The Mess Up
Castle's POV in the season 1 finale
I saw it in her eyes. She didn't have to tell me how hurt she was. I had overstepped, reopened a scar she fought so hard to heal. I realized suddenly that I had been lying to everyone, even myself, about my motives. I said looking into her mother's case was for her, helping her get closer to closure, but now I knew I really hadn't thought about how this would affect her. I was just too damn caught up in my own little game of playing detective. And now I have to pay the price. I should have just stopped when she told me to. Listened when she said she wanted to put this behind her. I know how hard it is to earn her trust. She's built so many walls, blocked so many out. I was lucky enough to be one of the few people she went ahead and let in, and I blew it. But I was sorry, I knew it didn't mean much, but I really was. If she wanted me to leave, I would. I'd understand. But before that happens I'm going to try my hardest to make up for this, to gain her trust back once again.
