tuned pinning her to the bed.

"I'm not though with you." He put the phone up to his ear. "Yeah what do you need old man?"

"None of your smart mouth that's for sure." Bosco smiled a little. Sully was in a mood. "We're having a bit of a problem in holding."

"And this becomes my problem because?"

"It's the guy you arrested at the end of your shift last night. The drunk in the black SUV."

"What's he saying I did?"

"He ain't saying nothing Bosco. He's dead." Bosco rolled off his wife and stood up.

"He wasn't that way when I put him in there."

"While I tend to believe you I have a jag off IAD crawling up my ass as we speak."

"Another lovely day at Club Boscorelli." He hung up the phone and put his arms on his knees and rubbed his face.

"You okay?" Seajae sat on the bed.

"Do I look okay?" Bosco went to the closet and got a shirt and pulled it on and slid into the jeans that layed over the hamper. "I need to go to work. I don't if I'll be back before my shift."

"Bosco what's wrong?"

"Nothing a good union rep will get me out of." He put on his sneakers and tied them not wanting to deal with any more drama then he had to. Seajae came around the bed. She took his arm.

"It can't be that bad."

"Well it can't get much worse. I'll see you later." He pulled his arm out of her grasp and headed for the door.

"You forget your manners Boscorelli." He turned and looked at her. Heading down the hall he went into his son's room. Baily was sitting on the floor with his two sisters and little brother on his lap. He was reading a story.

"I was keeping them busy so you and mom could sleep in." Bosco smiled at his newly aquired son.

"Unfourtunatly Sully made that a little difficault but thank you." He bent down and the three little ones came and hugged their father. "Dad's gotta go to work for a little bit." He kissed them all. "I love you guys." He stood and headed out the door.

"Dad?" Baily stood up.

"Yeah son."

"It'll work out…whatever it is."

"You think so huh?"

"Yeah. Mom wouldn't let it end anyother way." Bosco knew that in his heart that Seajae wouldn't let this break him or take him away. But maybe it was time he fought his own battles.

"No she wouldn't. See ya later."

"Yeah. Take care of yourself."

"I will. You take care of everyone else, okay."

"You got it." Bosco turned and left the children in the capable hands of their big brother. Seajae was sitting at the table, starring at her cup of coffee. Bosco went to her and sqatted down and took her chin in his hand.

"I can handle this."

"You don't have to do it alone."

"I know but sometimes I just need to try. A man is dead. A man that I was the last person he had contact with. I'm sure it's nothing but I need to check it out myself." He kissed the top of her head as he got up. "I love you more then life itself Seajae but right now I need to do this by myself." He grabbed his keys, his gun from the safe and his jacket and headed out to find out his fate…all by himself.