Spoilers: Eventually up to the end of Season 5.
Disclaimer – I don't own any of these characters
It's about your mother
Part 1
Dreading what he was about to do, he said, "Take a seat"
"Castle what's going on?"
"It's about your mother"
"I told you we'd be over if you touched my mothers case. How could you do this? You have no respect for me." Kate said softly and turned with tears in her eyes to go back into Will's room feeling sick to her stomach and wanting nothing more then to be curled up at home on her couch alone.
"Wait, just listen to me for a minute." Castle was desperate for her to hear what he was trying to tell her "The ME was wrong. It was a targeted murder. He killed 4 people, not just your mom. He killed a former law student of hers, a documents clerk, and another lawyer. I had a forensic pathologist look into her file and he..."
"How the heck did you get the file? What gives you the right to share that file with ANYONE? How could you do this to me?" Kate's voice got louder and her resolve was clear. "Castle, we are done." And she walked past him and out the hospital doors without looking back.
He knew better then to chase after her or call out.
She grabbed the first cab and road silently home in the back. She switched off her cell phone not wanting to talk to Will, Castle or the boys. And pulled out her ring from around her neck. As angry as she had been he had given her some new information about her mom's case. She didn't want to go down the rabbit hole again, but she would be lying to herself if she said she wasn't intrigued. What had really happened to her mom? And could she really solve the case and get justice for herself and her dad.
Exhausted physically and emotionally, Kate poured herself a glass of wine and cried with her knees tucked into her chest. Castle's betrayal, Will's shooting, missing her mom, Kate was overwhelmed by her emotions and couldn't be the strong cop she was normally. At that moment, she was right back in that alley, 19-year-old student, sad, alone and devastated.
Part 2
After a sleepless night, Kate dragged herself out of bed and made herself a cup of coffee. She prayed silently that he had understood her enough to stay out of the precinct. She put on her watch and her chain thinking of her mom and tried to focus on the paperwork she was going to have to fill in about the Moran case.
Her phone had three missed calls from Will and about twelve text messages from him trying to find her, but she couldn't deal with him. She was grateful, but inexplicably hurt that Castle had not tried to contact her.
Esposito called as she was getting into her car about a body drop on 51st and Lex. So she changed course and headed there hoping that this case could help keep her mind off of Castle and her mother's murder.
She had done it before successfully, instead of dealing with her issues, she buried herself in her job.
Arriving on scene her heart dropped slightly when Ryan brought her up to speed on the vic. "The victim was stabbed multiple times and died from blood loss."
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"Castle! Bro, where were you today?" Esposito asked Castle on the phone that evening "This stabbing is pretty weird, right up your alley".
"Beckett knows I have the file, she knows I looked into the case, and she's pissed." Castle replied dejectedly.
"Oh Shit Bro! Did you tell her I gave it to you?"
"No, don't worry, this ones on me completely, but I'm going to give her some time to cool down before I come back in" Castle had discussed the situation with his mother earlier in the day when Ryan had texted him about the case and she had strongly counseled him to give Beckett some time and space. But despite this decision, he missed her already and wished he could be back at the 12th playing cop.
Part 3
She missed him. She didn't admit it to anyone else, but in those few months he had been shadowing her daily she had gotten used to his coffee, smile and scent. Now, it was gone. She was still angry and hurt by his actions, but as she really thought about it she was more hurt by his timing then anything else.
If she was being honest with herself, she had thought about asking him to help her try to solve the case. Especially since his help on motor oil case, he had a different perspective than a cop. He looked for the story when she got stuck on the evidence. But she wanted to ask him when she was ready to re-open it. She didn't want him to pry it open without her permission.
Burying herself in work was working to a lesser extent than she would have liked as this case reminded her so much of those crime scene photos she had seen of her mother and Castle's voice kept ringing in her ears every time she looked at the murder board "The M.E. was wrong."
But she was stubborn and she did not want to deal with the repercussions of what opening her mom's case could do to her and even less what allowing Castle into the fold could do to her. She also didn't want to get emotional and that was the case that would break her. So she pushed her emotions down and became the by the book, serious and driven cop to her outside observers, while she broke into a million pieces deep down.
Part 4
Until Cosmo and the Mayor helped him wiggle his way back in to the 12th Precinct. She had no idea he was coming, but when she looked up and saw him step through those elevator doors, her heart skipped a beat. Affection for him washed over her, and then was quickly replaced by feelings of disappointment and anger. She felt all sorts of emotions, and swallow deep to keep them under control as he walked tentatively towards her followed by a camera crew, reporter and two models. She saw him turn to his entourage and say something to them before leaving them standing near the center of the Precinct Bull Pen to set up.
He approached her hesitantly and with a small smile waited for her to speak.
"What are you doing here Castle? I told you we were done. That means I don't want you here." She said quietly but confidently so as not to attract any more attention to their situation from her colleagues who were already straining their necks in anticipation of a blowout argument.
"I'm sorry Kate, I didn't have a choice…"
Castle was interrupted mid-sentence by the camera man shouting, alright Rick, girls are ready we're set, let's do this!"
"Sorry" he mumbled as he walked away from her.
Kate looked up at the girls who had taken off their coats and now looked like strippers, she went quickly from disappointed and angry to enraged as she watched the ridiculous photo shoot start. She wondered if this Nikki Heat press could get any worse for her image and career.
She stood up to take a coffee break, but before she could get more than 6 steps from her desk, Captain Montgomery introduced her to the reporter who would be interviewing her about Castle. Her stress level peaked as she sat back down in her chair and cradled her empty green coffee mug in her hands and started listening to the reporter.
