This story is based on if Rae met Finn while inside. I have changed a few things from the show, which you will find out as you read. But i hope you enjoy!
I only had 1 weeks left. 1 week and i would finally be free of this place.
It's been four months since i first come here, but it felt like a life time. I don't know what people thought, did they know why i was here? I could imagine my mother now, blushing and rambling some random rubbish as a reason for my sudden departure. Is it strange that i wasn't really excited to see my mother? She had only visited a few times, she says it's because the Doctors told her to visit me as little as possible to give me space. But i know that's bullshit, other peoples family members visit often. She was probably up to her usual routine. Concentrating on diets that don't work because she stuffs her face when their done, and trying to find a man. That was my mother, probably more man mad than i was. And that was saying something.
Men, oh men. I longed for my time to come with a man. To gain some experience. I was 16, and i haven't even kissed a man yet. But i guess, being in a mental hospital didn't really pull in the males.
That was the main reason i couldn't wait to leave. Also the walls were starting to drive me insane, and i started to fantasies about the air tasting differently on the other side. I was ready, i felt it in bones. The only thing that was keeping me insane now was Tix, Danny and imagining Doctor Nicks mouth on mine. And perhaps any mans mouth on mine, or other places.
I was sat in the canteen stirring around a pot of jelly, making it look like i'm eating when in fact i'm not. I will take it back to my room and eat it later when i'm alone. I noticed that Tix was doing to same thing, just moving around the food on her plate quickly, now and again bring it to her mouth but never taking a bit. It's a trick that works, the doctors never notice that it doesn't actually go in our mouths.
"Are you excited about next week Rae?" Tix asks, picking up a yoghurt, bringing the empty spoon to her mouth then putting it back down. The thing that was different between Tix and i, was that i actually ate. I just didn't want to in front of people. Tix, she never ate. Not even when she was alone.
"Yeah," I said, "I cant wait to get out of here, to see the outside world again."
"You have to come back and tell me how it is Rae, promise?" She stared hard at me with her red rimmed eyes. You could see the exhaustion on her face, but would that stop her? No.
I nodded slowly. "Of course i will Tix, I'll visit as much as i can."
She gave a small smile and moved a piece of her pixie hair cut away from her face.
Just then, i looked towards the entrance of the canteen and my breath caught. There, in the doorway was one of the most beautiful men i have seen since. He was even hotter than Doctor Nick. He had his arm around one the patients here who had recently stared to refuse to eat. She was a nice enough lady, but had declined in health quickly in the passed month. He must of been her son. He had simular feature, brown hair and dark brooding eyes that seemed to cut into your soul.
The boy looked up as he entered and caught me staring. His hair was cut to his ears, and his face held no smile but rather a bored look. He also had a body that could even make angels cry, and make someone like me, who was nothing but a fat worm compared to him, melt away into a pool of gushing mess. I held his gaze for a few seconds more before looking away. After going four months of not seeing another member of the opposite sex apart from your doctor, you find yourself going slightly crazy with sexual frustration. Even though i have never done anything with another man, i still wanted to. I still thought about it.
I dared to look back up and found that he was helping the women sit down. He bent down and whispered something into her ear before moving forward to join the cue.
I chewed on the end of my plastic fork and watched him for a little while. Maybe i shouldn't have, i guess it did come across as creepy. Just as i was about to look away, he looked back as he picked up a tray and caught my eye again.
Yep, he was probably thinking what a creep. His expression revealed as much as his eyes narrowed at me. I could see the question behind them. "What the fuck do you want?"
I looked back to Tix who was staring at me with wide eyes. "Do you know him?" She asked.
I shook my head and fought the urge to look at him again. She bit her lip and gave me a small but sweet smile. "You'll know plenty of men soon Rae, and you have to tell me everything about... Well, you know."
I nodded hard. "Oh i will Tix, don't worry." I made it my goal to get a boyfriend this year, i had to! I had to at least experiance the real thing instead of only thinking about it. The only problem was, that i weighed 16 and half stone. I wasnt exactly a 'catch'.
"Well," I said to Tix as i stood up. "I'm gonna head back to my room now." I said and took the tray with me. She gave me a slight nod, and began concentrating on moving her food around.
Some serious eating was needed after that embarrassing encounter.
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