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Chapter 1: Decision

Bella's Point Of View

(Quoted from Stephanie Meyer Eclipse page.515 - 517 chapter 23 Monster)

"Bella he's already miles away from here, and it's cold".

"I don't care. I can't just sit here".

I shrugged off Jacob's parka. Shoved my feet into my boots and crawled swiftly to the door my; legs felt numb.

"I have to go - I have to…" I didn't know how to finish the sentence, didn't know what there was to do, but I unzipped the door anyway, and I climbed out into the bright blue morning.

There was less snow than I would have thought after the fury of last night's storm. Probably it had blown away rather than melted in the sun that now shone low in the southeast, glancing off the snow that lingered and stabbing at my unadjusted eyes. The air still had a bite to it, but it was dead calm and slowly becoming more seasonable as the sun rose higher.

Seth Clearwater was curled up on a patch of dry pine needles in the shadow of a thick spruce, his head on his paws. His sand colored fur was almost invisible against the dead needles, but I could see the bright snow reflect off his open eyes. He was staring at me with what I imagined was an accusation.

I knew Edward was following me as I stumbled toward the trees. I couldn't hear him, but the sun reflected off his skin in glittering rainbows that danced ahead of me. He didn't reach out to stop me until I was several paces into the forest.

His hand caught my left wrist. He ignored it when I tried to yank myself free.

"You can't go after him. Not today. It's almost time. And getting yourself lost wouldn't help anyone, regardless."

I twisted my wrist, pulling uselessly.

"I'm sorry, Bella," he whispered. "I'm sorry I did that."

"You didn't do anything. It's my fault. I did this. I did everything wrong. I could have…When he…I shouldn't have…I…I…" I was sobbing.

"Bella, Bella".

His arms folded around me, and my tears soaked into his shirt.

"I should have – told him – I should – have said –"What? What could have made this right? " He shouldn't have – found out like this."

"Do you want me to see if I can bring him back, so that you can talk to him? There's still a little time," Edward murmured, hushed agony in his voice.

I nodded into his chest, afraid to see his face.

"Stay by the tent. I'll be back soon."

His arms disappeared. He left so quickly that in the second it took for me to look up, he was already gone.

I was alone.

(Quotation ended)

Bella's Point Of View

Now was my chance.

After all my thinking last night and this morning's dramatic start, I had finally made my night was like a horrible nightmare or maybe it was. I couldn't tell either way. I don't know what to think anymore, everything just, just went up in smoke so quickly… I thought Edward and I would be together happily, and easily, but then…Oh, I don't know, I guess I loved Jacob all along. The problem is I can't hurt them anymore and I can't hurt the other.

What in world was I thinking when I thought I could make them both happy. I was going to break one of them and have him smiling smugly down at the other. But could I really hurt Jacob or Edward like that?

If I was going to break one, it was only fair to break the other.

I looked back at Seth. The giant sandy wolf looked so peaceful lying there. His ear twitched and he looked up at me as if I had said his name. I smiled acknowledging the fact that he was there, Seth dropped his gaze back to the floor. Suddenly he was on all fours whining.

That simple whine was my queue, I turned to face the surrounding forest, suddenly memories of Edward and Jacob flooded my mind.

My mind flashed images of what was now my past.

A sharp pain stung my head as I saw Edward smiling my favorite croaked smile, then Jacob smiling my sun into existence, I would never forgive myself for this.

Then the same stab of pain again, but for a different reason. The images were the truth and I was unconsciously trying to persuade my path. I had made my decision. Another image; Jasper trying to push past Edward to get to me at my 18th birthday party. If that wasn't enough to remind me the difference between what's right and what is killing me to do, the next one was; I saw Paul and Jacob fighting in the clearing. Not my Jacob. If I stayed any longer, I would just make things worse, however more attached I would love to be it would do nobody any good. Edward, Jacob, I couldn't hurt anyone anymore. I didn't know where I was going, but I had to go, to get out, anywhere. I had to tear myself out of their lives, if that's what I had to do, I would do it for their own good. They were my whole reason for existence and If I was leaving them then I was leaving my past existence. I was being torn out of existence.

"No," I whispered. I had made my choice and I was not going back on it. I took at last look at Seth who was whining quietly. I smiled at the boy who reminded me of a younger Jacob. "Goodbye", I said under my breath, though the young werewolf did not look up.

I took my first step into the surrounding forest. This was the end of a chapter in my life. I had been torn out of existence.

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