Disclaimer: I do not own them, I merely play with them

Title: In Her Words.

Author: Jade (aka Aragornsfavorite)

Email: PG-13 now, R later

Warning: AU. Mild sex, Slash Implied

Chapters: 1/15

Feedback: yes please

Summary: Glorfindel finds his daughter diary after she has sailed west and reads it to the others.

A/N.. This is a little different from what I would normally write but this started as a dream I had and since then the plot bunnies have been biting.

He hesitated just before opening the door, his hand resting on the handle. With a deep breath, Glorfindel finally stepped into her old room. Memories of her as a young elfling hitting him instantly. There was not much that could make Glorfindel get emotional but as he now stood in the middle of his daughter's room, he had to force back his emotions. She had made her choice, left everyone she cared about and that cared about her behind as she was sailed west. He understood why, everyone did. That of course had not made it any easier to see her go. He ran his hand through his hair and looked around the room. He wondered where to start and opened the wardrobe finally, starting there as he packed the clothes she had not brought with her.

It was a few hours later when he looked around the now empty room. Her things removed slowly by the servants and brought to where she had instructed. It hurt him more to see the room as empty as it was now. It had been her room for over three thousand years. Through it was Elladan who was asked to clean out this room; Glorfindel had thought the oldest twin had suffered enough of the last few months. Anira's being attacked was hard enough but to find out she had lost their child due to the attack was even harder on him, then her decision to head to the Gray Havens. Glorfindel could not let him suffer through this as well.

With a deep sigh he was about to step out of the room when he noticed the book. He wondered why he had not noticed it before as he picked it up. He recognized it as soon as he had it in his hands. It was a journal, Anira's journal. She used to love to write and would write each night about how her day went, whether it was good or bad. It was no surprise to anyone when she had become Erestor's assistant as she became old enough. It was then she would spend more time with Elladan and eventually they were bound to each other. He knew she wrote about that as well in a different journal. She told him that the day she became Elladan's wife was like starting a new life therefore she had started a new journal. He had not known until now that her old one has been left in her old room. Without thinking much about it, he took the journal into his room and sat down on the bed. His fingers tapping on the hard cover as he debated with himself on whether he should or should not read it. Shaking his head, he put the book down on his dresser and left his room, needing air to clear his mind.

Keeping himself busy for a few days, Glorfindel noticed that Elrond had become quiet and withdrawn. The few times Elladan had looked over at him during dinner or lunches, Glorfindel could see how much he was missing Anira, it was in his eyes. Elrond must have seen this as well for he had relieved Elladan of any duties unto he felt ready to return. Even Elrohir was staying close to Elladan. After a meeting with both Erestor and Elrond, Glorfindel returned to his room. He planned to get some rest for a few hours. After a few hours, he was still laying in his bed awake. Looking over to his dresser he saw the journal there and gave in, he got up and took it then settled back into his bed and opened the cover. He looked down at the paper that fell out and reached for it. It was in Anira's writing and unless he was mistaken, it was written not very long ago. Lying back on his pillow she started with the letter first. The Journal lying open beside him on the bed.

Dearest Ada,

I wish it had not come to this, that I did not have to go away and leave you and my family. Know that I already miss you all more then anything and I hope that this letter finds you well. I also want you to know that none of it was your fault. You taught me that everything happens for a reason and that it is not always easy to see what that reason is. I believe this and in time, perhaps we will know the reason for my being attacked as violently as I was. I left this journal for you to find for I have a favor to ask of you. For many years, you and everyone have shared in different moments of my life, moments that I will always hold dear. I would like for every one to know how I felt and my thoughts of some of these moments and my Journal is the best way to do this. I leave the choice to you on which entries would be best but if it is not too much to ask could you please read some paged to the others. It is my last gift to you all until we can all be reunited. As I promised Elladan that I would watch each sunset and think of him, I promise to watch each sunrise and think of you. For that is when I am reminded of you the most. Growing up you were always to one to wake me up every morning. I miss you and I will be among the first to greet when you arrive.

With a daughter's love,

Anira

Glorfindel put the letter down and got up, walking out onto his balcony and took a few deep breaths of the night air. He had already been missing her but after reading her words he missed her even more. It took a few minutes before he could return inside. Carefully taking the letter he read the words once more then folded it and placed it by his bed. Running his hand over the journal slowly he lifted it up and started to read what she had long ago written. By the time he was done, a new day had already begun. With the journal in hand, he went to Erestor's study.

"What brings you here this early and before breakfast" The advisor gave him a smiled

"I need page markers" he replied quietly, trying not to yawn as he started to feel how tired he was.
"May I ask what for?" Erestor asked him, his eyebrow arched barely enough for Glorfindel to notice." You are not one for reading books"

Erestor was right, Glorfindel could not deny that. He took the offered markers silently at first.

"It's a favor for someone." He said with a small smile. He turned to leave and got o the door before stopping and looking back at Erestor over his shoulder.

"If you really wish to know. Meet me in the hall of fire after sunset." He said then without waiting for an answer her left.

The day had finally come to an end and shortly after Sunset, Glorfindel walked into the Hall of fire. He noticed Erestor had indeed arrived, As well as Elladan and Elrohir. Elrond was seated by the fire with Celebrian at his side. He had expected them to be there. It was the presence of Mirkwood's prince that surprised him the most. He greeted Legolas briefly as he took a seat in front of everyone.

"Glorfindel what is this all about?" Elrond's voice filled the room.
"Anira" He replied, knowing he would have their full attention now." She has asked a favor of me and I intend to grant her wish"

He paused briefly and had glanced at Elladan, seeing the same sadness in his eyes that he had seen since the moment Anira had departed.

"What is this favor she asks?" Erestor was the one who spoke this time

"She wished to share her thoughts and feeling with all of us." Glorfindel finally replied" she has left her journal for us and asked me to read some of her entries."

After a short silence filled the room, Glorfindel looked up when he heard a voice that he almost did not recognize. Elladan's

"Then perhaps you should start reading" He had said.

Glorfindel nodded and looked at everyone briefly as he opened the Journal to the first page he had placed a marker. He noticed Erestor's brief smile and knew the advisor had seen the page markers. He took a deep breath and began to read.

To be continued….