Emily's POV
It's been two weeks since the incident on the rooftop. The girls and I have all been distracted by different causes lately. Aria hasn't left Ezra's side since he's been in the hospital. He's been in a coma since that night and the brunette is in rough shape. The usually spunky Hanna has shut herself off since that night. I'm sure she was already dealing with the insecurities that Alison's return brought up but then Caleb reappeared to complicate things even more. Spencer's be distraught since realizing she didn't hurt Alison, but I can tell she often finds herself digging in the dark corners of her mind looking for more answers to that night. Police, detectives and reporters have constantly bombarded Alison and it's hard to imagine things going back to normal now that she's returned. Then here I am.
With all of my closest friends dealing with their own problems I feel guilty asking them to help me with mine. Alison is my problem. So many thoughts have been running through my mind since we found out she was still alive. During that time though, I had Paige to distract me. Her betrayal is tough for me. It's times like this, when the other girls are busy, that I would have confided in Paige.
Everyone knows it, but no one is asking. Everyone sees it in my eyes. Aria comforts me with her sad eyes, Hanna attempts to make a joke out of a lame pun, and Spencer corrects Hanna's misinterpretations. The question they aren't asking is "Do you still have feelings for Alison?" it's a question that I've been avoiding as well. When I was with Paige, it was easier. My only goal was to be a friend to Ali, and help her come home. I know that deep down I wanted more, but I'd never admit that to myself. She seems changed. When I met her at the warehouse, before Spencer interrupted, she was the most sincere I've ever seen her.
I wake up in the middle of the night sweating and breathing heavy. I have dreams about things being the way they use to be. I guess I should say nightmares, not dreams. All of Ali's snide comments, the teasing, her enjoyment of me hanging on every one of her words, it couldn't return to that. I'm afraid that if I admit my feelings for Alison that she'll hold them over my head once again.
Could this time away really have changed her? Could she really be a compassionate human being for once? These are all the questions that have been swirling around my head for the last two weeks. Unfortunately the more I look for the answers, the more questions I have.
Thanks so much for reading! Send me your thoughts on this story! It's my first Fanfic but i just really love the pairing of Emily and Alison, it's so complicated and intricate. Please favourite, review and let me know if i should keep writing!
