Tragedy
It was all his fault he thought as they sped towards the house of the man they now knew to be the UnSub. He'd sent her right into the lion den. He should have never let her go there alone when they thought he could be a potential. She'd only joined his team six months ago and had been trying so hard to make him proud.
It wasn't even her fault he was reserved with her. It was his. After all he was the one who had signed her onto his team; she hadn't been planted on it to be a mole. He'd even quickly accepted her as a valuable asset to the team in the wake of JJ and Kate taking time off for maternity leave.
It had all changed with one minor conversation. One day Reid had turned to her mentioning how her surname was just like the trill on Deep Space Nine's. She'd smiled that she was proud of it and they'd got into a deep conversation then and there about Star Trek and he'd seen them become as close as he and Reid had been since Maeve died.
Since then he'd seen less and less of Reid and it hurt more than anything but he tried to show it. He'd felt he'd been replaced by their new agent even though no-one had known how close he and Spencer had become since Spencer had also lost someone he loved to the hands of an UnSub. Everyone that is except Dave who repeatedly told him to get his head out of his arse and talk to Spencer how he felt.
He didn't know if Dave knew the depth of his feelings for Spencer or if he didn't care. It hadn't hurt being replaced it had broken his heart though he tried not to show it. He couldn't stop thinking about him and he got jealous every time he saw them together. He wanted to rip her hand off Spencer's arm when she placed it on and steal him back but he knew it was irrational.
Spencer wasn't his no matter how he hurt. He had no idea how much he loved him. He'd been too much of a coward to admit how much he'd come to mean to him before he started spending time with Agent Dax. He hadn't even realised how far gone he was until that day.
Now it was all his fault she was all alone in that man's house. He'd let his jealously cloud his judgement when Spencer had offered to scope out the place with her. Something he'd promised he'd never do when the green monster had first reared it's ugly head. Now she could be in critical danger. If only he'd sent Morgan or Dave with her she wouldn't have been alone. He just prayed they got there in time.
When they reached the house they parked and ran out towards the front door. They scoped the house with their guns drawn not knowing what they'd find. He heard faint screams coming from the basement so he quietly went down the stairs signalling Reid to follow him with their guns drawn.
When he saw her lying there on the floor fighting for her life he tried to swallow the lump in his throat. It was all his fault; he should never have let her go alone with no-one to back her up. He then saw her give in and tears misted his eyes while threatening to choke him. He shook them off and raised his gun as soon as he reached the bottom of the stairs.
"It's too late, agents. She's gone," Ryan smiled.
Finally he snapped and shot every bullet out of his Glock almost taking off Ryan's head. He was about to take out the gun on his ankle when he felt a hand on his arm. He looked to his side to see Spencer's devastated face.
"He's gone," he answered trying not to show the tears that bubbled under his voice.
He nodded numbly and tried to swallow the tears that were threatening to come to the surface asking, "How about Melanie?"
The younger man got down by the other agent feeling her pulse and looked up at their boss with the tears streaming down his face shaking his head. Aaron tried to blink away the tears that were currently stinging his eyes and slid down the wall. It was all his fault he thought as the tears overcame him. What was he going to tell the team let alone her parents?
