Arctic Gaze

In the safety of my quarters
My mind is free to wander
In thoughts I can't allow
In the presence of others

They all think
I'm the Ice Queen
That emotion I can't feel
They don't know who I really 'am

Behind the impeccable masks
And the cold Monalisa smile
Is a person who feels things quite deeply
And a heart afraid to love and trust

I thought I succeeded
In hiding my true self from others
And that nobody really cares
What's happening inside my self

Then arctic gaze found its mark
No matter how hard I tried
That blue gaze always sees right through me
With understanding and something more I'm not willing to name...

Under that arctic gaze
All my resolves began to crumble
Desire, an emotion I hadn't allow my self to feel for ages
Aches deep within me and threatening to surface for his cool eyes to see...

With an iron control
Honed through out the years
I set aside that feeling from his arctic gaze
Feigning indifference to his charm and everything else he makes me feel...

How can arctic blue eyes
Who looks eerily cold and deadly when facing an enemy
And yet can convey the warmest feeling
When his gaze is upon me...

I always brush his offers
Feigning indifference and professionalism
Reasoning with the greater good should come first,
But inside hoping he will never stop pursuing me and looking at me with those arctic gaze that always make me feel....

loved and safe....